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  "I see you're sobered up and rested, Nikolai." Giovanni stated.

  "Can we just not talk about last night. We have more important matters to worry about. Like how we're going to lure out Connor and put an end to my father." Nikolai rolled his eyes stuffing his mouth full of eggs.

  "Right...I need to call Rose and Caterina before we get started. I'll be about an hour then we can discuss the plan." Giovanni stood and headed towards the hallway.

  "Vladimir, I need to take Lydia somewhere. I'll be back in a few hours to discuss the plan. Make sure you keep the security tight, don't want any unwanted visitors slipping in unannounced."

  "Sure, boss."

  I had a ball cap on to hide my hair and Nikolai had me dressed in his clothes to hide my identity. We stopped at the gate and he laced his hand with mine. "I'm here for you, anything you need. Just say the word."

  "I'm okay, I've been doing this alone for years." He continued through the gate and stopped at my mother's grave. He helped me out and held me close as we got closer to her headstone. I knelt down and place the white lilies on the ground. I traced her name.

  Alexis O'Callaghan

  Loving mother and wife

  Born December 15, 1972

  Died April 17, 2008

  Lilies don't last forever but angels do

  "I'm so sorry, mama. I miss you so much. I just wish you were here with me." A single tear slipped down my cheek. Even though, it had been years since she passed it still hurt the same. The thing about losing someone you care about is the pain never lessens. You just learn to push your feelings away and cope. You put a fake smile on your face and make everyone around you think you're doing okay. Right now, is not one of those times. I was weak and vulnerable right now and I hated that.

  I began to cry out to her, but Nikolai wrapped his arms around me rocking me. "It's okay, I've got you baby. I'm right here."

  "I-I'm sorry, I don't usually act this way when I visit. It's just..."

  He placed a kiss to my temple and held me tighter. "Shhh, let's get you back home."

  Did he really just say home?

  I was just a guest in his estate.

  I must be hearing things.

  I leaned on the window as we headed in the direction of his estate. My eyes began to grow heavy as I watched the trees go by pulling me into a deep sleep.

  Chapter 15

  Nikolai

  The date on her mother’s grave haunted me. Something about it was familiar but I couldn’t put my finger on it. There was a significance to that exact day. I just didn’t know what. Whatever it was, I’m sure my father had a hand in her death.

  April 17, 2008.

  That was the date on her mother’s grave.

  I glanced over to her to see she had fallen asleep. Fuck, why can’t I remember that exact day? When I get home, I’ll do some digging to see what I can find. Pulling up to the estate, I put it in park and rubbed my temples. Exiting the SUV, I ran around to the passenger side and carefully picked her up without waking her. I shut the door with my foot and made my way to the entrance. Giovanni, Vladimir, and the rest of my men stared blankly like they had grown two heads. Of course, they would act this way. None of them had ever seen me gentle with a woman until Lydia came around. I suppose I should thank my sister for that. If Anna never became friends with her, she wouldn’t be in my arms right now.

  I laid her in my bed and covered up her curvaceous body. My cock was already stirring at the sight of her in my sheets. Fuck, what was it about this woman that made me turned on by just the sight of her. My fingers grazed her cheek tracing down her face. As I stepped out in the hallway, Giovanni smirked as did Vladimir.

  “I see the way you look at her.” Giovanni stated.

  “What is happening to me?” I knew what it was, just needed to hear someone else say it out loud. If I were to say it, everything became real. I needed to pretend a little while longer. Just long enough to erase the threats. I knew if I said it out loud, everything I would disappear like a cloud of smoke.

  “That my boy is what they call feelings. You may not love her yet, but in time you will. Mark my words, hell is going to freeze over that day. The day you fall in love with Lydia.” He patted my face with a smug look.

  What is love really?

  To me right now, love is just a word I don’t understand. I never had that as a child. My childhood consisted of being tormented by my father. I stood in front of Anna protecting her from him as he kicked me in the ribs. Eventually, the pain just went away. The only love I had was for my mother and my sister. My mother later disappeared from the estate. My father said he killed the filthy whore. I wasn’t sure whether to believe him or not. I’m still not sure if she’s dead or alive. I guess I’ll never know.

  I know I should push Lydia away, but now it’s too late. She mixed up with me and it’s far too late to back out now. She’s in too deep in this war my father had spun in his web. Now the only thing I can do is protect her. And I will with everything I’ve got. Even if I have to catch the speeding bullet racing towards her heart.

  “April 17, 2008.” I stated to them.

  “What did you just say?!” Giovanni narrowed his eyes.

  “April 17, 2008.” I took a step towards him mirroring his movements.

  “How do you fucking know that date?!” He grabbed me by the collar.

  “Look, I’m not starting shit. I know that date because that’s the fucking numbers on her fucking mother’s grave. Now tell me, what does that date mean? Because I have no clue.”

  He released my shirt and visibly relaxed. “That is the day I lost Caterina’s mother and also the day Luca…the day he lost Alexis. They had an affair one year before while she was with Connor. He found out and slit her throat right in front of him. But you have to understand, Lydia just up and disappeared. Luca looked everywhere, but it’s like she died along with her mother. She was nowhere to be found. It was Connor’s doing, I’m sure of it.”

  “Fuck, so this isn’t just about my father. This thing started with Alexis, Luca, and Connor. But that was years ago. Why strike now?”

  “I don’t know, that’s why we need you to get close to your father. He’s best friends with him. If he thought you was on his side, then we have a chance at finding out.”

  “Shit, I’ll set everything up. What do I tell Lydia?” I didn’t want to keep any secrets from her in fear she would leave me. If she left, she would be putting herself in danger.

  “You tell her the truth, let her know she can trust you. It’s the only way.” I nodded knowing he was right. I needed Lydia to trust me.

  I just needed her.

  She would need to stay hidden also while I planned all this. I needed somewhere they wouldn’t think to look for her. Just for a while until I can get everything under control. Luka was protecting my sister, so I didn’t have to worry about that. I knew he would do anything to protect her, or it would be his ass. He also knew the warning I gave him about keeping his hands to himself. He wouldn’t betray me like that.

  “Vladimir, I need you to set up a meeting with my father. Not here, though. Tell him to meet me down at the club.”

  I stepped in my room to see Lydia just waking up. God, she truly was a beauty. I took her hand and brought it to my mouth placing a kiss on her knuckles. “Lydia, I need to do something, and I want you to know it’s all for you. So, you can be free from Connor and my father. Just know this, if anything is to happen to me…”

  “No, don’t you dare say that. you’re Nikolai Vasiliev, nobody and I mean nobody can take you out.” She cried out.

  “Baby, this is something I have to do.” I cupped her cheeks as she straddles me and pushed me back to the headboard. She runs her fingers through my hair as I cup her face. “Kotenok, let me do this for you. Let me be your beast.”

  “Nik, you’re making me so hot.” She began unbuttoning my shirt and kissed the exposed flesh. She really knew how to make me how to lose myself when she did things like th
is.

  “I’m going to have to do things, Lydia. Bad things.”

  Another kiss.

  Another button.

  “I don’t care.” She darted her tongue across my nipple and bit down. My body buzzed with desire only she could bring me. My skin tingled as small bumps began to rise all over me.

  “I’m going to be a different man, a very dark and twisted soul.”

  Another kiss.

  Another button.

  “Still don’t care.” She muttered as she drugs her tongue upward and bit down on my neck.

  “Fuck, you’re killing me, torturing my beast. You feel how hard I am for you?” I twisted her hair in my fist and yanked her head backward to face me. “I’m breaking all my rules with you.”

  “Nik,” She whimpered my name as gave her a firm smack on her ass. “Yes, more.”

  “You want more, or do you want harder.”

  Another smack.

  “H-harder, please.” Her heat pressed against my throbbing member.

  “I want you to get on your hands and knees. I’m going to fuck you like a beast.” I smashed my lips against her mouth and bit down on her bottom lip.

  “Fuck me, Nik. Let your beast come out to play.” Sorry kotenok, he already has and he’s fucking thirsty.

  I popped the button and unzipped my pants freeing my cock. He was so hard for this woman on her hands and knees. I smirked as I pulled up her dress taking in her submission to me. I always knew I would have her bowing to her king. I pumped myself as she looked back peering through those lustful hazel eyes. I leaned over her and grabbed her by the hair forcing her to look in my dark eyes. “I’m going to fuck you deep. Hard. So. Fucking. Hard.”

  Lydia let out a throaty moan and pressed against the tip. “Please, Nik.”

  I thrust upward slamming inside her dripping warmth without warning. I wrapped one hand around her throat and one digging into her side. It seemed like her pussy got better each time I was inside her. I didn’t know how I was going to survive the days I would have to be away from her. The plan was already set in motion. Now there’s no going back. Not until my father and Connor are dead.

  “Nik, oh that’s it.” She screamed pushing me to go harder.

  “Fuck, you feel so damn good.” She arched her back as I pulled out and slammed back into her.

  “Fuck Nik, I’m getting so close.”

  Another thrust.

  “I want to feel you squeeze my cock. Come kotenok, come for me.” I reached down and pinched her clit as her walls gripped me. She was so fucking tight coming all over my dick. So tight I thought I would pass out.

  “Oh god!” She chanted as I filled her up exploding into her.

  “Lydia, fuck.” A guttural growl erupted from me as I twitched inside her. I think I began to fall for her a little more today. It might have been the fact that I would have to go several days without her, but I wasn’t for sure. The one thing I never did was start developing feelings for the woman I had my dick in. I guess there’s a first thing for everything.

  Because I couldn’t see myself with anyone but her.

  I hated to leave her, but I knew I needed to take care of business. That business being eliminating the threats that haunted Giovanni and me. Once that is taken care of, I could focus on the one things that mattered to me.

  Lydia.

  My kotenok.

  My feisty kitten.

  I pulled out of her and cleaned myself up pulling my pants back up. I wiped the cum from her and threw the rag in the trash as she pulled her dress back down. She wrapped her arms around my neck and whispered. “Come back to me alive.”

  “I will always come back to you. I just need you to know everything that I’m about to do is all for you. You will hear things, but don’t listen. I told you I would have to be the man I swore never to be. In order to catch a fox, you have to be the fox. That, my love, is what I have to be.”

  “I don’t care that you’re about to do horrible things. Just don’t leave me again.” Tears started to form in the corner of her eyes.

  I nodded and pressed our noses against each other. “I’m never leaving you again. If I do, I’ll let you shoot me in the heart because I wouldn’t be able to live with myself. Vladimir and Luca are going to guard over you while I’m gone.”

  I grabbed the back of her neck and brought her mouth to my lips. My chest ached because I wasn’t sure if I would come back alive. In this corrupted world, you never know what will happen. I just hope I can keep my promise and come back to her. To my sister. Fuck, if I didn’t Anna would be devastated, and Luka would have to be the one to put her back together. I shook those thoughts away and devoured her soul.

  I’ll be back for you and then I’ll claim you as mine properly.

  I love you, kotenok.

  That’s what I really wanted to say but held it in just in case I didn’t return.

  Chapter 16

  Connor

  There’s a storm coming.

  It was going to be a beautiful disaster set to rip through my enemy’s path.

  Like a fucking hurricane.

  Take everything they’ve ever built and worked to keep the ground up and bring them to their knees. In order to do that, I would need to get my hands on the one thing that means everything to him. I was going to steal his most prized possession.

  His weakness.

  The precious Rose would be his downfall. When you take the king’s queen down, the entire empire will fall. It will crumble as I burn it to the ground.

  “Come here, little one.” I grabbed the busty blonde by her waist and pushed her to the wall. “Get on your knees, your master’s cock needs some attention.”

  “Yes, master.” I stepped back and watched her sink to her knees like she’d been trained to do so many times.

  Tugging at the waistband of my sweatpants, I let my granite cock bob in her face. She wrapped her slender fingers around the base and took me in her mouth without making eye contact. I thrust my hips forward forcing my entire length down her throat. “Such a good slave taking all master’s cock. This is why you’re my favorite fucktoy.”

  Tears ran down her face as she gagged on my length. I knew why she was shedding tears. It was because she hated me, but at the same time her body betrayed her. I could see her arousal leaking from her pussy onto the floor. “Poor little one, she wants to come so bad. I bet it’s making you want to beg for a release, isn’t it?”

  “Mmm.” She nodded as she bobbed faster.

  I glanced to my right to see Nikolai’s father leaning on the wall with one leg propped up as well. “Mikhail, I didn’t see you there. When did you get here?”

  “About five minutes ago, long enough to know this little whore needs a good fucking.”

  I gripped her head by the sides and thrust into her mouth as he watched her hips began to rock. I twitched in her mouth and found my release shooting the hot jizz inside her. “Swallow it all and I’ll reward you by letting my friend get you off.”

  I pulled out watching her to make sure she obeyed me. She opened her mouth and stuck out her tongue to show me she did. I pulled up my pants and grabbed the chain attached to the nipple clamps tugging firmly. “I want you to go with my friend and do everything he says. If you don’t do as I say, I’m going to punish you.”

  “Y-yes, master.” She whimpered as I released the chain.

  “Is Nikolai on board with everything?”

  “Yes, I got him eating out of the palm of my hand. Bastard doesn’t suspect a thing.” He replied.

  “Go have fun with my girl, and after that you can meet up with your son. Remember to test him to see where his loyalties really lie. We need to know he’s one-hundred percent on our side.”

  Chapter 17

  Nikolai

  Darkness surrounded me as I held Lydia. It was going to be a while before I would have her in my arms again. I hated the fact I was going to have to leave her in someone else’s care. It should’ve been me protecting her,
not one of my men. I was the key to making sure this plan followed through.

  Connor and my father needed to die.

  End of fucking story.

  I untangled our bodies and slipped out of bed careful not to wake her. Covering her with the duvet, I kissed her lips with an ache in my chest. I let out a breath as I pulled the letter I’d written her from my pocket. She had to know exactly what taking out my father entailed. What kind of things I would have to do in order to keep her safe.