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  She gushed into my mouth as I removed my fingers thrusting my tongue inside. I tasted her sweetness as I fucked her with my tongue. As soon as she finished exploding in my mouth, she collapsed and went limp. Fuck me, I was so hard right now, and she was asleep. I would be stuck with this hard-on unless I took care of it myself. Sure, I could fuck her in her sleep, but I would never do that. I like my women to be awake when I fucked them.

  I stood under the water letting it run over my hair and down my body. I took my throbbing cock in my hand and pumped up and down. Closing my eyes, I leaned against the tile and remembered how I had her over my desk. The way she squirmed each time I smacked her with my belt. The sound of leather cracking against her skin made me start to get closer to my orgasm. “Fuck, just a little bit more.”

  The sight of my belt around her neck as I fucked her over my desk made me draw closer as I pumped my cock. I was right at the brink of coming when I heard the faint ring of my cell phone. I tuned it out and imagined Lydia on her knees as she sucked me off. That was all it took for me to shoot jets of my cum on the shower floor. “Ugh…fuck yes!”

  I washed myself off and turned off the water wrapping a towel around my waist. I dried off with an extra towel and picked up my phone. It was Luka letting me know my sister was already fed and tucked into bed for the night. I sucked in a breath as I pulled my sweats up over my hips and slid in next to Lydia. I pulled her into my chest and wrapped my arm around her. This woman was beginning to get under my skin. Everything about her drove me mad.

  The way she defied me.

  How she pushed me, not knowing if I would snap.

  Most importantly, she didn’t bow to me.

  Not like everyone else did.

  And I hated it.

  She would though.

  Even if I had to force her on her knees.

  A firm knock woke me up first thing in the morning. I slid out of the bed and cracked the door open to see Luka. “What is it?”

  “You weren’t in the office this morning, so I thought maybe you were sick or something.” He quirked an eyebrow.

  “No,” I hissed clenching my jaw. “I was just fucking tired, ok?!”

  “I only came up here because Anna is questioning where her best friend is. Just wanted you to know.” I slammed the door in his face in frustration.

  Had I really slept in that late?

  I looked to the clock and it was five minutes until noon. I’ve never slept past five in the morning, so how had I slept all morning. I glanced to my bed and watched as Lydia stirred in her sleep. I slipped a white V-neck t-shirt over my head and sat on the bed. I needed to focus more on finding Connor and my father, not acting like a fucking teenager lusting after a girl.

  “Good morning.” She wrapped her arms around my waist kissing my neck.

  “Lydia,” I warned not wanting to waste any more time than I already had. If she kept it up, I would spread her legs and fuck her. I didn’t know what was happening to me. She made me feel weird things and I didn’t like it. If I was going to take care of the threats, I would need to tone down things with her. I didn’t want to hurt her, but I knew it was for the best. “I need to go talk to Giovanni today.”

  “Why are you acting so distant now?! You act like you want me and now you don’t’. I thought things was going so well.” I felt an ache in my chest but pushed it away.

  I turned to face her and narrowed my eyes keeping a stoic expression. “It’s just sex, right? You said so yourself.”

  I expected her to slap me or punch me, but she didn’t. I looked away not wanting to see the tears threatening to fall from her eyes. I couldn’t face her knowing I was pushing her away. If my plan to get Connor and my father, then hopefully I could fix it. “I hate you. I gave into you and now you decide you don’t want me.”

  “No, you gave into your desires, your lust. I’ll have Vladimir take you to the safe house until all this blows over.” I just hope she will forgive me when all this is over. If my father thinks I don’t feel anything for her, he’ll leave her alone. Let’s just hope I’m doing the right thing.

  She reared back and connected her fist with my nose. I didn’t even fight back because I knew I deserved this. She needed to get as far away as she could from me with the war that was going to happen. I wouldn’t be able to live with myself if something happened because I was too selfish to let her go. I reached out for her, but she shoved me back. “I’m sorry.”

  “Fuck. You.” Tears ran down her cheeks as she ran out the door.

  Giovanni stepped in and closed the door as I leaned on the wall. “I know you don’t want to do this, but it’s the only way. Time for Plan B. Vladimir will take her to the safe house along with your sister and keep guard on them. I’m sending Rose and Caterina too. I don’t want anyone we care about getting hurt. I’ve got a couple of my girls from the club to stand in and pose as Lydia and your sister.”

  I balled my fists and punched the wall. I was fucking pissed that I had to push the woman I may have been falling for away. “Fuck!”

  The only reason I pushed her away was because Lydia’s biological father suggested it. I knew it wouldn’t be easy, but it was something I had to do. My father has already been threatening Anna saying she was going to marry an Italian prick. I needed to become someone I didn’t want to be in order to beat him.

  I had to push all my feelings away and become the sly fox.

  I had to become my father.

  And when I beat him at his own game, I would claim my woman back.

  “Let’s get ready for war.” Yes, put an end to my father.

  Once and for all.

  Connor too.

  Chapter 12

  Lydia

  Everything was numb as I ran out of his room. I knew I was the one who initially told Nikolai it was just sex, but that wasn't entirely true. I told him that to convince myself it was no strings attached. I told him that, so he would put a stop to showing up at odd places. He followed me everywhere, even showed up at my work. I was actually going to pursue him, and this is what he does to me. He rips out my heart and shatters it feeding off my pain. I slowed down and leaned against the wall trying to calm down. I needed to act normal for when I faced Anna. She had no idea that I'd been warming her older brother's bed. Just like Nikolai didn't know how good Luka had been taking care of his sister. They may not have had sex yet, but there's something going on.

  I rushed in Anna's room and grabbed my bag stuffing my belongings into it. I needed to get away from here before I fell apart. I had to get as far away from Nikolai as I could. My bag was ripped from my grasp by one of Nikolai's men. "The boss wouldn't want you leaving."

  "I don't give a shit, he's your boss not mine." I argued back rolling my eyes.

  "Nikolai wants me to take you and Anna to the safe house." Now he acts like he cares.

  "Tell him to go fuck himself." Vladimir narrowed his eyes and gripped my arm.

  "I would watch my tongue if I were you." He gripped my arm digging his nails in my skin. "Nikolai wouldn't appreciate you disrespecting him."

  "You may bow to him, but not me. Get your fucking hands off me!" I yanked my arm but only got shoved to the bed.

  "Just pack your things and try to keep snide remarks to yourself." He rolled his eyes and crossed his arms over his chest. I threw my clothes in my bag and zipped it up.

  Luka stood at the door with Anna eyeing me suspiciously. I glanced over to her but quickly looked away. I just couldn't face my best friend knowing I've been betraying her. I'd been sleeping with her brother and she didn't have a clue. I shouldn't feel bad about what Nikolai and I had been doing. It doesn't matter now that it's over now. Right now, I feel nothing but pure hatred for the bastard. He did nothing but use me for his needs.

  "Lydia, what's wrong?" Anna asked.

  "Nothing. Don't' worry about it." I tried to hold in my tears but failed miserably.

  She sighed as she hugged me. "It's my brother, isn't it?" I hated just hear
ing his name.

  I shook my head wiping my tears. "He's just being an asshole right now."

  I strapped my bag around me and stood up. "Let's just go. The sooner I get away from him the better."

  Luka and Vladimir escorted us to an abandoned cabin and led us inside. I was about to walk away but got pulled back by Luka. "I know you think Nikolai is being a jerk, but it isn't all that it seems. Just know that everything he's doing is all for you."

  "What is that supposed to mean?"

  "It means that he cares for you. Everything he's doing is for you and you only."

  "Nikolai can go fuck himself for all I care." He made it clear that I was nothing but a hole to warm his dick.

  "Anna is waiting for you in her room. I'm sorry I bothered you."

  What did he mean everything was for me?

  What was Nikolai planning?

  "Anna," I took a deep breath and closed my eyes. "I need to tell you something and I'm afraid it's going to ruin our friendship. I-I've been sleeping with your brother."

  I opened my eyes and watched her confused expression transform into a happy one. "I know and it's okay. Truthfully, I've never seen him happier. So, what happened? Is that why you were crying earlier?"

  "Yes." I whispered as a tear fell down my cheek.

  "Hey, talk to me, I'm fine with it."

  "You don't understand, he called it off and now here we are hiding in this fucking run-down cabin. All because he told me he couldn't do it with me anymore. I really liked him, and he just ripped out my heart."

  "He what?! I'm going to kick his ass." She hugged me as my mind drifted to one of the last words he said to me.

  "I hate you. I gave into you and now you decide you don't want me."

  "No, you gave into your desires, your lust. I'll have Vladimir take you to the safe house until all this blow over."

  I can't believe I was stupid enough to think he could actually care. Who am I kidding, Nikolai only cares about one thing. Himself.

  I laid in the bed and cried silently careful not to wake Anna. I didn't want to disturb her sleep. I hated Nikolai, but it didn't stop the dirty thoughts from running through my head. I still craved him more than anything. He was like a damn disease I couldn't get rid of. He was toxic filling me up with his poison, but I couldn't help it. I wanted more. I wanted him to infect me.

  To ruin me.

  "I'm not letting you go until you come apart for me. Beg me Lydia." My body was on fire and was so close to coming at his command. I knew I said I wouldn't give in and let him win this round, but he had an aura about him.

  Nikolai was dark and dominating as he looked into my eyes with his finger still inside. He was taunting me, wanting me to bow to him. He desired for me to get on my knees and give in to him. "Nik, please."

  "Get on your knees, Lydia. Tell my cock how sorry you are." He unbuckled his belt and popped the button of his slacks dragging the zipper downward.

  "N-no, I'm not going to bow to you." He fisted his already hard member and pumped himself.

  "Your pussy has already given in. Now, I'm not going to tell you again. Get on your fucking knees." I found myself lowering my body getting on my knees involuntary. This wasn't like me. I never did anything like this.

  "No..." He pressed the tip to my mouth and I found myself parting my lips. I sucked the head and swirled my tongue around it.

  "There's my good girl, taking my cock in her dirty mouth." His thick Russian accent mused as I took more of him. "Touch yourself, Lydia."

  I spread my thighs and pressed my fingers to my clit. I peered up to him with a shocked expression as he forced his member down my throat. He gripped my messy bun to prevent me from pulling away from his cock. "Show me how sorry you are, worship my cock."

  Nikolai pressed his free hand and laid it flat on the wall to brace himself. I bobbed my head and sucked harder as I massaged his balls. It was enough for him to thrust harder making my clit convulse as I felt myself coming. I gushed all over my fingers as Nikolai came in my mouth. I swallowed every drop hoping that he would forget that I went through his things and stole the drugs. I hoped he would forget that I lied about it too. He pulled out and tucked himself back in his pants as I stood up to fix my panties and smooth out my dress.

  "Now that wasn't so hard, was it?" He grabbed my wrist and sucked the fingers I used to get myself off.

  "N-no, I won't do it again."

  I gasped when a hand clamped down on my mouth and whispered in my ear. "You don't want to wake my sister up, do you?" I didn't have to see him to know it was Nikolai. I could smell the alcohol on his breath as he squeezed my thigh.

  "S-stop, you're drunk." I struggled to break free without waking his sister.

  "You don't even know what you do to me. You're in my head constantly and everything in my room smells like you. It's fucking torture." I stopped struggling when he kissed my neck and suddenly I didn't feel like fighting him anymore. This was how my body reacted to his touch every time. I was helpless against him and he fucking knew it.

  "Please, Nik..."

  His hand gripping my thigh ran between my legs and grazed my panties. He slid them to the side and cupped my pussy. "Fuck, how I've missed touching this."

  "S-stop, you've been drinking."

  "Not nearly enough to get you out of my damn mind. All I can think about is how I want to lick that sweet cunt of yours." He slipped his finger between my folds and pressed his finger to my clit. "Tell me to stop, but something tells me you won't."

  "Nik," I moaned against his hand. "I-I..." My hips began to rock against him as he pressed down harder rubbing circles on my nub.

  "That's my good girl, surrendering to me." Tears formed in the corner of my eyes as he brought me closer to falling apart. I knew there was no way I could resist him because I was too far gone. He was controlling me again with just his fingers. I arched my back when he began to rub faster. He kissed my neck as I let him infect me with his venom. He released his hand from my mouth and wrapped his fingers around my throat.

  "God yes, I'm coming." I moaned as he squeezed my neck. I began to get dizzy from the intensity of the orgasm he gave me. I closed my eyes falling back into darkness letting sleep take over again.

  "You don't even know what you do to me. You're in my head constantly and everything in my room smells like you. It's fucking torture." I stopped struggling when he kissed my neck and suddenly I didn't feel like fighting him anymore. This was how my body reacted to his touch every time. I was helpless against him and he fucking knew it.

  "Please, Nik..."

  His hand gripping my thigh ran between my legs and grazed my panties. He slid them to the side and cupped my pussy. "Fuck, how I've missed touching this."

  "S-stop, you've been drinking."

  "Not nearly enough to get you out of my damn mind. All I can think about is how I want to lick that sweet cunt of yours." He slipped his finger between my folds and pressed his finger to my clit. "Tell me to stop but something tells me you won't."

  "Nik," I moaned against his hand. "I-I..." My hips began to rock against him as he pressed down harder rubbing circles on my nub.

  "That's my good girl, surrendering to me." Tears formed in the corner of my eyes as he brought me closer to falling apart. I knew there was no way I could resist him because I was too far gone. He was controlling me again with just his fingers. I arched my back when he began to rub faster. He kissed my neck as I let him infect me with his venom. He released his hand from my mouth and wrapped his fingers around my throat.

  "God yes, I'm coming." I moaned as he squeezed my neck. I began to get dizzy from the intensity of the orgasm he gave me. I closed my eyes falling back into darkness letting sleep take over again.

  I shot up in bed with a gasp from the dream. It felt so real, but it couldn't be. Nikolai was never here with me in this bed. I slipped out of the bed quietly, so I didn't wake Anna. I stepped in the bathroom and turned on the light. I was shocked when I looked in the mirror. Ther
e was a hickey on my neck along with the proof on my flesh where Nikolai had his fingers on my throat. He was really here, and I had the proof all over my body.

  Chapter 13

  Nikolai

  I blocked Lydia out of my mind and turned on my cold persona. I had to if I wanted to convince my father I was on his side. I needed to make him think I had a falling out with Giovanni, so I could follow in with the plan. The plan was simple. I would set up a meeting with Giovanni, but there wouldn't actually be one. It was all a ploy to see if we could lure out Connor.

  The entire evening, I tried to get the image of Lydia's face out of my head but failed miserably. I couldn't stop thinking about how sweet her pussy tasted on my tongue as I took her in my bed. The way she submitted to me had me hard as a rock. I rubbed the scruff on my chin and smiled to myself at the memory of fucking her on my desk.