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  “Is it too stimulating?” Carly had asked hopefully. “Too stimulating” was what Father said about most of her favorite books.

  “Probably,” Aunt M. had said shortly, and then walked out of the room muttering something about stimulating being better than suffocating.

  A little way beyond Greenwood the road forked where the Hamilton Valley Road sloped northward from Santa Luisa Avenue. Taking the north fork, Carly soon came in sight of the tops of the tall shade trees and the third-story tower of the Quigleys’ house. In the Santa Luisa Ledger there were often announcements such as “The Women’s Relief Corps met Wednesday last, at Citronia, the handsome estate of the Quigley-Babcock family.” The Babcocks were old Alfred Quigley’s daughter, Alicia, her husband, Elmer Babcock—and Henry. Henry Babcock was Alfred Quigley’s only grandchild—and the biggest pest and bully in the Santa Luisa Grammar School.

  Carly stopped when she was opposite the entrance with its huge stone pillars and the sign that arched above them spelling out the ridiculous name in elaborately ornamented letters—CITRONIA! But Aunt M. never called it that. “Ridiculous name,” she always said whenever it was mentioned. Curling her lip sarcastically, she would drawl “Ci-tron-i-a,” making it sound ri-di-cu-lous, and Woo Ying would throw up his hands and go “Aiii!”

  “Citronia,” Carly whispered, peering down the curving graveled driveway to where she could catch a glimpse of the scrolls and curves and loops and bulges of the veranda’s fancy woodwork. “Ci-tron-i-a! Aiii!”

  Dropping her package onto a patch of dry grass, she began to slice the air with both hands. “Aiii!” she yelled, jumping from side to side and slashing and jabbing. “Aiii!”

  Just then a wagon turned onto Hamilton Road from Arnold Street and Carly froze in mid-slash. Picking up her package, she continued on her way in such a ladylike manner that she was soon overtaken by the wagon, which turned out to be Dan Kelly’s buckboard.

  The Kellys were the Hartwicks’ nearest neighbors. Their homestead was in the foothills above the Carlton land in an area that had always been called Grizzly Flats. Dan Kelly was what people called a real old-timer. He’d lived in the Santa Luisa Valley since the early days and knew the area better than anyone, particularly the wilderness way back in the Sespe Mountains. He could tell wonderful stories about such things as grizzly bears and cougars, and ordinarily Carly would have been glad for a visit with him. But not when he’d just seen her pretending to be a Chinese hatchetman.

  “Bless me, if it’s not little Carly Hartwick,” Dan said as he pulled alongside. His eyes were crinkling in the way they always did when he was teasing. “And here I was wondering what grand young lady was traipsin’ up our way at this hour of the evening.”

  “Hello, Mr. Kelly,” Carly said, tucking her head and looking up at him sideways to hide a hot flush of embarrassment. Even though he was pretending he hadn’t, she was sure he’d seen what she was doing back there in front of the Quigleys’.

  Leaning down from the buckboard’s seat, Mr. Kelly extended his hand. “Hop up here beside me, lass, and keep me and my old mules company as far as the Carlton place. ’Tis a long, dusty way for such a grand young lady to be going by shank’s mare.”

  Carly shook her head. “Thank you, Mr. Kelly, but I think I’ll walk. I’m used to it. I walk to my aunt’s place quite often.”

  “Well, now, I know you do, and the cool of the evening, ’tis a grand time for walkin’. Perhaps you’ll be visiting us at the Flats soon?”

  “Oh, yes,” Carly said. “I’ll try to. Tell Matt to come for me—on the donkeys.”

  “I’ll do that very thing,” Dan said. “We’ll be looking forward to seeing you. Maggie and meself, and Matt most of all.” Dan Kelly slapped the reins across the mules’ backs, waved his hand, and the buckboard pulled slowly away, creaking and groaning.

  With the wagon out of sight around the first curve, Carly abandoned her ladylike pace in favor of her usual gait, a skipping, running walk that at times broke into a gallop—and in only a few minutes she passed the outskirts of Santa Luisa—and soon afterward the last telephone pole.

  Carly had been waiting for the arrival of telephone lines in the Hamilton Valley with great impatience. It would be wonderful to be able to crank the handle and chat with friends who were miles away. But what she was looking forward to even more was being able to pick up the phone when other people’s numbers rang, and listen in on their conversations. That, she thought, would be a lot like becoming invisible—and important for the same reasons. But the poles had not yet gone up the valley, and that, according to Aunt M., was because of “string pulling.” And the string puller was, of course, Alfred Quigley.

  Carly looked around her where, at that very moment, she was surrounded by Quigley lemon orchards. On both sides the dome-shaped trees, their crisp, shiny leaves glittering in the slanting sunlight, crowded the Hamilton Valley Road into a narrow, dusty alley. Sniffing the lemon-scented air, Carly wrinkled her nose and broke into a run. She didn’t stop running until the lemon orchards were behind her.

  On her left now was a steep wooded rise and on her right a long expanse of paintless picket fence. Beyond the fence straggly rows of tombstones rose and fell over the rolling foothills of the Mupu Ridge range. Here and there larger marble monuments surrounded by low iron fences marked the burial plots of many Santa Luisa families.

  When Carly reached the main entrance to the cemetery, she stopped. With one hand on the sagging gate she turned to look toward the west. The sun was low now, a fiery ball drifting in a red-gold sea of clouds. She pushed open the gate and began to run.

  The cemetery road went straight down a long corridor between a double row of eucalyptus trees and then branched off in several directions. At the first branch Carly turned to the left and went on running, down a narrow path that wound between spreading live-oaks. A few yards farther on she came to a sudden stop at a low iron fence. Breathing hard, she squatted down in the dry grass and waited for her heart to slow—and for the soft, sad mystery to begin.

  It was a large plot, one of the largest in the graveyard, but most of its surface was smooth and bare except for dry dead weeds and here and there the scattered remains of withered bouquets. A stranger walking by would at first notice only one tombstone, a tall, slim obelisk of granite. From where she crouched outside the fence, Carly could read the inscription on one side of its broad rectangular base:

  Edward Clark Carlton

  born China, Maine, 1827

  died Santa Luisa, California 1894

  And on the other side:

  Mehitabel Johnson Carlton

  born China, Maine, 1836

  Below that was the blank space that would not be filled in until Aunt M. was dead, too, and buried beside her husband.

  Shifting her position, Carly turned to her left where the Carlton plot bordered the Mupu Creek with its edging of willows and cottonwoods. There in the deep shade, where the willow branches bent softly like the limp limbs of weeping mourners, was Petey’s grave.

  The tombstone was a small slab of marble with a rounded top on which was carved the likeness of a sleeping lamb. Beneath the lamb, in large letters, were three words, OUR LITTLE LAMB, and below that in smaller letters:

  Peter Hartwick

  born March 1893

  died July 1895

  The grass on the small mound was faintly green.

  Carly sighed deeply. Then she stepped over the fence and made her way along the narrow path that her feet had long since worn through the tall dead grass. At the end of the path she sat down on Petey’s grave and got ready to cry.

  Chapter 6

  SHE ALWAYS CRIED at Petey’s grave. All she had to do was to read his name and the two dates, just two short years apart, and a lump would fill her throat. Sometimes when, as now, the long, dry months had turned the grass on all the other graves a dull uniform brown, she would also look at the green of the small mound and say, “The green grave, watered by tears, watered by
bitter tears.” Then she would throw herself down across the grave and say, “Our little lamb,” over and over again until tears overflowed her eyes and fell down to sink into the earth. When the crying was over, she usually rolled over on her back and lay for a while looking up through the willow branches and thinking about death and eternity and other sad, mysterious things.

  Sometimes she thought about other deaths she had cried over in the past—Little Eva’s, Beth’s in Little Women, and, of course, Beautiful Joe’s. They were all so beautifully, terribly sad, and yet they didn’t always make her cry, at least not anymore. The first few times she’d read them, of course, she had wept and wept, but after a while those deaths had less effect, even Beautiful Joe’s, over whose sad end she once had cried until she had nearly drowned in her own tears. But it was only for Petey’s death that she could always cry. Which was a mystery in itself, really, since poor little Petey had actually died a year before she was born.

  On the other hand, however, he had been her own brother and he had lived and died among people she knew, and she had heard so much about him—about the beautiful, brilliant, good little boy who had died so young. Every member of the family had special Petey stories, except perhaps for Lila, who had only been four years old when Petey died. Carly knew all the stories by heart. She remembered the ones that were especially Aunt M.’s, or Nellie’s or Charles’s or Father’s, and, of course, the ones that Mama told. Many of the Petey stories were especially Mama’s, because she talked about him so much. Everyone said that she still hadn’t recovered from Petey’s death, and some people said she never would.

  Of course, Mama had not been strong even before the Hartwicks left their home in Maine. Father said that Mama’s lungs had always been weak. She’d had pneumonia twice and the doctor said she would not live through a third time. That, Father said, was the main reason he had decided to accept Aunt Mehitabel’s invitation to come to California. He had hoped the mild weather would improve Mama’s health. But, mild weather or not, Mama hadn’t wanted to come.

  Everyone knew that Anna Hartwick hadn’t wanted to leave her birthplace in the state of Maine and her relatives and friends. Sometimes she even wrote poetry about it—poems about autumn colors and snow and being homesick and far from home. But she had agreed to come for the sake of her husband and family. “Ezra really needed to make a new start,” Carly had heard her say more than once. “He should never have tried to be an educator. He lacked the patience and forbearance. We really had no choice but to accept Aunt Mehitabel’s offer.” So Anna had agreed to leave her birthplace and, with five young children, travel three thousand miles to a strange new world. “Charles, my eldest,” Mama told people, “was nine when we arrived in Santa Luisa and my baby—Petey, my baby—was only two.” “Only two,” she would say again, and her beautiful eyes would fill with tears.

  When the Hartwicks first arrived in Santa Luisa, they all lived at Greenwood with Aunt M., because the house on the ranch was being rebuilt. The ranch house had once been Edward Carlton’s home, but when he married Aunt M., they moved to Greenwood, and the old house had been used by a foreman’s family. Later on it became a dormitory for seasonal workers, and by the time the Hartwicks arrived it was rundown. So all the Hartwicks had to stay with Aunt M. at Greenwood while the ranch house was being repaired—and while they were still there Petey had suddenly sickened and died.

  “Eighteen ninety-five,” Carly whispered, and reached up above her head to touch the sharp-edged furrows where the date was carved into the marble tombstone. Then she rolled over onto her stomach and rested her chin in her hands. Staring at the inscription, she wondered how a date, one short day between sunrise and sunset, could bring something so final and endless as death, a death that ended one life and changed so many others, forever and ever.

  “When that baby died,” Aunt M. had often told her, “your mother went into a serious decline. Brain fever, Dr. West called it, though there were others who diagnosed it differently. Took to her room and didn’t come out for more than six months. Your father, poor man, did what he could, but he had the ranch to manage and a thousand and one things to learn about farming in California. And then there were the children. Four lively children here at Greenwood for all that time. Charles and Nellie were good as gold, of course. Always have been. Too good, to my way of thinking. But Arthur and Lila were a different matter entirely.”

  “Lila wasn’t bad, was she?” Carly asked. She didn’t have to ask about Arthur. Arthur, she knew, had never been particularly good. Even Nellie, who had always been partial to Arthur, wouldn’t go so far as to say that he had ever been what you might call good. But Lila? “What did Lila do when she lived with you?” Carly had asked Aunt M.

  “Whatever she wanted to,” Aunt M. said, but then she had looked at Carly and smiled. “Don’t look so shocked, child,” she said. “Your beloved Lila wasn’t really a naughty little girl. She always minded her manners and did what she was told. As long as you were looking, at least. But she always got her way in the long run. And when she really wanted something, she always got it. You could count on that.”

  “And what about me?” Carly had asked, grinning. “How bad was I?”

  “Terrible,” Aunt M. said. “A holy terror.” Then she smiled and hugged Carly and kissed her on top of the head. “You were the most beautiful baby in the world,” she said, “from the first day you were born—from the first minute. I was the first one to hold you, you know.”

  Carly knew. She’d heard about it many times. How her birth had not been the cure for her mother’s deep depression, as everyone had hoped it would be, and instead had nearly resulted in her death. So Aunt M. had been the first one to hold Carly, and afterward when Mama was sick for so long there had been no one to take care of the new baby except Aunt M. “And Woo Ying,” Carly said. “Woo Ying took care of me too.”

  Aunt M. snorted. “Took care of you!” she said. “Smothered you, would be more like it. Spoiled you within an inch of your life. Wouldn’t let you cry for a moment. Would have carried you around under his arm every minute you were awake, if I’d let him. For six months that crazy old Chinaman cleaned house, and stirred the soup, and fed the chickens with one arm, with you tucked under the other like a little sack of rice. It’s a wonder you lived through it.”

  Thinking of herself as a sack of rice under Woo Ying’s arm made Carly giggle—and the sound echoed startlingly in the silence of the graveyard. She sat up suddenly, wiping the last of the tears for Petey off her cheeks, and then scrambled to her feet. It was almost dark.

  Grabbing the bottle she kept hidden in the fence corner, Carly vaulted the fence, pushed through the hanging willow branches, and slid down the steep slope to the creek. While she waited for the bottle to fill, she glanced around nervously at the pockets of changing, wavering darkness under the overhanging trees, shaking the bottle to make it fill more quickly and scolding herself under her breath. Crazy to lie there daydreaming, in a graveyard, of all places. Crazy to get home so late and worry everybody. Nellie was going to be so angry.

  “Dunce, blockhead, ninny,” she told herself as she scrambled back up the embankment. “Hurry, hurry, hurry.” She stopped just long enough to empty the bottle over Petey’s grave—because bitter tears needed a little help in such hot weather—snatched up her package, and headed for home at a run.

  Running was a mistake. Walking in a dark graveyard would have been bad enough, but running was an invitation to panic. As Carly’s feet slipped and stumbled over the uneven surface of the dirt road, dark shadows and misty shapes oozed out of hidden places and slid toward her. A few yards before the gate she slipped and fell, tearing her stocking and skinning her left knee and the palms of both hands. Almost before the pain had time to begin she was on her feet and running again; a limping run that took her as far as the gate before she turned back to retrieve her package—because even graveyard ghosts and a bloody knee weren’t going to make her forget a new book that was probably too stimula
ting.

  When Carly got home that night it was dark. Her face was dirty, and blood from her skinned knee had run clear down to her ankle. Nellie was waiting on the veranda, and just as Carly had feared, she was extremely worried and angry. And then, just as she was beginning to calm down, Carly had to go and make it worse by saying that it was a good thing Father wasn’t at home.

  Nellie was cleaning Carly’s skinned knee with Sears, Roebuck Microbe Killer and she stopped suddenly and narrowed her eyes. Carly realized immediately that she’d made a mistake.

  “And just what do you mean by that, young lady?” Nellie said.

  So Carly quickly said she didn’t mean anything and Nellie said that if she was trying to imply that Father was too strict, or unfair, or unkind, it just went to show what an ungrateful, unnatural child she really was, because Father was a wonderful parent, strict—yes—but no more than necessary, and she just wished that he had been here tonight to see how thoughtless and careless his youngest daughter could be.

  She’d been dabbing at Carly’s knee while she was talking, and for a long time Carly didn’t say anything except “Ouch” and “Be careful, Nellie,” and by the time the knee and Nellie’s tirade were finally finished she was crying a little.

  “I’m sorry, Nellie. I’m sorry,” she said, fanning her smarting knee with both hands. “It hurts, Nellie. It hurts a lot.”

  “It has to hurt to do any good,” Nellie said curtly, but then her voice softened and she said, “It won’t hurt for long. You run along out to the kitchen and eat something. I put a plate in the warming oven for you.”

  Later, while Carly was eating at the kitchen table, Nellie came in and got out the milk pans and began skimming the cream into the churn.

  “I’ll do that,” Carly said. “I’ll do the churning in the morning.” She wanted to do something for Nellie to make up for worrying her, and besides, churning was her favorite chore, since it could be done while reading.