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  This is a work of fiction. Similarities to real people, places, or events are entirely coincidental.

  SINCERELY, ARIZONA

  First edition. August 25, 2015.

  Copyright © 2015 Whitney Gracia Williams.

  Written by Whitney Gracia Williams.

  Table of Contents

  Copyright Page

  Dedication

  Sincerely, Arizona

  Sincerely, Arizona | Whitney G.

  To you, Best Readers Ever :-)

  Sincerely, Arizona

  **Note: This is not a standalone or a novel. It’s the previously unpublished epilogue to Sincerely, Carter, and the easiest way I could make sure as many readers as possible have it since I normally post things like this on my blog. :-)

  PS—Yes, I will still post this on my blog 

  PPS—This title will be officially released September 10th.

  Just friends.

  We’re just friends.

  No, wait. We’re no longer just best friends...

  Sincerely, Arizona

  Whitney G.

  33. Wonderland

  Arizona

  The night of the diner incident...

  “I loved you then. I love you now. And I always will...” Carter’s words were currently repeating themselves in my mind as he held me close.

  With a smile on my lips, I replayed the past few hours of us in bed, how months of distance were easily erased. As Carter ran his fingers through my hair, I looked into his eyes—unsure of what to say. What to do next.

  There had to be some exception about returning to the semester late, some special clause about having your best friend tell you he loves you and your world coming to a complete standstill.

  Even if there wasn’t, I was tempted to call the dean of academics and ask.

  I didn’t want to go back to France at all. I wanted to stay

  “Are you okay?” He brushed a strand of hair out of my face.

  I nodded.

  “Why are you so quiet, then? What are you thinking about?”

  “France.”

  He secured his arms around my waist and rolled me on top of him. “I’m taking you to the airport on time. As much as I’d like for you to, I won’t let you stay this time either.”

  “What makes you think I would ever consider staying?” I asked. “I was just thinking about how I can’t wait to get back actually.”

  “In that case, I can take you to the airport right now if you like.” His lips curved into a smirk and I rolled my eyes—unable to keep up that charade.

  “Three and a half days...” I said softly. “I feel like I’ve already wasted most of my time here being mad at you.”

  “No, you wasted it with Sean.”

  34. You Are In Love

  Arizona

  With the taste of pancake batter still on my lips and the sting of my recent tattoo on my arm, I hugged my mother days later. She’d been right; I’d nearly forgotten to stop by during my last few days. I’d been too busy trying to spend every second with Carter, to make up for lost time.

  “I thought you hated wearing turtlenecks.” She looked me up and down. “Did you not pack enough clothes or something?”

  “Unfortunately.” I blushed, thinking about the bright red hickeys that Carter had placed all over my neck hours earlier. “So, you can guilt me into coming over but you don’t want to ride along to see me off at the airport?”

  “The first time was traumatic enough,” she said. “I experienced enough anxiety to last me a lifetime. No, thank you. I love you all the same though.”

  I laughed and handed her a printout of flight information for her sanity. “You’ll get over your fears and fly to France someday.”

  “No.” She kissed my forehead. “You’ll always come visit. Speaking of which, have you decided how often you’ll be seeing Carter?”

  I shook my head. Originally, his intent of once a month sounded probable, but last night, when we’d discussed it, we realized that often would never work. Between his law requirements, and my weekends spent studying in restaurants, it was nearly impossible. The earliest I could see him again would be during the summer.

  Six months from now.

  “He’s going to come see me in June,” I said. “He already bought the ticket.”

  “Good!” She hugged me again. “And when will you be coming back here?”

  “August.”

  “Even better.” She smiled. “Are you going to apologize to Sean when you get back?”

  “Definitely,” I said. “I already sent him an email, but I’m going to do my best to say sorry in person. If he doesn’t slam the door in my face, that is.”

  “He won’t.” She looked as if she was going to say something else, but Nicole walked into the room.

  “Hey there!” She rushed over, giving me a dramatic hug. “Were you going to leave without telling me goodbye?”

  “I would’ve video-chatted with you tomorrow.”

  “Well, then!” She laughed. “Good to know I’m back in second citizen territory since you’re back with Carter, huh?”

  Two Weeks Gone

  Two Weeks Gone.

  Carter

  Subject: Crack and Cream

  Dear Arizona,

  Thank you for sending me your recent concoction of dried waffle chips and buttercream in the mail. I can honestly say it’s just as good (if not better) than Gayle’s. (Josh says they were “just okay” although he fucking stole most of it.) However, I have to be honest with you and tell you that Josh thinks your intent to call it “Sweet Cocaine” won’t be a good idea. He suggests “Sweet High.”

  I personally think both are pretty terrible. 

  The opposite can be said of the pictures you included though. (Are you tempting me to come see you sooner?) I *did* send you a letter last week and I’m not sure why you didn’t get it; check again tomorrow. Maybe it was delayed for the weather here.

  Thirty one days.

  Sincerely,

  Carter

  Subject: Re: Crack and Cream.

  Well, good thing I didn’t listen to Josh (or you). My teacher thought it was brilliant and I won our class’s weekly challenge. (Thank you for keeping my supply of Gayle’s batter never-ending.  )

  Glad you appreciated the pictures. I’ve attached more, and yes, I am tempting you to come sooner. I actually just checked the mail and got TWO letters from you. I’ll open them after we Skype later tonight.

  Thirty days, Carter. How many times do we have to go through this?

  Off to eat more ‘sweet cocaine’,

  Arizona

  Dear Carter (Josh)

  Do you really think I don’t know Carter’s handwriting? Do you really think he would EVER write, “I’m so glad I listened to Josh about you. He was so right about fucking you one good time and [you] falling in love with [me]. That’s also why Josh will forever be my number one because you had a very long and selfish moment, but Josh has ALWAYS been loyal”??!!

  Grow the hell up!

  And learn how to write a proper sentence. (Aren’t you in law school?)

  Arizona

  Dear Arizona (Pain in my ass)

  Of course I’m aware that you know Carter’s handwriting, but since we shouldn’t waste time discussing things you know, here are some things you don’t: Your never-ending phone calls and Skype sessions (mostly your loud ass laughter and incessant babbling about absolutely nothing: “Oh my god, Carter...I miss you so much, Carter...”This distance is killing me every day, carter”) have kept me up for WEEKS. Is it too much for the two of you to go back to strictly letter writing and emails?

  I think I liked you better when you weren’t talking to each other.


  You grow up first.

  I will learn how to write a proper sentence...From someone who doesn’t start her own sentences with the word “And”.

  Josh

  Subject: Skype App.

  Dear Arizona,

  I’m not sure what could’ve happened to it between last night and today, but it’s not working. At all. Even the volume looks as if it’s not working. I won’t be able to get it fixed until next week, but I’ll have to use Josh’s computer to reach you tonight so we may have to talk an hour later than usual.

  Sincerely,

  Carter

  Subject: Re: Skype Camera.

  LOLOLOL!

  Arizona

  35. New Romantics

  Carter

  I closed Ari’s latest email and clicked on my latest term paper. On nights like tonight, it was if she’d never left, as if she was still minutes away from being picked up at her house.

  Over the past few weeks, a new sort of routine had developed between us. Instead of weekend meet ups at Gayle’s there were early morning emails: She traded me her rainy coasts in exchange for white sanded beaches, and I gave her glimpses of moments at Gayle’s while she showed me her concoctions inside the cooking school.

  At night, we talked for hours—despite the fact that we both had tons of work to do. We video-chatted whenever our roommates were asleep, and of course, there were still letters.

  I didn’t think it was possible for either of us to ever let that go. [...]

  When I’d reached the eighth page of my assignment, I realized it was midnight so I headed downstairs.

  “Have you talked to your wife tonight?” Josh asked as I stepped in front of the TV. “If so, bravo. I barely heard your conversation this time.”

  “You’ve moved Ari from girlfriend to wife now?”

  “Might as well.” He groaned, handing me his laptop. “And I swear I wasn’t trying to kill your Skype app. I was just trying to ruin it so you’d never be able to use it again.”

  “Did you actually hear what the fuck you just said?”

  “I did.” He laughed. “Wait, before you go. I need to ask for your advice on something.”

  “Yes, your taste in clothes is absolutely terrible. Was that your question?”

  “No.” He rolled his eyes. “I think—”He paused. “I think I might actually like someone. More than just a normal like...”

  “I’m sorry to hear that,” I said. “You’re not my type.”

  “What the fuck, Carter?” He grabbed his beer. “Did I get sarcastic with you when you were moping about Arizona for months? When you were crying like a seven year old when every woman on this beach was willing to give her pussy to you and you were too blind to see it?”

  I shook my head, refusing to entertain his wared memories. “Okay, fine. You like someone. Does this someone have a name?”

  “She doesn’t. That’s actually her best quality,” he said. “But I don’t think she’s aware that I actually like her beyond what’s currently happening. There’s only so much more of this ‘just friends’ shit I can take, you know? I’m not you.”

  “Is there’s a question coming?” I asked. “Or is this a venting session?”

  “I need your advice on helping me figure out how to get out of the friend zone. Preferably by the end of the week We can discuss it Saturday..” He grabbed a pair of earplugs and stuck one in his ear. “Okay. I’ve told you, so you can go now.”

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  Smalltown, USA

  Mia

  2004

  Dean Collins is the most irresistible asshole at Central High School.

  He’s your typical cliché, Mr. Popular. The “guy’s guy” who’s been voted “Homecoming King” two times in a row (minus my vote); the sexy star quarterback who’s capable of making grown women swoon from the sidelines (it really is sad), and the guy who can charm the hell out of any admiring girl with a simple smile, and a “Hey...What’s up?” in five seconds flat.

  His face is the object of sculptures—hard and strong jawline, deep and piercing green eyes and dimples that show even when he’s not smiling. And, as if that wasn’t enough for the gods to endow him with, he has a six pack of abs that he always shows off, and full and defined lips that sometimes even make me wonder what they would feel like.

  Nonetheless, I always do my best to avoid Dean Collins like the plague: I leave the four classes we take together early, never go to pep rallies to cheer on the team (Dean is the team), and the few times that he’s attempted that “Hey...What’s up?” thing on me, I’ve offered a blank stare and walked away.

  Today my usual avoidance routine seems to be getting tested. Especially since he’s currently standing five feet away from me.

  “Yes?” I look up from my canvas and stare at him from across the classroom. “May I help you with something? You’re not in art club.”

  “I’m aware.” He smirks, looking around the empty classroom. “But it doesn’t look like anyone is in art club...”

  That part is true. There’s actually no such thing as “art club” at Central High. It’s just me taking over whatever classroom I can find to paint for a few hours.

  “We’re currently accepting applications for membership,” I say, setting my paintbrush down in the easel tray. “What can I help you with?”

  “I did come here for something...” He steps into the room and pulls the door closed. “But, now that you claim that you’re accepting applications for your club, can I fill one out?”

  “We don’t accept douchebags,” I say flatly. “Your application wouldn’t make it past round one.”

  “Douchebag?”

  “Yes, douchebag. Would you like me to give you the definition?”

  Laughing, he tilts his head to the side. “I’m well versed on the definition, Mia Gray...” He stares at me for a long time, looking right into my eyes, giving me his usual charm.

  I immediately break our gaze and clear my throat. “You said you came here for something? Can you hurry up and tell me what it is so I can get back to addressing my art club? Today is a very important day for us.”

  “I can see that...” He pulls his backpack off his shoulder and opens it, pulling out a black notebook. My black notebook.

  “I found your notebook this morning,” he says, “so I wanted to find you and give it back. I tried to give it to you after Physics class but I couldn’t get your attention.”

  I reach out for it, but then I stop. “Where exactly did you find it?”

  “It was in the Lost and Found. I just saw it on top of everything in there when I got to school.”

  “You know, that’s funny,” I say, crossing my arms. “Because I’ve been checking Lost and Found every day and in between every class for weeks and it was never there...”

  “Maybe you just didn’t look hard enough.”

  “I even checked it this morning, and it wasn’t there. It. Was. Not. There.”

  He smiles and flips through the pages. “You have a very pretty handwriting...”

  “Where did you really find it, Dean?”

  “You take pretty detailed notes, too.”

  “Did you steal my fucking notebook?”

  “Maybe.” His lips curve into a smirk.

  WHAT?! I nearly scream, knowing that that’s exactly what has happened. “I had to rewrite the entire thing in one night! The night before our midterm!”

  Still smiling, he walks over and sets it on my easel. “Well, good thing you somehow managed to still get an A, right? If it wasn’t for me, you probably wouldn’t have known that you were capable of rewriting a notebook in a night. I helped you push your boundaries, so I think I deserve a thank you.”

  It takes every
thing in me not to pick up my canvas and knock him out with it, but I remain calm-kind of. I stand up from my chair and push the easel by the window. Then I pick up my backpack and storm out of the room, biting my lip to prevent myself from screaming.

  I make it to the parking lot and head straight for the after-school bus stop, muttering and cursing under my breath.

  “Mia?” Dean calls my name from behind. “Mia?”

  I say nothing. My mind is still stuck on the fact that he stole my notebook; that he was in class the day I pleaded for everyone to keep a look out for it and let me know if they knew anything.

  Asshole...

  “Mia...” His hand suddenly grabs my elbow and he turns me around to face him. “Mia, I know you can hear me.”

  “I really can’t. I’m completely deaf to assholes who steal things, assholes who steal things on purpose.”

  He gives me that gorgeous trademark grin and I almost smile back—that’s how charming he is. I quickly come to my senses, though, and snatch my arm away.

  “Thank you for stealing my notebook and having the decency to give it back,” I say. “Now, if you would please continue to leave me the hell alone for the rest of the day—No, the rest of the year, I’d gladly appreciate it.” I don’t give him a chance to respond. I rush to the bus stop and lean against one of the posts.

  A slight drizzle begins to fall and I look down the street, hoping that the headlights of a yellow bus appear soon.

  I take out my earbuds and turn my music up loudly. It’s going to take me a minute to get back into my original happy mood.

  Just as I’m starting to calm down, I see a black Camaro stop in front of me. It’s Dean - again.

  I turn around and give him a great view of my back. I turn my music up louder, just in case he tries to talk to me, but my headphones are the cheap, flimsy kind and they don’t have outside sound block.

  “Let me take you home to make up for stealing your notebook, Mia,” Dean says, actually sounding sincere.

  I ignore him and start nodding to my music, hoping he’ll just go away.