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  "Not for the faint of heart or weak of stomach, the 19 stories in this new best-of annual anthology feature episodes of graphic gore and violence—including torture, dismemberment, self-mutilation, and home abortion—that are designed to push buttons as well as boundaries...strictly for hardcore horror fans."—Publishers Weekly

  First Comet Press Electronic Edition June 2016

  Year’s Best Hardcore Horror Volume 1 copyright © 2016 by Randy Chandler and Cheryl Mullenax

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  ACKNOWLEDGEMENTS

  “Worth The Having” by Michael Paul Gonzalez, from Chilling Horror Short Stories (Gothic Fantasy) Flame Tree Publishing (Sept 2015)

  “Awakening” by Jeff Strand, from Splatterpunk Zine 7 (Oct 2015)

  “Readings Off The Charts” by Adam Cesare, from Splatterpunk Zine (Oct 2015)

  “Reborn” by The Behrg, from Not Your Average Monster: A Bestiary of Horrors, Bloodshot Books (Oct 2015)

  “What’s Worst” by David James Keaton, from Stealing Propeller Hats From the Dead, Perpetual Motion Machine Publishing(Aug 2015)

  “Dead End” by Kristopher Triana, from Chilling Horror Short Stories (Gothic Fantasy), Flame Tree Publishing (Sept 2015)

  “What You Wish For” by Lilith Morgan, from Murderlust, Comet Press (April 2015)

  “King Shits” by Charles Austin Muir, from 18 Wheels of Horror: A Trailer Full of Trucking Terrors, Big Time Books (Sept 2015)

  “Clean-up On Aisle 3” by Adam Howe, from Thuglit 19 (Aug 2015)

  “Bath Salt Fetus” by Jorge Palacios, from Blood For You: A Literary Tribute To GG Allin, Weirdpunk Books (Oct 2015)

  “Bored With Brutality” by MP Johnson, from Blood For You: A Literary Tribute To GG Allin, Weirdpunk Books (Oct 2015)

  “Exposed” by Monica J. O’Rourke, from Cut Corners Volume 2, Sinister Grin Press (Oct 2015)

  “Eleanor” by Jason Parent, from Dead Roses: Five Dark Tales of Twisted Love, Corpus Press (Mar 2015)

  “The Scavengers” by Tony Knighton, from Happy Hour And Other Philadelphia Cruelties Crime Wave Press (Jun 2015)

  “The Most Important Miracle” by Scott Emerson, from Diner Stories: Off The Menu, Mountain State Press, Inc. (January 2015)

  “Hungry For Control” by Clare de Lune, from Zombiegasm.com (Sept 2015)

  “Clarissa” by Robert Essig & Jack Bantry, from Creepy Campfire Stories (For Grownups), EMP Publishing (Sept 2015)

  “Where The Sun Don’t Shine” by Pete Kahle, from Not Your Average Monster: A Bestiary of Horrors, Bloodshot Books (Oct 2015)

  “Blackbird Lullaby” by George Cotronis, from Thirteen Stories of Transformation, Underland Press (Mar 2015)

  Table of Contents

  Introduction: The Year That Was

  “Worth the Having” by Michael Paul Gonzalez

  “Awakening” by Jeff Strand

  “Readings Off The Charts” by Adam Cesare

  “Reborn” by The Behrg

  “What’s Worst” by David James Keaton

  “Dead End” by Kristopher Triana

  “What You Wish For” by Lilith Morgan

  “King Shits” by Charles Austin Muir

  “Cleanup On Aisle 3” by Adam Howe

  “Bath Salt Fetus” by George Palacious

  “Bored With Brutality” by MP Johnson

  “Exposed” by Monica J. O’Rourke

  “Eleanor” by Jason Parent

  “The Scavengers” by Tony Knighton

  “The Most Important Miracle” by Scott Emerson

  “Hungry For Control” by Clare de Lune

  “Clarissa” by Robert Essig & Jack Bantry

  “Where The Sun Don’t Shine” by Pete Kahle

  “Blackbird Lullaby” by George Cotronis

  About the Authors

  Introduction: The Year That Was

  _____

  It was a year full of horror. Wherever in the world you were, you knew it was there, even if it didn’t touch you directly. You knew it might be reaching for you at most any moment, from any direction, coming at you as an 18-wheeler with a dying driver at the wheel or as an innocent-looking suicide bomber pushing a baby-less pram packed with explosives. With the world sinking deeper into chaos and wars raging round the world, refugees fled into bordering countries, inadvertently creating more chaos as they went. War, famine, pestilence and paranoia set the table and we were all invited to the feast of fear. While the Doomsday Clock ticked ever closer to Apocalyptic Midnight.

  There is, however, a different breed among us. They are aware of the real-world terrors but they make it their business to explore horrors as yet unseen and to gaze into the deeper darkness of the soul. They may appear normal enough but their outward appearances cloak the horrors happening in their heads. Their imaginations take them places most of us would never dream of going. Yet they go, driven by personal obsessions or pulled by mysterious forces within the darkness, and they chronicle what they find there and make it available to those brave enough to retrace their incursions into taboo territory. You know who we’re talking about. We’ve gathered some of the best of that hearty breed within these pages and proudly present their tales in our Year’s Best Hardcore Horror Volume 1.

  We did our best to find the best. We put the call out to horror writers and editors of extreme stories, the hardcore stuff that breaks boundaries and trashes taboos, the transgressive tales you can’t “unread” (as Chuck Palahniuk says). We staked out our territory and nailed this to the wall to guide us:

  YEAR’S BEST HARDEST HORROR

  Not your mama’s best-of horror annual.

  This stuff comes from the edge of the abyss,

  stories you read at your own risk

  because you feel the abyss looking right back into you

  through the tainted lens of each twisted tale.

  Thanks to the authors and editors who submitted their work, we believe we have succeeded in finding tales that live up to Year’s-Best standard. Odds are, we may have missed some that could’ve been included, but that’s the nature of the beast. We trust that those working far afield will in years to come find their way to us with new twisted tales.

  Some of the stories you’ll find here are loaded with very graphic descriptions of violence, sex and depravities, while others may contain only one shocking moment of brutality. In others, the hardcore aspect may be less graphic and subtler than you might expect. Some of these quieter tales offer the reader some time to recover from the more disturbing ones preceding.

  Most of the stories collected here are from small and spec
ialty press anthologies, with a few from periodicals, like the prestigious Splatterpunk Zine in the UK and Thuglit here in the US. Bizarro is also represented with a couple of tales from the unlikely anthology Blood For You: A Literary Tribute To GG Allin from Weirdpunk Books. (If you’re not familiar with the late GG Allin, you can find snippets from some of his outrageous and obscene punk shows online, which will increase your appreciation of those two tales.)

  So for now, forget about that neighbor you suspect is a serial killer, don’t worry about the drunk driver that could take you out on your next trip to the store, push those troubling news stories to the back of your mind and immerse yourself in the imaginary horrors at hand.

  But don’t be surprised if you sense something dark staring back at you from between the lines. That is to be expected when you enter these forbidding realms. With any luck, you may find something useful to help you survive the approaching Apocalypse.

  Cheryl Mullenax & Randy Chandler

  February 2, 2016

  WORTH THE HAVING

  By Michael Paul Gonzalez

  _____

  How does it feel?

  It asks this as it cuts deep into the inner thigh, flesh and fat zippering apart, its tongue probing into the fresh wound.

  How are you doing?

  The thing wouldn’t want an answer even if there was one. It only wants screams.

  This is going to be worth it. You’re going to love next year. This will make it worth the having.

  I used to wonder what could be worth this. The heat of its palms pushing legs apart. The cold, slow rivulets of saliva dripping down like icy syrup, washed away with slowing pulses of hot blood. That single tooth in its lower jaw, barbed and curved, that awful knowing smile from the puckered sphincter of its mouth. This year, I finally understand that phrase, worth the having. This year, the final year of our horrible agreement—the thing still uses that word, agreement, as if I wanted any of this—I understand it all.

  Twenty-two years ago, I was cutting across the backyard of Mikey Slater’s dad’s house. This was the night before Halloween; the night, I’d later learn, that the thing would stretch its legs and go for a walk. The thing was the reason for the season, the whole tradition of Halloween had started because of it. Masks, costumes, disguises, none of it for fun. All of it primal camouflage to help the prey hide from the predator. Nobody remembers that part of the tradition anymore. Not even the thing itself. It just knows to walk the night before Halloween. And it walks to me. I don’t ask where it goes when it leaves me, or what it does on Halloween night. I’m just glad it’s gone.

  Anyway, Mikey Slater. His parents had been divorced a few years, and I still treated this, our original hangout, like a second home. The other bonus was that it was a quick end-around the neighborhood when I needed to get home fast. I was on my way home from checking out Mikey’s Halloween costume at his mom’s house, and had about two minutes to get home before dinner was cold and my ass would get spanked. We’d made a pact to dress as characters from this cartoon about interstellar knights. We had some great things rigged to our costumes, lights and fake swords, the whole works. We expected that tomorrow night, we’d barely be able to do any trick or treating since we’d be mobbed by admirers wondering how we obtained these amazing costumes.

  I vaulted the six foot wooden slatted fence, landed soft in the garden, not caring if my presence was announced or not, since Mikey’s dad never cared if I cut through.

  And then I saw him there, lying in the grass near the backdoor, naked. Another person was straddling him, pinning his arms down. Pale skin, soft curves, it looked like a woman. The back did, anyway. The head was too small, and bald with a Mohawk of downy feathers. This thing, this silhouette was dipping down, the head bobbing just above Mr. Slater’s crotch. I was young, but not so young that I didn’t have a small clue about what I might be seeing.

  I heard a whisper, Almost done, almost done. Next year is going to be fantastic. This will all be worth it.

  And Mr. Slater was replying “No, no, no. No more. There’s nothing I want. Everything I want is gone …” and occasionally hissing his breath, stifling a scream. Pleasure wasn’t part of this. “No more! No more, please!”

  You must want something. It’s you and I forever. If you don’t want anything …

  And here the thing yanked a hand back from Mr. Slater’s thigh, and that’s when I noticed the blood, and the flap of flayed skin that I’d initially mistaken for underwear pulled down. I tried to turn around, grabbed the fence to bail out. I wanted to get out of there, wanted to be home.

  You … want?

  It whipped its head around at me, and I felt its voice in my head more than I heard it.

  “Take him! Take him!” Mr. Slater cried out, pointing at me.

  I can’t explain any of what happened next. Can’t explain the face that I saw when I locked eyes with the thing. Can’t explain the speed with which it moved, crossing the yard in three hitching strides, seizing my ankle as I tried to get out of the yard. I flopped my upper body over the fence and struggled for anything to grab, to pull, to get free.

  I heard a whisper … no, felt it.

  Mine.

  One quick bite on my ankle. A burning pain, searing, electric.

  Make a wish before you go to bed. Think about what you want next year more than anything. We have an agreement now.

  It wasn’t a question or an offer.

  I was released and dropped to the ground in the alley behind the fence.

  I reached to my ankle. There was a fading flash of pain and burning, but no blood. No cut. Mikey’s dad came stumbling around the corner, wearing nothing but a pair of shorts, holding a handgun.

  “Is it still here? Is it?”

  I said nothing. What could I say? What the hell was happening?

  “My God, if you hadn’t shown up … I’d … I’m free,” he smiled at me and turned away. There was a flash in his eyes, a moment where he was teetering between life and death, that gun the fulcrum between finishing something very bad or starting something new. His hand raised slowly.

  “But, don’t, Mikey …” those were the only three words in the mess behind my lips that could break through. It was enough. His hand swung free and heavy.

  “I’m sorry. I’m so sorry. Try to … just … try to think of good things for yourself.” He looked at the gun again. “Heh. What the hell was I gonna do with this thing? Don’t ever think about trying to kill it, whatever you do. Just take what you have coming and then think of good things for yourself.”

  I barely remember getting home. By the time I was through my front door, the details were hazy. My ankle was fine. No cut, no scab, not even a scratch. I slid into bed, trying to remember the thing, the face, the hands, anything, but it was all gone. A haze. My gaze drifted over the shelves around my room, the random toys scattered around, the baseball bat leaning against the corner. I hopped out of bed and brought it close by, feeling like it would keep me safe, not knowing from what. And as I drifted off that night, my last thought was about Little League and wishing I wasn’t too damn fat to play shortstop.

  That’s good enough. A whisper, shot through the center of my brain.

  Cold sweat broke over my upper lip, then calmness, then sleep.

  When I woke up the next morning, I’d forgotten the previous night completely. I was full of energy, light on my feet. I felt ready to take on the world. Things felt a little darker in the afternoon as I walked by Mr. Slater’s house on my way to Mikey’s, but I couldn’t quite peg why. I saw him sitting on his porch, a strange smile on his face. I kept moving, and that night was a Halloween much like any other.

  The following year I dropped a lot of weight. Got faster. Made the team. Didn’t think of how or why, just attributed it to hard work and eating right.

  Then early October came and I found the postcard on my pillow when I got home from school. I’d like to say I got cold chills when I picked it up, or that it felt like flesh or leat
hery hide, but no, just plain, cheap cardboard. Typed in a neat white font on one side, it read:

  Halloween is almost here. Did you have a good year? What do you want next year? Think hard! Make it worth the having.

  I wanted to show the card to my mom, but by the time she’d gotten home from work, it was gone. It was an itch at the back of my mind, every time anyone brought up Halloween, this icicle of dread would rocket down my spine, and then disappear in a haze of thoughts about candy and costumes.

  The night before Halloween, laying my costume out before going to bed, my only thoughts were on candy and sneaking around in the dark. It was two in the morning when I woke to a great weight on top of me, pushing the blankets down tight and cocooning me inside. I opened my eyes to see a silhouette, slight shoulders that were a bit too sharp, full breasts that seemed too round, slender arms that pinned me down. It was too dark to see details. I tried to cry out for my parents, but the thing lifted a hand to my mouth, cold boneless fingers clamping down. The palm spread like cold jelly as the thing drew its palm back, forcing one, then two fingers into my mouth. There was a texture to the bottom of them, something between a snake’s belly and octopus suction pads.

  Shhhhh …

  The whisper in my brain.

  Have you thought on it?

  Thought on what?

  The postcard I sent. What you want for next year.

  Who are you?

  It doesn’t matter who I am. It matters who you are. You are mine.

  How did you—

  Just as you hear me in your mind, I hear you in mine. You are mine.

  What does that mean?

  It means you are mine.

  I felt the thing rock down with its pelvis, grind into my stomach.

  The agreement is not without benefit to you.

  I didn’t agree to anything.

  Does a fish agree to feed a shark? Does a tree agree to be struck by lightning? You are mine.

  The thing drew closer to me, and I squeezed my eyes shut. Everything grew bright, until I could make out shapes, then colors. Then I could see it in front of me.