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  IN DEPENDENCE

  Sarah Ladipo Manyika

  Contents

  Title Page

  I: In the beginning 1963 – 1969

  Chapter 1

  Chapter 2

  Chapter 3

  Chapter 4

  Chapter 5

  Chapter 6

  Chapter 7

  Chapter 8

  Chapter 9

  Chapter 10

  Chapter 11

  Chapter 12

  Chapter 13

  Chapter 14

  Chapter 15

  Chapter 16

  Chapter 17

  Chapter 18

  Chapter 19

  II: Some years later 1970 – 1994

  Chapter 20

  Chapter 21

  Chapter 22

  Chapter 23

  Chapter 24

  Chapter 25

  Chapter 26

  III: And then

  Chapter 27

  Chapter 28

  Chapter 29

  Chapter 30

  Chapter 31

  Chapter 32

  IV: Summer 1998

  Chapter 33

  Chapter 34

  Chapter 35

  Chapter 36

  In Dependence Book Club Questions

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  Copyright

  I

  In the beginning

  1963 – 1969

  Chapter 1

  One could begin with the dust, the heat and the purple bougainvillea. One might even begin with the smell of rotting mangoes tossed by the side of the road where flies hummed and green-bellied lizards bobbed their orange heads while loitering in the sun. But Tayo did not notice these — instead he walked in silence, oblivious to his surroundings. With a smile on his face, he thought of the night before, when he had dared to run a hand beneath the folds of Modupe’s wrapper. Without him even asking, Modupe had loosened the cloth around her waist. Of course, they’d kissed many times before, usually in the Lebanese cinema when all was dark, but that was nothing compared to last night. And while Tayo was lost in his thoughts, his father, who walked alongside, noticed the smile and read it as excitement for the forthcoming trip.

  They had set off early that morning to visit relatives, as was the tradition when someone was about to embark on a long journey. They would begin with Uncle Bola in the hope of finding him sober. By midday, he would almost certainly be drinking ogogoro and this was not a day to meet Uncle Bola under the influence.

  ‘An old man should be contemplating his mortality rather than dreaming of women,’ Tayo’s father said, alluding to his brother’s raunchy tales, which Tayo knew his father secretly enjoyed.

  Uncle B liked to joke that he was still young enough to make babies and thank the Lord God Almighty. And he did make babies — dozens of them. As for thanking God — well, that was simply a manner of speaking. Uncle Bola believed only in beautiful women — not in Allah, Christ nor Ogun. In turn, women loved him, in spite of what he lacked by way of height, teeth and schooling. Tayo had long since concluded that Uncle Bola held the secret to a woman’s heart, which was why he looked forward to this visit. But on this particular morning, Uncle Bola did not seem himself. Upon seeing them, he became quite weepy, so weepy in fact that he forgot about his atheism and offered prayers to Allah, Ogun and Jesus on behalf of his favourite nephew. With tears still in his eyes, Uncle Bola gave Tayo his best buba and sokoto to wear as a going-away present and then insisted they stay longer to take amala and stew with him.

  ‘Here is some money for the ladies when you arrive,’ Uncle Bola whispered, stuffing newly-minted pound notes into Tayo’s shirt pocket before waving a final goodbye.

  Tayo had hoped to stay even longer, enjoying the company of his uncle, but there were many more relatives to visit and several more lunches to eat. Everyone insisted on feeding them and then, just when Tayo thought it was all over, they returned home to find more relatives gathered to wish him well. Several of his father’s friends were sprawled across the courtyard drinking beer and palm wine while the children chased each other in the dirt path by the side of the house. The women sat in one corner, roasting corn on an open fire, with sleeping babies on their backs.

  ‘Tayo! Tayo!’ the older children chanted as he made his way through the throng, stopping to pick up the youngest. Tayo expected his father to usher people away, but after the day’s copious consumption of palm wine, he’d forgotten time, preferring instead to continue boasting about his eldest son.

  ‘Na special scholarship dey don make for de boy?’ somebody asked.

  ‘Oh yes,’ Tayo’s father beamed.

  In fact, the scholarship was not created just for Tayo, but because he was the first Nigerian to win it (such things having been reserved, in the past, for whites), Tayo’s father decided that he might as well claim it solely for his son. Tayo closed his eyes while his father boasted, and thought ahead to the day after next, imagining how he would move swiftly through the crowds at Lagos port, to the ship and then over the seas to England.

  ‘To Balliol College, Oxford!’ Tayo whispered, thinking how grand it sounded.

  At dawn the following day, the entire Ajayi family said prayers before gathering around Father’s silver Morris Minor, washed and polished by his brothers, Remi and Tunde, so that it glistened like a fresh river fish. Everybody was dressed in their Sunday best, ready for the photographs, and only when the cameraman ran out of film did five of them clamber into the car. Father sounded the horn and all the doors slammed shut. The key turned and turned again, but the motor wouldn’t start, so everyone stumbled out again to push. Even Father helped, with one foot pumping the pedals and the other pushing back against the ground. They rolled it down the path, out of the compound and onto the road, until the engine jerked into action. Then, hurriedly, they all piled back in.

  The children followed the car down the dirt road, running and waving, not caring about the dust being blown into their faces, but jogging along until they could no longer keep up. Sister Bisi ran the fastest, thumping decisively on the car boot before they sped away, out of Ibadan and onto the main road that would take them to Uncle Kayode’s place in Lagos. Mama and Baba sat in the front of the car, and Tayo and his two aunts in the back. Father forbade talking in the car, claiming it distracted him, and for once Tayo was happy with this edict, knowing that otherwise his aunts would lecture him on how to behave in England. It didn’t matter that his aunts had never travelled outside Nigeria; it was their right and duty to instruct. Tayo closed his eyes and thought again about his sweetheart and their final goodbye. He remembered the poem he had composed for the occasion and the lines that didn’t quite rhyme. In the end, there had been no need for sonnets — she had promised to wait for his return.

  By the time they arrived at Uncle Kayode’s, the car was caked in dust and its weary passengers were covered in sweat and grime, but all would soon be forgotten. Uncle Kayode had a luxurious home. He was a big man in Lagos, recently returned from abroad as a senior army officer. Maids cooked for him, and large fans hung from the ceilings, whirling at high speed to keep the house cool. Tayo had never seen anything like it before.

  ‘When you arrive in England, my son,’ Uncle Kayode was saying, ‘you must make sure to contact the British Council and don’t forget to write to cousin Tunde and cousin Jumoke.’

  Tayo listened closely, hoping not to forget any valuable advice, but by the time he went to bed he couldn’t remember half of what he’d been told. Annoyed with himself, he tossed and turned on his mattress. For weeks he’d been looking forward to travelling away from home — to having his freedom — but now he thought only of what he would miss and how frightening it would be
to travel alone. He took Modupe’s photograph from his bag and kissed it. Reassured by her smile and remembering the events of Friday night, he rolled over and fell asleep.

  The next day, Tayo stood at the port, holding his bag tightly. He dared not ask his uncle another question, but he still wasn’t clear about what to do when he disembarked. What if the arrival halls in England were just as chaotic as the confusion he was seeing now, with everyone shouting and gesticulating and no-one bothering to queue? Exasperated by the late-afternoon heat, men took off their cloth caps and flicked away beads of perspiration. Then, as the folds of their agbadas kept slipping off their shoulders, they hitched them back, raising their arms like swimmers. Meanwhile, women herded children and straightened little dresses, trousers, and shirts, while tightening their own wrappers and head ties, unravelling from heat and bustle. Tayo, like everyone else, had been standing in this crowd for hours. He smiled, but not as broadly as the day before. His parents, uncle, aunties, and several Lagos-based relatives were with him, as well as Headmaster Faircliff and some teachers from school: Mrs. Burton (Latin), Mr. Clark (Maths), and Mr. Blackburn (British Empire History), but none of his brothers or sisters had come and he missed them already, especially Bisi.

  Tayo shook his head wistfully, staring at the liner, the Aureol, which towered high above them like a vast white giant with hundreds of porthole eyes. You will be missed, he told himself, recalling the rumour started by friends that a particular Lagos girls’ school — the one whose pupils occasionally visited his old school — was in mourning over his departure. He glanced around for these girls, but all he saw were family, easy to recognise in the matching aso ebi worn specially for his send-off. The men’s agbadas were the same aubergine purple as the women’s short-sleeve bubas and ankle-length wrappers. Tayo’s mother had chosen the material, fine Dutch waxed cotton, embroidered in gold thread at the neck and sleeves. Tayo had wanted to wear his agbada like the rest of the family, but Father insisted on western attire, claiming it more appropriate for an Oxford-bound man. So instead of loose, flowing robes, Tayo wore grey flannel trousers, white shirt, school tie, and a bottle green blazer that stuck to his skin like boiled okra. His agbada was neatly packed away in the trunk with extra clothes, the Koran, the Bible, half a dozen records, and several large tins of cooked meat with dried okra, egusi seed and elubo.

  ‘Jẹun dáadáa o, ọmọ mi. F’ojú sí ìwé rẹ o, dẹ má jẹ kí àwọn obìnrin kó sí ẹ l’órí’ Mama whispered, tugging at his shirt sleeve.

  ‘Yes, Ma, I promise to eat well, pay attention to my studies, and not to be distracted by women,’ he smiled, turning to face her as she adjusted his collar — it needed no tweaking but that was her way. He hugged her tightly, feeling her head tie brush against his chin, and the weight of stone and coral necklaces clink against his blazer buttons. It took him back to his childhood days, when he was afraid of thunder and lightning and would rush to his mother’s arms to bury himself in the reassuring scent of her rose perfume, tinged with the smell of firewood and starched cotton. He squeezed her again before his father called him away.

  ‘So long, my son.’ Baba spoke in English, which was his custom when in the presence of expatriates.

  Tayo held out his hand and was surprised when his father pulled him into the voluminous folds of his agbada and held him. Baba then started sniffling and fiddling with his handkerchief behind Tayo’s neck, which compelled Tayo to cough and break Father’s hold so that they stood for some moments, disentangled but silent, each searching for something to say.

  ‘Now, Tayo,’ Headmaster Faircliff interrupted. ‘You’re off to be a Balliol man.’

  ‘Yes, sir.’ Tayo nodded.

  ‘You ought to be jolly proud of yourself, Tayo, and soon you’ll return to lead your country and make our school proud.’ He grasped Tayo’s hand and slapped his shoulder.

  Tayo nodded again, feeling irritated by the man whom he normally admired and felt indebted to for the scholarship.

  ‘Right then, off you go,’ Mr. Faircliff ordered, releasing Tayo, and pointing to the gangway.

  Tayo turned to leave, gripping the large canvas bag that hung from his shoulder. Mama had assured him that in it was all he needed for the voyage — a few changes of clothes, a bar of Palmolive soap, a tin of kola nuts, some dried meats, a map of England, chewing sticks, and Uncle Kayode’s old winter coat.

  ‘Write to me as soon as you arrive,’ Father called.

  ‘Yes, sir.’ Tayo glanced back at his father before making his way up the steps. He waited for his father to shout one last instruction, but it never came.

  Chapter 2

  Dear Baba,

  Greetings from England and dry land! And what a journey it was, Baba, with that mighty sea slapping against the ship and spraying the deck with salty water. There were many days when we saw no land at all and no other ships, just dolphins and flying fish, and once a group of sharks attacked our dolphin friends, turning the water red. If we passed another ship, our captain would blare his horn, saluting the vessel while we waved, but usually it was just us and that endless, frightening sea. The waters were particularly rough when we entered the Gulf of Guinea, and the notorious Guinea current. They were also rough in the run up to the Bay of Biscay, but the worst was entering the Mersey Estuary from the Irish Sea. From a distance, the Irish Sea was cloaked in fog so that we could not see the rough, heaving waves that are legendary among mariners. Mind you, this was the only time when I succumbed to seasickness (everyone suffered from motion sickness that day!).

  On board the ship, I made friends with two students, Mr. Lekan Olajide from Ogbomosho and Mr. Ibrahim Mohammed from Kaduna. The three of us were well received by the Captain, and even invited to the first-class cabin where the British Broadcasting Corporation was making a film about Nigeria. Perhaps we are already famous! Sadly, Mr. Olajide and Mr. Mohammed were not Oxford-bound, but we have exchanged addresses, and in this way, we remain in touch.

  The boat made several stops along the way at Takoradi, Monrovia, Freetown, and the lovely Las Palmas. Once in Liverpool, they tugged us into harbour and I travelled to London, and then up to Oxford, where I am now in my college rooms.

  My first two weeks at Oxford have been busy and filled with invitations of all sorts. Yesterday, I had tea with my moral tutor, and sherry with the Master. Today, it was a new members’ drinks party at the West African Society, and chapel was followed by sherry in the Old Senior Common Room. I have also been introduced to a British Army Colonel, a Brigadier, and a Lord who dined in college. King Olav’s son (from Norway) is a student here at Balliol, too. As you can see, there are many important persons at Oxford, which is part of what makes it such an impressive institution.

  In other ways, though, Oxford is not as I expected. The sun sets by 6pm and I am told that it will set even earlier in the months to come. This, and the fact that darkness descends so slowly, are so strange for me. The people can be a little strange, too, and on the whole, not terribly friendly. I have come to the conclusion that because the English are a minority in Nigeria, they are obliged to be cordial in our country, whereas their true temperament is somewhat cold, much like their weather. You will also be surprised to discover that in this country, people do not greet each other in passing, not even Balliol men. In fact, many Balliol men do not look very distinguished at all. Some sport long hair, and bathing is not a daily occurrence on account of the cold. The tutors look more distinguished, but many are ignorant about Africa. I am grateful to Headmaster Faircliff for his letter of introduction to Professor Edward Barker and his wife, Isabella, who have invited me to lunch next week.

  I am also excited to report that I have met three other Nigerians at the university: Mr. Ike Nwandi, who is reading History, Mr. Bolaji Oladipo, reading Law at Magdalen, and Christine Arinze who reads Modern Languages at St. Hilda’s. We live and study in the colleges and each has its own library and tutors. I am also friendly with Percy, my scout. He is the man who cleans my room
every day and has been most helpful in explaining the origin and meaning of certain English customs. Can you believe that he addresses me as ‘Sir’? Life is different here, but a great adventure. I intend to join the college football and table tennis teams, and also the West African Students Society. I will, however, devote most of my hours to reading, starting with Kant and de Tocqueville, as well as many other notable scholars, for my tutorials.

  I wait anxiously for news from home, and for some letters. My greetings to everyone, and please tell Mama that her food has served me well (I have made several friends by sharing it with chaps on my staircase). English food, with the exception of custard (like ogi) is not too appetising. Please greet Auntie Amina, Uncle Tunde, Auntie Titiola, Auntie Mary, Uncle Kayode, Uncle Joseph, brother Remi, brother Tope, sister Bisi, sister Kemi, sister Fatima, and all the family.

  Yours truly, Omotayo

  P.S. As my colleagues find it difficult to pronounce my name, I am now known as ‘Ty’ for short.

  Dear Son,

  We received your letter, dated 27th October, two weeks hence. We are delighted to know that you arrived safely and in good health. Praise God! It was most interesting to hear of your experiences in Oxford and I have informed colleagues at work about your meeting with King Olav, the Lords, and the army generals. They are duly impressed. In your next letter, you will please apprise me of the precise names of these gentlemen so that I can provide complete statistics to colleagues and Uncle Kayode.

  We are all well here. Thanks be to God. Bisi received highest honours for Geography, and Biyi made school prefect. So, you see, the Ajayi family continue to excel in their studies. Marvellous. We are looking to you now to make us even more proud. Meanwhile, things in Nigeria are running splendidly. The independence celebrations (three years of independence now!) were quite fantastic. In short, there were many fireworks, dancing, eating, and general gaiety. We were proud and now the government is working for increased Nigerian leadership. Indigenous responsibility is what we call it. Rumour has it that a Nigerian will soon replace our Chief of Police, and we hope so. God willing. And yet some white men here are still thinking they own our land, not acknowledging that it is a new Nigeria. In short, to keep you informed I send you forthwith these articles from The New Nigerian and The Daily Times newspapers. I have underlined, for your benefit, the important points.