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  «You know who really killed Lumumba?» Master said, looking up from a magazine. «It was the Americans and the Belgians. It had nothing to do with Katanga.»

  «Yes, sah,» Ugwu said. He wanted Master to keep talking, so he could listen to the sonorous voice, the musical blend of English words in his Igbo sentences.

  «You are my houseboy,» Master said. «If I order you to go outside and beat a woman walking on the street with a stick, and you then give her a bloody wound on her leg, who is responsible for the wound, you or me?»

  Ugwu stared at Master, shaking his head, wondering if Master was referring to the chicken pieces in some roundabout way.

  «Lumumba was prime minister of Congo. Do you know where Congo is?» Master asked.

  «No, sah.»

  Master got up quickly and went into the study. Ugwu's confused fear made his eyelids quiver. «Would Master send him home because he did not speak English well, kept chicken in his pocket overnight, did not know the strange places Master named? Master came back with a wide piece of paper that he unfolded and laid out on the dining table, pushing aside books and magazines. He pointed with his pen. „This is our world, although the people who drew this map decided to put their own land on top of ours. There is no top or bottom, you see.“ Master picked up the paper and folded it, so that one edge touched the other, leaving a hollow between. „Our world is round, it never ends. Nee anya, this is all water, the seas and oceans, and here's Europe and here's our own continent, Africa, and the Congo is in the middle. Farther up here is Nigeria, and Nsukka is here, in the southeast; this is where we are.“ He tapped with his pen.

  „Yes, sah.“

  „Did you go to school?“

  „Standard two, sah. But I learn everything fast.“

  „Standard two? How long ago?“

  „Many years now, sah. But I learn everything very fast!“

  „Why did you stop school?“

  „My father's crops failed, sah.“

  Master nodded slowly. „Why didn't your father find somebody to lend him your school fees?“

  „Sah?“

  „Your father should have borrowed!“ Master snapped, and then, in English, „Education is a priority! How can we resist exploitation if we don't have the tools to understand exploitation?“

  „Yes, sah!“ Ugwu nodded vigorously. He was determined to appear as alert as he could, because of the wild shine that had appeared in Master's eyes.

  „I will enroll you in the staff primary school,“ Master said, still tapping on the piece of paper with his pen.

  Ugwu's aunty had told him that if he served well for a few years, Master would send him to commercial school where he would learn typing and shorthand. She had mentioned the staff primary school, but only to tell him that it was for the children of the lecturers, who wore blue uniforms and white socks so intricately trimmed with wisps of lace that you wondered why anybody had wasted so much time on mere socks.

  „Yes, sah,“ he said. „Thank, sah.“

  „I suppose you will be the oldest in class, starting in standard three at your age,“ Master said. „And the only way you can get their respect is to be the best. Do you understand?“

  „Yes, sah!“

  „Sit down, my good man.“

  Ugwu chose the chair farthest from Master, awkwardly placing his feet close together. He preferred to stand.

  „There are two answers to the things they will teach you about our land: the real answer and the answer you give in school to pass. You must read books and learn both answers. I will give you books, excellent books.“ Master stopped to sip his tea. „They will teach you that a white man called Mungo Park discovered River Niger. That is rubbish. Our people fished in the Niger long before Mungo Park 's grandfather was born. But in your exam, write that it was Mungo Park.“

  „Yes, sah.“ Ugwu wished that this person called Mungo Park had not offended Master so much.

  „Can't you say anything else?“

  „Sah?“

  „Sing me a song.“

  „Sah?“

  „Sing me a song. What songs do you know? Sing!“ Master pulled his glasses off. His eyebrows were furrowed, serious. Ugwu began to sing an old song he had learned on his father's farm. His heart hit his chest painfully. „Nzogbo nzogbu enyimba, enyi…“

  He sang in a low voice at first, but Master tapped his pen on the table and said „Louder!“ so he raised his voice, and Master kept saying „Louder!“ until he was screaming. After singing over and over a few times, Master asked him to stop. „Good, good,“ he said. „Can you make tea?“

  „No, sah. But I learn fast,“ Ugwu said. The singing had loosened something inside him, he was breathing easily and his heart no longer pounded. And he was convinced that Master was mad.

  „I eat mostly at the staff club. I suppose I shall have to bring more food home now that you are here.“

  „Sah, I can cook.“

  „You cook?“

  Ugwu nodded. He had spent many evenings watching his mother cook. He had started the fire for her, or fanned the embers when it started to die out. He had peeled and pounded yams and cassava, blown out the husks in rice, picked out the weevils from beans, peeled onions, and ground peppers. Often, when his mother was sick with the coughing, he wished that he, and not Anulika, would cook. He had never told anyone this, not even Anulika; she had already told him he spent too much time around women cooking, and he might never grow a beard if he kept doing that.

  „Well, you can cook your own food then,“ Master said. „Write a list of what you'll need.“

  „Yes, sah.“

  „You wouldn't know how to get to the market, would you? I'll ask Jomo to show you.“

  „Jomo, sah?“

  „Jomo takes care of the compound. He comes in three times a week. Funny man, I've seen him talking to the croton plant.“ Master paused. „Anyway, he'll be here tomorrow.“

  Later, Ugwu wrote a list of food items and gave it to Master.

  Master stared at the list for a while. „Remarkable blend,“ he said in English. „I suppose they'll teach you to use more vowels in school.“

  Ugwu disliked the amusement in Master's face. „We need wood, sah,“ he said.

  „Wood?“

  „For your books, sah. So that I can arrange them.“

  „Oh, yes, shelves. I suppose we could fit more shelves somewhere, perhaps in the corridor. I will speak to somebody at the works department.“

  „Yes, sah.“

  „Odenigbo. Call me Odenigbo.“

  Ugwu stared at him doubtfully. „Sah?“

  „My name is not Sah. Call me Odenigbo.“

  „Yes, sah.“

  „Odenigbo will always be my name. Sir is arbitrary. You could be the sir tomorrow.“

  „Yes, sah-Odenigbo.“

  Ugwu really preferred sah, the crisp power behind the word, and when two men from the works department came a few days later to install shelves in the corridor, he told them that they would have to wait for Sah to come home; he himself could not sign the white paper with typewritten words. He said Sah proudly.

  „He's one of these village houseboys,“ one of the men said dismissively and Ugwu looked at the man's face and murmured a curse about acute diarrhea following him and all of his offspring for life. As he arranged Master's books, he promised himself, stopping short of speaking aloud, that he would learn how to sign forms.

  In the following weeks, the weeks when he examined every corner of the bungalow, when he discovered that a beehive was lodged on the cashew tree and that the butterflies converged in the front yard when the sun was brightest, he was just as careful in learning the rhythms of Master's life. Every morning, he picked up the Daily Times and Renaissance that the vendor dropped off at the door and folded them on the table next to Master's tea and bread. He had the Opel washed before Master finished breakfast, and when Master came back from work and was taking a siesta, he dusted the car over again, before Master left for the tennis cour
ts. He moved around silently on the days that Master retired to the study for hours. When Master paced the corridor talking in a loud voice, he made sure that there was hot water ready for tea. He scrubbed the floors daily. He wiped the louvers until they sparkled in the afternoon sunlight, paid attention to the tiny cracks in the bathtub, polished the saucers that he used to serve kola nut to Master's friends. There were at least two visitors in the living room each day, the radiogram turned on low to strange flutelike music, low enough for the talking and laughing and glass-clinking to come clearly to Ugwu in the kitchen or in the corridor as he ironed Master's clothes.

  He wanted to do more, wanted to give Master every reason to keep him, and so one morning he ironed Master's socks. They didn't look rumpled, the black ribbed socks, but he thought they would look even better straightened. The hot iron hissed and when he raised it, he saw that half of the sock was glued to it. He froze. Master was at the dining table, finishing up breakfast, and would come in any minute now to pull on his socks and shoes and take the files on the shelf and leave for work. Ugwu wanted to hide the sock under the chair and dash to the drawer for a new pair but his legs would not move. He stood there with the burned sock, knowing Master would find him that way.

  „You've ironed my socks, haven't you?“ Master asked. „You stupid ignoramus.“ Stupid ignoramus slid out of his mouth like music.

  „Sorry, sah! Sorry, sah!“

  „I told you not to call me sir.“ Master picked up a file from the shelf. „I'm late.“

  „Sah? Should I bring another pair?“ Ugwu asked. But Master had already slipped on his shoes, without socks, and hurried out. Ugwu heard him bang the car door and drive away. His chest felt weighty; he did not know why he had ironed the socks, why he had not simply done the safari suit. Evil spirits, that was it. The evil spirits had made him do it. They lurked everywhere, after all. Whenever he was ill with the fever, or once when he fell from a tree, his mother would rub his body with okwuma, all the while muttering, „We shall defeat them, they will not win.“

  He went out to the front yard, past stones placed side by side around the manicured lawn. The evil spirits would not win. He would not let them defeat him. There was a round grassless patch in the middle of the lawn, like an island in a green sea, where a thin palm tree stood. Ugwu had never seen any palm tree that short, or one with leaves that flared out so perfectly. It did not look strong enough to bear fruit, did not look useful at all, like most of the plants here. He picked up a stone and threw it into the distance. So much wasted space. In his village, people farmed the tiniest plots outside their homes and planted useful vegetables and herbs. His grandmother had not needed to grow her favorite herb, arigbe, because it grew wild everywhere. She used to say that arigbe softened a man's heart. She was the second of three wives and did not have the special position that came with being the first or the last, so before she asked her husband for anything, she told Ugwu, she cooked him spicy yam porridge with arigbe. It had worked, always. Perhaps it would work with Master.

  Ugwu walked around in search of arigbe. He looked among the pink flowers, under the cashew tree with the spongy beehive lodged on a branch, the lemon tree that had black soldier ants crawling up and down the trunk, and the pawpaw trees whose ripening fruit was dotted with fat bird-burrowed holes. But the ground was clean, no herbs; Jomo's weeding was thorough and careful, and nothing that was not wanted was allowed to be.

  The first time they met, Ugwu had greeted Jomo and Jomo nodded and continued to work, saying nothing. He was a small man with a tough, shriveled body that Ugwu felt needed a watering more than the plants that he targeted with his metal can. Finally, Jomo looked up at Ugwu. „Afa m bu Jomo“ he announced, as if Ugwu did not know his name. „Some people call me Kenyatta, after the great man in Kenya. I am a hunter.“

  Ugwu did not know what to say in return because Jomo was staring right into his eyes, as though expecting to hear something remarkable that Ugwu did.

  „What kind of animals do you kill?“ Ugwu asked. Jomo beamed, as if this was exactly the question he had wanted, and began to talk about his hunting. Ugwu sat on the steps that led to the backyard and listened. From the first day, he did not believe Jomo's stories-of fighting off a leopard bare-handed, of killing two baboons with a single shot-but he liked listening to them and he put off washing Master's clothes to the days Jomo came so he could sit outside while Jomo worked. Jomo moved with a slow deliberateness. His raking, watering, and planting all somehow seemed filled with solemn wisdom. He would look up in the middle of trimming a hedge and say, „That is good meat,“ and then walk to the goatskin bag tied behind his bicycle to rummage for his catapult. Once, he shot a bush pigeon down from the cashew tree with a small stone, wrapped it in leaves, and put it into his bag.

  „Don't go to that bag unless I am around,“ he told Ugwu. „You might find a human head there.“

  Ugwu laughed but had not entirely doubted Jomo. He wished so much that Jomo had come to work today. Jomo would have been the best person to ask about arigbe-indeed, to ask for advice on how best to placate Master.

  He walked out of the compound, to the street, and looked through the plants on the roadside until he saw the rumpled leaves close to the root of a whistling pine. He had never smelled anything like the spicy sharpness of arigbe in the bland food Master brought back from the staff club; he would cook a stew with it, and offer Master some with rice, and afterward plead with him. Please don't send me back home, sah. I will work extra for the burned sock. I will earn the money to replace it. He did not know exactly what he could do to earn money for the sock, but he planned to tell Master that anyway.

  If the arigbe softened Master's heart, perhaps he could grow it and some other herbs in the backyard. He would tell Master that the garden was something to do until he started school, since the headmistress at the staff school had told Master that he could not start midterm. He might be hoping for too much, though. What was the point of thinking about an herb garden if Master asked him to leave, if Master would not forgive the burnt sock? He walked quickly into the kitchen, laid the arigbe down on the counter, and measured out some rice.

  Hours later, he felt a tautness in his stomach when he heard Master's car: the crunch of gravel and the hum of the engine before it stopped in the garage. He stood by the pot of stew, stirring, holding the ladle as tight as the cramps in his stomach felt. Would Master ask him to leave before he had a chance to offer him the food? What would he tell his people?

  „Good afternoon, sah-Odenigbo,“ he said, even before Master had come into the kitchen.

  „Yes, yes,“ Master said. He was holding books to his chest with one hand and his briefcase with the other. Ugwu rushed over to help with the books. „Sah? You will eat?“ he asked in English.

  „Eat what?“

  Ugwu's stomach got tighter. He feared it might snap as he bent to place the books on the dining table. „Stew, sah.“

  „Stew?“

  „Yes, sah. Very good stew, sah.“

  „I'll try some, then.“

  „Yes, sah!“

  „Call me Odenigbo!“ Master snapped before going in to take an afternoon bath.

  After Ugwu served the food, he stood by the kitchen door, watching as Master took a first forkful of rice and stew, took another, and then called out, „Excellent, my good man.“

  Ugwu appeared from behind the door. „Sah? I can plant the herbs in a small garden. To cook more stews like this.“

  „A garden?“ Master stopped to sip some water and turn a journal page. „No, no, no. Outside is Jomo's territory, and inside is yours. Division of labor, my good man. If we need herbs, we'll ask Jomo to take care of it.“ Ugwu loved the sound of Division of labor, my good man, spoken in English.

  „Yes, sah,“ he said, although he was already thinking of what spot would be best for the herb garden: near the Boys' Quarters where Master never went. He could not trust Jomo with the herb garden and would tend it himself when Master was out, and th
is way, his arigbe, his herb of forgiveness, would never run out. It was only later in the evening that he realized Master must have forgotten about the burnt sock long before coming home.

  Ugwu came to realize other things. He was not a normal house-boy; Dr. Okeke's houseboy next door did not sleep on a bed in a room, he slept on the kitchen floor. The houseboy at the end of the street with whom Ugwu went to the market did not decide what would be cooked, he cooked whatever he was ordered to. And they did not have masters or madams who gave them books, saying, „This one is excellent, just excellent.“

  Ugwu did not understand most of the sentences in the books, but he made a show of reading them. Nor did he entirely understand the conversations of Master and his friends but listened anyway and heard that the world had to do more about the black people killed in Sharpeville, that the spy plane shot down in Russia served the Americans right, that De Gaulle was being clumsy in Algeria, that the United Nations would never get rid of Tshombe in Katanga. Once in a while, Master would stand up and raise his glass and his voice- „To that brave black American led into the University of Mississippi!“ „To Ceylon and to the world's first woman prime minister!“ „To Cuba for beating the Americans at their own game!“-and Ugwu would enjoy the clink of beer bottles against glasses, glasses against glasses, bottles against bottles.

  More friends visited on weekends, and when Ugwu came out to serve their drinks Master would sometimes introduce him-in English, of course. „Ugwu helps me around the house. Very clever boy.“ Ugwu would continue to uncork bottles of beer and Coke silently, while feeling the warm glow of pride spread up from the tips of his toes. He especially liked it when Master introduced him to foreigners, like Mr. Johnson, who was from the Caribbean and stammered when he spoke, or Professor Lehman, the nasal white man from America who had eyes that were the piercing green of a fresh leaf. Ugwu was vaguely frightened the first time he saw him because he had always imagined that only evil spirits had grass-colored eyes.