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  Valkyrien

  Islandport Press

  P.O. Box 10

  247 Portland Street

  Yarmouth, ME 04096

  Copyright © 2018 Maxwell Taylor Kennedy

  All Rights Reserved. Published in the United States by

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  ISBN: 978-1-944762-40-7

  ePUB ISBN: 978-1-944762-22-3

  Library of Congress Control Number: 2017952109

  Printed in the USA by Bookmasters

  Dean Lunt, Publisher

  Cover and book design by Teresa Lagrange, Islandport Press

  Cover image and interior images courtesy of Maxwell Taylor Kennedy

  Printed in the USA by Versa Press

  This book is dedicated to my wife, Vicki, with All My Love.

  Contents

  Before the Mast

  Prologue

  1. South

  2. Detroit Diesel

  3. Plotting

  4. Poor Troy

  5. Under Way At Last

  6. A Bad Feeling

  7. Jasper

  8. Prop Pullers

  9. Maxey

  10. The Cliffs of Big Sur

  11. High Seas

  12. Experiential Sailing

  13. Kevin

  14. Into Stranger Waters

  15. Brave Men Run in My Family

  16. Mexico

  17. The Harbor at Cabo San Lucas

  18. Kit Drinks the Water

  19. Vicki and Wes

  20. The Gulf of Tehuantepec

  21. Making Lists

  22. Jasper Gets into a Scuffle

  23. Life in the Estero

  24. Pistola

  25. Troy Returns

  26. Ghosts

  27. A Bit of a Situation for Troy

  28. Puntarenas

  29. Temporary Fixes

  30. Whaler

  31. Dugout

  32. Days in Quepos

  33. Bad Medicine

  34. Pirates!

  35. Considering an Ending

  36. The Waves at Punta Mala

  37. End of the Line

  38. Epilogue

  39. Acknowledgments

  40. About the Author

  Before the Mast

  My wife Vicki gave me a print of a painting by Ed Ruscha and Nancy Reese for my fortieth birthday. The painting depicts a clipper ship tossed by a storm at sea, heeled over, decks awash, sails full and shining through the spray, scuttles pouring forth frothy ocean—making her way forward, courageous and defiant.

  I love this painting with all my heart. I love it foremost, I think, because I love the sea. I am carried by the sea. The sea protects me from what is out there in the world that is dangerous. Sometimes I feel best aboard a ship at sea in a storm. I spend so much of my time each day worrying about things that will never happen, or chafing over the past. A storm requires all of my attention.

  Above the ship, written diagonally from the upper left to the lower right on the painting, Ed Ruscha added to Reese’s image the words:

  BRAVE MEN RUN IN MY FAMILY

  With those six small words Ruscha transformed the painting from the kind of decorative art my parents collected into a pop-art commentary.

  Yes, brave men run in my family. My ancestors and cousins fought in just about every war this country has ever waged. Brave men in my family also run for office. In my family, brave men also run away. My father disappeared when I was three-and-a-half years old. He had been shot and killed. I keenly felt his absence.

  One of my favorite film characters is the minstrel in Monty Python and the Holy Grail. A minstrel’s job is to tell the truth, but subtly. In the film, the brave man, Sir Robin, runs away from a battle. The minstrel sings:

  When danger reared its ugly head,

  He bravely turned his tail and fled.

  Brave, brave, brave, brave Sir Robin.

  For me, it is much easier to brave the sea than to face the challenges of staying at home and living what Warren Zevon called “A Quiet Normal Life.” For me, the truly brave thing is not holding the wheel of a schooner as she breaks up in a storm, but committing to the intimacy of marriage and being present in the lives of my children. My whole life I have sailed, but I had not, in the truest sense, recognized myself as a father and a husband. I had no idea at all how that was done. Vicki though, helped me figure it out.

  I ran away on the schooner Valkyrien, for nearly a year. Sailed away, more accurately, though I was never actually gone for more than a few months at a time. I missed her too much.

  Prologue

  We have lingered in the chambers of the sea,

  by sea-girls wreathed with seaweed red and brown.

  Till human voices wake us, and we drown.

  —T. S. Eliot, The Love Song of J. Alfred Prufrock

  I had come to San Francisco searching for a wooden schooner.

  Barack Obama had just been elected president, and for most of the past year, I’d volunteered for his campaign. That fall, I felt the world overflowing with the potential for progress and change, and understood for the first time why so many people remembered the election of 1960 and the extraordinary optimism of that earlier time. The transcendent importance of the election of the first black president did not mean the fight for equality was over, or won, but rather that it was more important than ever to educate people about our country’s past, and particularly our treatment of people of color.

  I wanted to illuminate a part of this past by creating a memorial to the extraordinary bravery of the men and women who took part in the largest slave break in American history. The story of the packet schooner Pearl was one that had shocked and angered but also fascinated me ever since my friend Bob Nixon had first told me about it several years earlier.

  Nixon is a gifted filmmaker and dedicated environmentalist. We have been friends for more than thirty-five years. Bob was obsessed by the Pearl. In 1848, seventy-seven African-American men, women, and children had risked their lives aboard the Pearl, trying to escape slavery by sailing secretly along the Potomac and Delaware rivers toward the free state of New Jersey. Tragically, wind and tide slowed the Pearl. An armed posse of white vigilantes riding fast in a steamboat caught up with and captured the slaves. The idealistic whites who had aided in the daring escape were arrested and jailed, while the slaves were sold south to Black Belt plantations.

  Bob Nixon has an extraordinary sense of what is right and good and just in the world. He convinced me to join him on the board of the nonprofit organization, The Pearl Coalition—a group of grassroots volunteers, many of whom live or work in some of Washington DC’s toughest neighborhoods. The Pearl Coalition is dedicated to memorializing the heroes of the Pearl and to building a full-size replica of the schooner, to be berthed in Washington, DC. The new Pearl will serve as a hands-on museum and vividly convey not only the story of escape, but also the importance of schooners in American history.

  Schooners built this country. The fish American colonists ate were caught from schooners. Tobacco, timber, rum, sugar, wool, and slaves were all shipped aboard packet schooners. Packet vessels of various sizes were used to ship mail, trade goods, and transport passengers among the colonies and between America and its European masters. American roads remained primitive up through the Civil War, and railroads did not have the capacity to ship sufficient goods, especially to towns isolat
ed off the rail grid. Much of the shipping that is now done by trucks, rail, and aircraft was accomplished via the efficiently rigged packet schooners. A part of this maritime heritage is preserved even today. When we order goods from Amazon.com, we receive an email notice saying “Your package has been shipped,” when of course they really mean “trucked.”

  The first Americans to defy the King of England were the captains of packet schooners. Dedicated to independence and fond of their coin, schooner captains avoided taxation by unloading their cargo on small piers along farmland and in rivers, away from the larger towns and out of reach of His Majesty’s taxmen. They proved that colonists could disobey the King with impunity. Their defiance was one of the first great acts of American independence.

  Although I had read about schooners in grade school, I did not truly understand in a visceral way how schooners shaped this country until the first time I stepped aboard one when I was nine years old. On a hot summer day, my uncle Ted had brought me and my brothers and sisters and cousins aboard an interactive museum-schooner in Boston Harbor.

  Icons allow young people to gain a tactile sense of history. Stepping aboard this schooner, I heard the lap of the water on the sides of the boat and felt the gentle sway of the vessel in the harbor’s soft currents along the wharf. I saw the huge interior jam-packed like some leviathan boxcar, full of goods for trade. I smelled the scent of hot pitch between the deck planks, mildew in the canvas, salt in the air. My arms felt the difficulty of raising the sails.

  I was able to imagine a group of intrepid Americans cutting trees, sawing planks, wrapping rope, and building these boats, knowing that they could go anywhere in the world, free to trade and learn and experience. Once out of the harbor, no one could tell them what to do. How to live, where to sail, the risks to take. Each captain was as free and independent on the open sea as any king. The schooner represented that experience of freedom, absent in Europe and so new to America.

  Boston, New York, Philadelphia and Baltimore all have working packet schooners that teach this history to schoolchildren. But there is no schooner in Washington, DC, and no memorial to the heroism of the slaves aboard the Pearl. Our nation’s capital needed a schooner, particularly one with such an important story to tell as the Pearl’s. We had trouble raising sufficient funds to build a replica of the Pearl, so it was decided that we would find an old schooner on the cheap to serve as a temporary stand-in while we went about raising the money.

  This proved more difficult than you might imagine. During the first half of the nineteenth century, schooners were the most common vessel on the coasts, but only a few hundred wooden schooners remain intact today. The rest burned or sank or were abandoned—left to rot as trains and trucks surpassed sailboats for transporting cargo on the seacoasts of the United States.

  Wooden schooners in great sailing shape can cost over $1 million; our budget was $40,000. Essentially, we had to find a decrepit schooner about to be junked; then we had to buy her, repair her, and sail her to Washington, DC. We searched the internet and made phone calls to various marinas, captains, brokers, friends, and associates, up and down the East and West Coasts of the United States, trying to find an old schooner that looked and felt like the Pearl, and which we could purchase and sail to Washington.

  Finally, searching on a site that specialized in “project boats,” I came across an old schooner, built much like the Pearl, tied to a pier near San Francisco. Her name was Valkyrien. I knew it would be a long trip from San Francisco, through the Panama Canal, to Washington, DC. But I have sailed all my life, and this was a voyage I had always wanted to take.

  My family moved to Hyannis Port on Cape Cod in Massachusetts in the 1920s. Hyannis Port is a summer town, so it may seem strange to say “I am from Cape Cod,” having lived there for the most part only a few months each year, but I am more than anything a Cape Cod man. Hyannis Port is the one place in the world that every member of my large family (I have ten brothers and sisters) considers home.

  Hyannis Port has always seemed to me to be the best possible place to be raised. Everyone in town sails. I lived regimented summers, almost like camp, but where the other playmates were virtually all family. We were awakened early in the morning and forced to jump in the ocean and swim laps back and forth as Sandy Eiler, the gigantic former Olympian, taught me how to improve my stroke. Ruby, our family cook, made breakfast with bacon and eggs and French toast, which was served after saying grace.

  Then, we raced down to the pier where we took sailing lessons for an hour and a half, followed by tennis lessons. Each day, at precisely 12:30 p.m., we set sail with my mother aboard the Resolute, our Wianno Senior sloop. We sailed until 3:30 or 4:00 p.m., after which we played softball for an hour and a half before playing games like Chase One, Chase All, followed by a quick swim and then family dinner. After dinner we played various games like flashlight tag until 9:30 p.m., and then we’d read for an hour before bed.

  The Resolute had been my father’s boat. She was a 25-foot gaff-rigged sloop with a short keel and a centerboard, designed in 1913 specifically to race in Nantucket Sound. Because every Senior is virtually identical in dimensions of hull, mast and spars, and sails, winning races really comes down to who is the best sailor, with the best crew, and can tune their boat most successfully. We sailed the Resolute every day, no matter what the weather. My mother had once sailed with my father through a hurricane. No matter how windy or stormy the weather, she taught us always to sail. My uncle Ted used to say, “No one is interested in the storms you encountered, but whether you brought the boat home.” I learned from my earliest memories to sail in every storm, and that the most important thing of all was to bring the boat safely into port.

  I spent my first ten years or so of sailing often terrified. All wooden boats leak, and the Resolute was more or less in a constant state of sinking. We pumped her out each day before the afternoon sail. We often ran aground on the many shoals in Nantucket Sound. The Resolute could sail with the rails underwater, and even the seat coamings buried in the sea. Her sails made a terrible noise—so scary for me as a young boy, snapping back and forth—and every now and then the boom would crack or the mast would split, or the gaff would break in two. We learned to deal with these emergencies, and to take them on as our own challenges, without asking the boats around us for help. We brought the boat home each day on our own. The Resolute had no engine, but I learned to work on outboard motors, self-taught during long hours drifting around Nantucket Sound on a 13-foot Whaler with an old 35-horsepower Evinrude that refused to start.

  When I turned about seven years old, I found my father’s scuba gear on our front lawn where one of my brothers had left it. I dragged the tank down to the beach and figured out how to open the valve. Then I lay down, perhaps 18 inches under the water, breathing like Jacques Cousteau. I loved diving from that moment on, and ended up working with my friend, explorer Barry Clifford, on several scuba expeditions.

  I used to sneak down to the Cape during college, on late fall weekends, with my girlfriend Vicki Strauss and take her sailing on the Resolute. Sailing on the Cape became for me the most perfect way to spend a day—almost any day, whether sunny or rainy or even when it was snowing. One fairly rough afternoon, lightning struck the Resolute while my brother and I stood, furling her sail. We felt shock waves pass through our bodies, and St. Elmo’s fire jumped along her stays and above her bulwarks.

  My uncle Ted convinced me and my closest friend at the time to purchase a forty-year-old wooden Casey yawl, built in Fairhaven, Massachusetts. She had been sitting on a dock at the South Wharf yard in Padanaram for several years. That summer we sailed the Glide back to Hyannis Port and began restoring her. I spent more and more time in boat yards, and learned about diesel engines, and where fuel tanks should be placed, various types of varnish and bottom paint, the working of sea-cocks and a thousand other things—mostly by learning from experience how hardware works by seeing wha
t happens when hardware fails. We sailed Glide virtually every day each summer, slowly learning how to maneuver under various conditions and also, how to take care of a boat.

  Vicki and I got married, and had three children. Our daughter Noah, who was born at Cape Cod Hospital in Hyannis, began sailing on the Glide when she was only two days old.

  To this day, I will sometimes see my wife walking down to the pier, just after the sun sets, and shout out “Hey, Vicki!” My companions might say, “How did you know that was her?” I cannot explain how I know Vicki from so far off; I could tell you that I recognize her gait, or the way she holds her head on an evening stroll, or the lines of her sweatshirt—but these reasons are all misleading. They take me away from how I know my wife. The truth is, I just know her. I love Vicki, and I will recognize her always.

  It is the same with the sea. I could tell you that I love the challenge of sailing, or the freedom of sailing. I love the sense of wind against my face, the salt against my skin, the sun glinting off the sea. I love the camaraderie of sharing a day sailing with friends, or the quiet isolation of a solo sail. Each of these reasons, and many others, are true enough. But the fact is that I love sailing in the same inescapable and intangible way I love my wife. Not just because she is smart, or funny, or skinny, or thoughtful, or kind and loving—Vicki is all of these things—but none of these reasons even begins to explain why I am in love with Vicki. In fact, defining these “reasons” limits any understanding of love.

  It is the same with the sea. I simply love to sail.

  Someone said that sailing is like war in that it is mostly long periods of boredom punctuated by moments of sheer terror. This is essentially true, and while many of the pages of this book are dedicated to those brief moments of terror and action—these are not the times for which I sail. I sail because I love the long periods of boredom, when time creates an opportunity for intimacy among those aboard. Frankly, and perhaps oddly, those times are nonetheless probably just as boring to me as they are to everyone else aboard the boat. But when I take that moment and share some vulnerability—love, or fear, or mere delight—I feel most alive. Sailing calms the fire in my head. I am not one of those who stand grinning ear to ear all the while I’m at sea. In fact, most of the time, when I am at sea, all I can think about is getting off the boat. But after an hour or so onshore, I just want to get back in the boat.