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  Beauty

  A Hate Story, The End

  Mary Catherine Gebhard

  Beauty: A Hate Story, The End

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  First Edition: September 2017

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  Beauty: A Hate Story, The End

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  ISBN-13: 978-0692950487

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  Contents

  Freebie alert

  Epigraph

  Prologue

  Chapter 1

  Chapter 2

  Chapter 3

  Chapter 4

  Chapter 5

  Chapter 6

  Chapter 7

  Chapter 8

  Chapter 9

  Chapter 10

  Chapter 11

  Chapter 12

  Chapter 13

  Chapter 14

  Chapter 15

  Chapter 16

  Chapter 17

  Chapter 18

  Chapter 19

  Chapter 20

  Chapter 21

  Chapter 22

  Chapter 23

  Chapter 24

  Chapter 25

  Epilogue

  Note from the Author

  You Own Me sneak peek

  Books by Mary Catherine Gebhard

  Find Me

  Acknowledgments

  To all the dark, twisty souls that find beauty in the ugliest of places.

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  Prologue

  Oh God. Oh no. What have I done?

  My heart was in my throat as I hurriedly wiped blood from my hands. The harder I tried to clean them, the more dirt and blood smeared the skin. With a shaky breath, I looked beyond the small copse of trees that shrouded me to the reason my palms were stained red, the reason I’d killed someone. Pacing back and forth, talking on a phone, his features blurred from the distance. Every few moments, he paused and stared into the trees.

  Anteros.

  I sucked in a sharp breath—it was like he could see me even though I was cloaked in darkness. My hands stilled and I stopped trying to clean, paralyzed by his stare piercing the shadows. In the month since I’d escaped, the stubble on his jaw had grown to a beard. It made him wilder, more Beastly.

  “What have I done?” I whispered, breaking the spell and putting my head in my hands. An instant later, I tore them away. The blood was like maple syrup against my cheeks. I quickly jumped up and moved as far away from the body as I could, resting against a thin tree. Anteros resumed pacing, though occasionally he looked back, and each time he did, it had me swallowing what felt like golf balls.

  There was just one building around for miles, and only the anemic glow of one faraway street lamp cast light on the empty lot. Windowless with one door, it looked like some kind of abandoned concrete factory, but inside all kinds of debauchery went on. It was a club owned by the Beast, but not like the one he’d taken me to, not mainstream. This was underground, a place for the dark and dirty.

  A walkie-talkie blared static, angry, white noise next to the body, and even knowing I should leave, knowing my minutes were numbered, I couldn’t. This was the closest I’d gotten to Anteros since I’d escaped. It had been so long since we’d been in the same vicinity that I’d nearly forgotten the carnal pull, the tug, the yearning—how I was utterly powerless, even before he spoke.

  The first day I searched for him, I’d gone back to the penthouse and sat outside, hidden, waiting for him to come out. I did that for a week before I realized he didn’t live there anymore. I should have given up.

  Instead I became obsessed.

  A dark part of me hoped he couldn’t go back to the penthouse, the same way I couldn’t stop looking for him until I found him.

  As I watched Anteros, I tried to ignore the throbbing between my thighs that matched the heartbeat thrumming in my ears. Leather pants curved around thick, muscular thighs. Weapons glimmered in the night and a muscle shirt dirtied with blood captivated me, glued me to the spot. It all somehow enhanced Anteros, made him sexier, more dangerous. I hadn’t thought it possible for him to be more dangerous.

  I was transfixed by the way Anteros was only in a tank despite the bitter air, lingering on how his skin rolled with his muscles. Involuntarily, my tongue darted out to wet my lips. The Beast had always been lethal, but now…he was mythic.

  I was so engrossed watching him, I didn’t realize I was fingering the diamond rose pendant he’d given me. I should have thrown it away the moment I was free. I thought about it. I thought about it every day for almost two weeks, but could never do it. Now the diamond was getting bloody as I rubbed it.

  Bloody because I’d killed someone.

  It wasn’t supposed to happen this way—but then, I’d never really considered how it would happen. I’d just listened to the need tugging at my gut, the one that threatened to rip me apart if I didn’t follow. And when I’d finally found Anteros, someone had found me first. It was instinct. One minute there, the next gone.

  Big O.

  I killed Big O.

  It all happened so fast. I’d been in the trees, staring at the lone door, and then out of nowhere hands were around my neck. Before he could yell for help, my knife was in his side and blood ran down my palm, my wrist. It was so bright, but dark too…like summer cherries. I could have left Big O. I could have run and he would have been alive and I wouldn’t have been a killer. I hadn’t even planned on using my knife; the only reason I kept it was because Anteros’s dried blood was still on the blade.

  I could have left.

  But a rush of adrenaline, like fire in my chest and buzzing, crackling electricity in my veins, had filled me when the blade broke his skin. So I slid the knife into Big O again. And again.

  What d
oes that say about me?

  The weight of the memory was too much so I fell to the ground, hand scratching against the bark of the tree as I descended. I wasn’t about to throw Big O a funeral, but I was a good girl. I returned my library books. I was a good girl.

  Anteros stopped talking on his phone and stared into the trees again, one hand clasped behind his neck pensively, bicep bulging. Even yards away, his gaze stripped me of my clothes. Just when I was certain he could see me, he looked down and pulled his cell back out. Long, tan fingers slid across the glass surface.

  That thing happened—that uniquely Anteros thing—where my body got viciously warm and even in the winter I thought I would boil alive. His fingers had been one of the first things I noticed about him. Elegant. Rough. Dichotomous—like him. I couldn’t help but remember how they had curled inside me. A slight breeze tickled what little skin I had showing on the cold night and I rubbed my neck. When I brought my hand back, blood streaked the palm. My eyes flashed to Big O and I swallowed more golf balls.

  I’m so fucking fucked up.

  Snapping twigs echoed around me and I quickly got to my feet, eyes going to the patio—empty, only yellow light to make the cement glow. Hair flew into my face as the breeze kicked up and I quickly wiped it away as my hand went to my blade.

  Another sound.

  There.

  By the trees, where the street lamp couldn’t reach and the moon’s light was suffocated. At first it was nothing more than a shadow, but then my heartbeat stuttered and my breathing ratcheted, and I knew. I wondered if he could sense me all the way by the door the way I felt him now. The air vibrated when we were in the same space, like being too close to speakers at a concert.

  I should have run away, but I was prisoner to my needs and only he held the key to set me free.

  “Come out,” I said, voice shaking. I’d just killed someone, but simply the phantom of the man had me trembling.

  Anteros emerged, form made monstrous by the night, and I sucked in a breath that got lost in my lungs. His eyes gleamed, the same bluegreen that had haunted my dreams, except here it was real. Our eyes locked and for a brief moment, I felt him—felt everything. It was like quitting a drug and jumping back in at the full dosage—heady, unstable, dangerous. I had the urge to get on my knees, to beg forgiveness for leaving him.

  To beg for punishment.

  His gaze flicked to the dead, exsanguinated body of Big O. Surprise flashed in his bluegreen depths and vanished just as quickly, replaced by something else: satisfaction. I wanted to tell him he had it all wrong—I didn’t plan this—but his red lips curved in a cruelly sensual way and when his eyes flashed back to mine, they were hard and merciless, making my core ache and weep.

  I remembered reading about the prediction of a great earthquake that was going to shake California. It hadn’t happened yet, but everyone kept waiting for it. That was what I saw in his eyes: a cocksureness at my return, smug even as the earth shook beneath us.

  Anteros walked over the stained red concrete, mouth twisting up in a deadly grin as he reached me. My heart thumped so fast, so heavy, I wondered if it would bruise my ribcage. The smell of pine in the air was suddenly too thick. The night too dark. The ground too wet. I couldn’t breathe. If I touched him, I was fucked. But as our stares collided, I realized I would never escape him, could never escape him, because my heart beat inside his chest.

  I closed the distance, reaching for him.

  Still wearing a wicked grin, Anteros reached for the pendant and lifted it from my neck. His touch was cataclysmic, the heat of his fingers at my collarbone tearing through me. My breath was sporadic, staccato, leaving my parted lips in short gasps.

  “You’ve made me wait,” he said, gripping the silver chain of the necklace. “You’ll pay for that.”

  One

  At first Anteros thought Frankie was a ghost. The way her hair caught the moonlight and her eyes pierced the darkness made him sure of it. She was just something sprung from a month of wanting. Nothing more than twenty-four hours a day, thirty-one days of constant, aching need manifested.

  But then she moved.

  And he knew.

  “You still have a piece of me with you,” Anteros said, tightening his grip on the diamond pendant. She was still so willful, standing on her tiptoes until she was about to fall over, refusing to give him an inch. With one final tug on the silver chain she stumbled and fell into him, small fingers making indents on his chest, hot breath seeping into his tank.

  Fuck, he’d missed her.

  “Only because I had to leave before I could tear off the part I really wanted to take.” She looked at his hard cock pointedly. Though it sounded like a threat, her voice wavered, and she latched onto his shoulders.

  “I love it when you talk dirty to me, mio cuore.” He pulled her close and pressed his lips against the skin of her throat, raking his teeth along the cords of muscle. Her breath stuttered, a sharp inhalation that went straight to his cock. He fought the urge to bury his face into her skin, to crush her to him entirely, and fuck her right then and there—the fact that they would be caught be dammed.

  Anteros made a knot in her hair, feeling the silky strands that had been gone from his life for a month, and gripped tight so he could slide his gaze down her body. She was wearing jeans, a faded v-neck and a simple jacket, the same type of clothing she’d worn just before she left. The jeans fit her perfectly, molding to her curves, showing off her ass. He wanted to rip open the shirt and expose her petite breasts.

  Somehow she matched him more this way than she ever had in all the designer shit.

  “I’m not your heart,” she said, voice almost quieter than the breeze, and Anteros nearly missed it.

  He raised a brow, surprised she’d figured out the meaning of his pet name, then tugged her hair, tilting her neck so he could see into her crystal blue depths. “Yet here you are.”

  “I haven’t come back to you,” she whispered. “I’m not the same girl.” Her eyes flashed to Big O, to the blood reflecting black in the night, and to the discarded knife. She closed her eyes, pained, guilty lines marring her forehead. He knew he should feel rage, sadness—something. Yet as he stared into Big O’s lifeless eyes, the need pounding against his chest grew stronger. He’d suspected there was a darkness in Frankie, had sensed something deep underneath, but there was still so much untapped. Knowing she’d begun to break the surface made him go fucking crazy.

  “I’m well aware, Francesca,” he said. “You’ve been busy.” Her eyes popped open when he used her full name then slackened when he thumbed her lower lip. Once upon a time Frankie had insisted he call her Francesca and he’d denied her that respect. He’d denied her many respects, and he wouldn’t make those mistakes again.

  Anteros pulled his thumb from her lip and Frankie’s eyes widened, horrified to find Big O’s blood colored the skin. But, as he wordlessly slid the pad along his tongue, licking the blood from it, Frankie’s lids drooped and her tongue darted out, sliding across her lower lip in sync with it. Then, as if she’d sensed her own involuntary reaction, she jerked away from him and backed up until she hit a tree.

  “That’s, that’s—” she stuttered. “That’s not what I meant. I didn’t mean to do this.” Anteros was on Frankie in one fierce stride, pinning her against the bark. He quickly ran the length of her body, needing to feel every inch in seconds. The curve of her neck, the slope of her breasts, the little dip of her waist—fuck she’d been gone too goddamn long. She arched for his touch yet still clutched the tree for dear life. He tightened his grip at her waist, yanking her to him.

  Anteros sucked her neck, bruised the flesh with his lips, forcing her to take his embrace until she melted and stopped gripping the bark, latching onto him. Her sighs transformed into moans and he covered her mouth with his hand, lips getting the skin of his palm wet as she panted. They were too close to his club, could easily be found. Big O wasn’t the only man out patrolling.

  “No,” sh
e gasped, pushing his hand from her mouth. “This was an accident. I didn’t mean to do this.” There was fervent fear in her eyes—not of him, but herself. She struggled in his hold, trying to break free from him and his kisses, but that only made him push her harder against the tree.

  “An accident?” he asked. “How did you find me?”

  Her eyebrows scrunched and she pulled her lips together, as if holding in a secret. Anteros’s eyes slimmed, and he grasped both her arms with one hand and held them above her head.

  “How did you find me, Frankie?” he repeated, lips hovering below her ear.

  “Your map,” she breathed. “I found the map you left me.”

  Anteros smiled wickedly. “That doesn’t sound very accidental.” He released her hands and they fell to his shoulders. He lavished kisses along her neck, her collarbone, pausing at the swell of her breast to rumble his next words. “Now that you’ve had a taste you won’t stop. Your eyes are open. You’ve seen how dazzling the darkness can be.”

  She whimpered, eyelids fluttering like butterfly wings. Anteros laughed lowly when Frankie gnawed her lower lip, fighting the urges within her. The heat of her skin rose up to meet his lips, her nails dug deep into his flesh, and he knew he would crack her soon enough, expose her for the slave she would always be.