Emotions Series 04 Rekindled Emotions Read online

  "This is wonderful, Tom," B'Elanna remarked, "I bet it's beautiful in the daylight."

  Tom smiled, "It is. It's one of the first programs I made after I arrived on Voyager."

  B'Elanna stared at him, "You kept this to yourself?"

  Tom nodded, "I came here often when I wanted to get away. When I wanted to be alone. To think."

  B'Elanna felt honored that she was the first person he showed this program to. She now wanted to see this program during the day as well. She wrapped an arm around his waist as they traveled down the path and breathed in his scent. It was just as she remembered it--so intoxicating--and she smiled.

  When the pair came to a clearing in the middle of the forest, a slight breeze blew. Tom caught a whiff of B'Elanna's perfume, and a flash of light sparked before his eyes. He saw the two of them in a similar program. He was standing behind her, his arms around her. He could smell her perfume in her hair. The familiar feeling of being lost and alone flowed over him, but it wasn't as overwhelming as before. There was another emotion over powering it. That of love.

  Tom stopped and looked at the woman beside him. B'Elanna stared at him, her dark eyes full of questions. He smiled at her as he felt the emotions build inside of him. The pilot gently lifted her chin and kissed her. It was gentle at first as if testing her reaction. Then the kiss built as did the passion.

  B'Elanna moaned into the kiss as old feelings that had been tucked away in waiting finally were let loose. She wrapped her arms around him and deepened the kiss. Her hands then flew to his face as she aggressively ravished his mouth. She wanted to make sure that he knew of her desire for him. She had no idea of what brought this on, but she was going to take advantage of it. B'Elanna didn't know if it would ever happen again.

  Tom ran his hands through B'Elanna's dark hair. He moaned as he felt the silky softness of it. He remembered that feeling and missed it dearly. Moving his mouth to kiss her jawline, another flash of memories overcame him. He remembered them in his quarters focused only on each other. He saw himself biting her and her wonderful reaction. When the memory faded, he bit B'Elanna on the jaw.

  "Tom!" B'Elanna screamed and backed away from him. She stared at him, surprised. She touched her cheek and felt the wetness. Looking at her fingers and seeing, the blood, she looked at him and smiled.

  Tom smiled back, glad that he didn't do anything wrong. Her reaction was not what he expected. When she charged him and knocked him to the ground, his passion for her grew. He yelped when she bit him, but it only increased the new emotions that he was feeling for her. He rolled them over to where he was staring down at her. Her dark eyes reflected the passion that he felt.

  "What brought all this on?" B'Elanna asked as she ran her hands through his hair.

  Tom smiled and gently kissed her forehead, "Let's just say, I caught a whiff of something in the air."

  That was enough for B'Elanna. She smiled, embraced him, and brought his head down for another passionate kiss. Then running her hands up his back, she pulled his shirt off of him. She then flipped him over and began to lick and kiss her way down his chest. She smiled as she heard his moans. She loved to hear him enjoy himself and it brought her that much more pleasure. B'Elanna encountered the waistband of his jeans, and she began to unbutton them. She stopped briefly to take off her top before she slid his jeans off of him.

  Tom watched as the moonlight reflected off her bronze skin. He felt himself become aroused as he watched her undress to reveal her honey-colored skin, he thought about how sweet it would be to taste. He thought back to the first time they kissed since he woke up in Sickbay. It was an amazing kiss even though it was gentle. He wondered how much farther they would have gone if they hadn't been interrupted. He smiled as a scenario played in his mind, catching B'Elanna's attention.

  "Care to share the amusement," B'Elanna's soft voice caught his ears.

  Tom smiled at her and drew her closer for a deep kiss. He ran his hands over her skin, loving the feel of it. He wanted to kiss every inch of her, but they only had the holodeck for two more hours. She growled in his ear which only cause him to react more to her nearness. He flipped them over and he smiled as he slipped her bra then her underwear off, his briefs followed a moment later.

  The pilot took a breast in his mouth and suckled it, running his tongue across the peak which caused it to harden. He heard her gasp then moan as he continued. Her nails dug into his back as she urged him on. He switched sides as her moans grew louder. He then moved back up to take her mouth with his. He ran his hands through her hair as her hands roamed over his back.

  B'Elanna then flipped them over and straddled her husband's waist, she stared into his blue eyes. They smiled at each other in anticipation, knowing what was to come next. The engineer slowly raised her body and ever so slowly lowered herself onto him. She gasped at the sensation and relished the feeling of the two of them becoming one again. The two moaned together as B'Elanna began the age-old rhythm, steadying herself by placing her hands upon Tom's chest. She closed her eyes in ecstasy as she rocked her hips forward.

  Tom thrust up into her, bringing a low growl from her lips. He felt her nails digging into his chest as the pace increased. Moaning her name, he kept up with her frantic pace. He then suddenly flipped them over, never breaking their connection. She yelped at the sudden motion and stared into eyes that were dark with arousal. He smiled at her as he began to move inside her. She moaned as she wrapped her legs around his waist to push him in further.

  B'Elanna growled as Tom thrust harder inside her. She dug her nails into his back which only increased the pace. Nearing the edge, she moaned louder. She arched her back to let him deeper inside her as she tightened her grip on him. The pace increased until B'Elanna screamed his name. Her cry echoed through the holodeck and Tom was glad no one could hear it. Tom kept thrusting until he followed her over the edge. He cried out her name as he released into her.

  The two lay on the ground for several minutes as they caught their breath. B'Elanna was the first to open her eyes. She looked at her husband's composed, self-satisfied face and smiled. It had been a long time since she had seen that particular look. She ran a hand through his hair as she realized the gift he had given her. This time, she didn't need to ask him. This time, she wasn't trying to get him to remember her. This time, they were a couple reclaiming the love they shared. She felt a tear slide down her cheek. This would be a special moment in their relationship. One that she was sure they wouldn't forget.

  Later, the two were dressed again and they were sitting in the clearing quietly talking. They were in each other's arms as Tom told B'Elanna what he remembered. She was amazed that it was the smell of her perfume alone that caused him to finally remember how much he loved her. She silently vowed that she would always wear that fragrance.

  "Also, when we were at Harry and Alera's wedding, I remembered something," Tom whispered, unsure if he should go on.

  B'Elanna sat up and looked at him. His blue eyes were clouded as if he were remembering something. She touched his arm, telling him to go on. He looked at her and she smiled. It seemed to be enough, for he continued.

  "I had this overwhelming sense of being lost and alone," Tom said softly, "I felt as if everything that was dear to me was taken away. I remember an engagement party. You where there with Harry."

  B'Elanna closed her eyes. She would always remember that time. They almost lost Tom twice and they never really knew why. Not until she was carrying their children did he finally tell her that he had loved her for a long time. Opening her eyes she found him looking at her strangely.

  "It was a very bad time for you, Tom," B'Elanna said, "You were depressed most of the time."

  "You and Harry were about to be married, weren't you?" Tom asked, his eyes filling with unshed tears.

  B'Elanna nodded, "You withdrew from everyone. You barely ate unless ordered to. You lost weight...."

  "And I tried to kill myself," Tom finished, looking away from her, "I'm so
rry. I thought I had lost you. The only woman I truly loved."

  B'Elanna hugged him close to her, "We finally got together, though. And we were married. We have wonderful twin boys that just adore you."

  Tom smiled as he touched her face. He remembered how they got together. If she hadn't been so concerned for him, they wouldn't have had two weeks alone together as she watched over him, worried that he might try to commit suicide again. During that time, the two had shared two passionate nights together. He frowned though as another memory entered his mind. The reason he couldn't remember any of this in the first place.

  "Two aliens took me away from you," the pilot whispered, "They sold me to a woman on another planet. I thought I would never see you again. I remember being beaten when I wouldn't follow their or her instructions. I remember them injecting me with some kind of drug." Tom reached up and rubbed the nape of his neck, the scars were almost all faded away thanks to the Doctor's ministrations.

  "That drug erased your memories of us, Tom," B'Elanna whispered, touching his chin. "You acted strangely around us when you first came back on board. You wouldn't look at me unless I told you to. You slept on the floor unless invited into my bed."

  Tom blushed at that. He looked at her and for the first time, cursed the aliens that had taken him away from all that he knew. He wished there was a way to make it up to B'Elanna and his sons.

  B'Elanna finally had an idea of how to get him to remember everything. She stood up and offered her hand to him. He took it and she lifted him to his feet.

  "Tom," she began, "How would you like to see another program you made. One almost like this, but created for me."

  Tom's eyes widened, "I created a program for you!?"

  B'Elanna smiled, "What do you say?"

  Tom nodded, his curiosity piqued.

  B'Elanna addressed the computer, "Computer, run program Paris Alpha 7."

  The program changed to another forest, but off to one side was a rushing waterfall that fell into a calm river. B'Elanna watched Tom's reaction. She smiled as his eyes widened and he walked around, taking in the details. He turned back to her after awhile and smiled.

  "It's beautiful," he said in awe, "I made this?"

  B'Elanna nodded. Tom looked at his surroundings again and he began to remember.

  "This program. I remember, I've seen it before," Tom said, as he wracked his brain.

  The engineer went over to him and took his hand, "Don't force it, Tom. It only gives you headaches. Let's just sit down and allow them to come to you. We have plenty of time--we have a lifetime." Tom smiled down at his wife and nodded.

  The two sat down by the river. They listened to the sound of the water as it flowed passed them. Tom closed his eyes and the memories, like the waves of the river, washed over him. He relaxed and concentrated on the sounds. Soon, something came to him--then something else. Suddenly, the floodgate was opened and the memories returned.

  "B'Elanna!" Tom shouted as he opened his eyes and stared at her, "We had our wedding here."

  B'Elanna smiled and nodded. She watched as he stood up and wondered around the area.

  "I showed this program to you," the pilot continued, looking at her. "We had our first kiss here." He stopped at the exact spot they had kissed. He then looked at her darkly and the smile that had been on his face faded. "You said that what we did wasn't honorable."

  She stood up then and went over to him. She touched his cheek tenderly and spoke gently to him, "I was confused at the time, Tom. I was fighting emotions that were strange to me. What I meant was that I was not honorable. I was going to be married to another and here I was kissing you. I realized later, that I was meant to be with you. Now I am."

  Tom stared at her, his eyes dark with emotion. He slowly embraced her and kissed her hair. "Yes, you are."

  He stroked her silky hair and buried his face in its softness and savored the smell. "You watched over me for awhile. I was very sick and you stayed with me, he whispered near her ear. Then suddenly you wanted to have sex with me."

  B'Elanna smiled. She remembered that vividly and she also remembered what happened next. She left him again, because she was afraid -- afraid that she went too far, that she had made a mistake.

  "You came back," Tom told her as if reading her mind, "You told me about your Klingon urges. You told me you caught my scent and that it was nothing like what you had with Harry. We made love again that night."

  B'Elanna smiled. He was remembering everything. Her own eyes were filling up with tears as she listened to him tell of how they relieved her itching during her pregnancy.

  "I remember the night you told me you were having twins," Tom said, smiling, "I fell off the bed. You literally floored me. I was so happy, so proud."

  The two laughed as the memory came to both their minds. They then remembered what happened afterwards. A night of gentle passion that neither had experienced before. After a moment of shared silence, Tom continued, "I was worried when you stopped itching and didn't tell me. I was glad that you explained it to me. We finally admitted to each other that we loved each other."

  B'Elanna smiled softly, "You finally told me that you had loved me for a long time, you were just afraid to tell me. Afraid that I wouldn't take you seriously. I did then and I do now. We were so silly to keep our feelings hidden for so long."

  Tom smiled back and they kissed. The pilot broke away with another memory he couldn't wait to tell.

  "The birth of our twins was something that I'd always remember. Until I was taken away from you. I remember you screamed at both me and the Doc. I even learned a few more choice Klingon words that day."

  B'Elanna laughed at that. She would never forget that day. The Doc made sure of that. He told her practically every time she came in. The humorous mood was broken with Tom's next words.

  "The Hirogen," the pilot whispered, "kidnapped both of us and forced us to be their prey. I thought we would never get out of there alive. But we did. We had to..."

  "For the boys," they said simultaneously and laughed lightly at their shared words.

  Tom pulled his wife into his embrace to comfort her remembering what a terrible ordeal it had been for her. B'Elanna also wrapped her arms around him tightly as she relived those events in her mind. It was hellish for her as well as for him. There were times when she feared that he wouldn't make it. Their ordeal in the desert would always haunt her.

  "It surprised me that the Hirogen doctor helped us get out of there," Tom continued, "I think he wanted us to be with our children even if he could not be with his."

  B'Elanna smiled. She believed that as well.

  The two continued to talk as memories began to rebuild themselves in Tom's mind. The pilot even apologized for flirting with the blonde lieutenant in Sandrine's. He explained that he was feeling out of place and was overwhelmed that he was married and had children. He didn't remember anything except of that first year on Voyager. B'Elanna told him she understood and warned him jokingly not to do it again. Tom only smiled and kissed her soundly.

  Later, the two walked hand-in-hand down to the river's edge to a place that Tom remembered he had programed, but hadn't shown her, yet. They walked to the edge of a short cliff that dropped off into a deep lagoon. B'Elanna gasped when she saw the moon reflecting its light onto the water.

  "It's beautiful, Tom," she breathed, barely able to take her eyes off the water.

  Tom smiled, "I put this in after I created the forest. I forgot to show it to you. I knew you'd love it."

  "I do," she whispered. She then looked at him as he began to undress. "What are you doing?"

  Tom smiled at her, "You'll see. Take your clothes off."

  B'Elanna glared at him, but at his puppy dog expression, she began to undress. Finally, their clothes were off and they stared at each other as the moon glistened off their bare skin. B'Elanna again asked him her question. In answer, Tom took her hand and stepped closer to the edge.

  "Oh, no," she said, pulling him bac
k, "I'm not jumping and neither are you."

  "Come on, B"Elanna," Tom whined, "The safeties are on and the pool is deep. You won't get hurt."

  B'Elanna stared at him, his blue eyes begging her. Finally, she sighed and nodded. The two stepped up to the edge and after taking several deep breaths, they jumped off the cliff. They hit the water with a loud splash. The two came up breathing heavily from the rush they felt.

  "You're crazy, you know that!" B'Elanna shouted at him, splashing him with water.

  Tom laughed as he returned her attack. The two ended up in a water fight with Tom inching his way closer to her. Suddenly, he grabbed her and embraced her with a deep and passion filled kiss. She returned the kiss as she ran her wet hands into his soaked hair.

  "Thank you, B'Elanna," Tom whispered into her ear, "for bringing me here. Even amnesia couldn't stop me from loving you."

  B'Elanna felt the tears fall as she embraced him. Those words meant a lot to her and she would never forget them. She had her husband back.

  End.

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