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  "Yes?"

  "Are you sure about Tafas?"

  "Nearly." Vorkosigan gentled his voice. "They'll be tried. That's the purpose of a trial, to separate the guilty from the innocent."

  "Yes, sir." Koudelka accepted this limited guarantee for the welfare of a man Cordelia guessed must be his friend with a little bow of his head.

  "Do you begin to see why I said the statistics about civil war conceal the most reality?" said Vorkosigan.

  "Yes, sir." Koudelka met his eye squarely, and Vorkosigan nodded, sure of his man.

  "All right. You two come with me."

  They started off, Vorkosigan taking her arm again and scarcely limping, neatly concealing how much weight he was putting on her. They followed another path through the woodlands, up and down uneven ground, coming out within sight of the camouflaged door to the cache caverns.

  The waterfall that spun down beside it ended in a little pool, spilling over into a pretty stream which ran off into the woods. A strange group was assembled beside it. Cordelia could not at first make out what they were doing. Two Barrayarans stood watching while two more knelt by the water. As they approached the two kneelers stood, hauling a dripping, tan-clad figure, hands tied behind his back, from a prone position to his feet. He coughed, struggling for breath in sobbing gasps.

  "It's Dubauer!" cried Cordelia. "What are they doing to him?"

  Vorkosigan, who seemed to know instantly just what they were doing to him, muttered, "Oh, hell," and started forward at a jerky jog. "That's my prisoner!" he roared out as they neared the group. "Hands off him!"

  The Barrayarans braced so fast it looked like a spinal reflex. Dubauer, released, fell to his knees, still drawing breath in long sobs. Cordelia, running past them to Dubauer, thought she had never seen a more astonished-looking array of men. Dubauer's hair, swollen face, scanty new beard, and collar were soaking wet, his eyes were red, and he continued to cough and sneeze. Horrified, she finally realized the Barrayarans had been holding his head underwater by way of torture.

  "What is this, Lieutenant Buffa?" Vorkosigan pinned the senior of the group with a thunderous frown.

  "I thought the Betans killed you, sir!" said Buffa.

  "They didn't," Vorkosigan said shortly. "What are you doing with this Betan?"

  "Tafas captured him in the woods, sir. We've been trying to question him—find out if there's any more around”—he glanced at Cordelia—"but he refuses to talk. Hasn't said a word. And I always thought Betans were soft."

  Vorkosigan rubbed his hand over his face for a moment, as if praying for strength.

  "Buffa," he said patiently, "this man was hit by disruptor fire five days ago. He can't talk, and if he could he wouldn't know anything anyway."

  "Barbarians!" cried Cordelia, kneeling on the ground. Dubauer had recognized her, and was clutching her. "You Barrayarans are nothing but barbarians, scoundrels, and assassins!"

  "And fools. Don't leave out fools." Vorkosigan withered Buffa with a glare. A couple of the men had the good grace to look rather ill, as well as ill at ease. Vorkosigan let out his breath with a sigh. "Is he all right?"

  "Seems to be," she admitted reluctantly. "But he's pretty shaken up." She was shaking herself in her outrage.

  "Commander Naismith, I apologize for my men," said Vorkosigan formally, and loudly, so that no one there could mistake that their captain humbled himself before his prisoner because of them.

  "Don't click your heels at me," muttered Cordelia savagely, for his ear alone. At his bleak look she relented a little, and said more loudly, "It was an error in interpretation." Her eye fell on Lieutenant Buffa, attempting to make his considerable height appear to melt into the ground. "Any blind man could have made it. Oh, hell," she added, for Dubauer's terror and distress were triggering another convulsion. Most of the Barrayarans looked away, variously embarrassed. Vorkosigan, who was getting practiced, knelt to give her what aid she needed. When the seizure subsided he stood.

  "Tafas, give your weapons to Koudelka," he ordered. Tafas hesitated, glancing around, then slowly complied.

  "I didn't want any part of it, sir," he said desperately. "But Lieutenant Radnov said it was too late."

  "You'll get a chance to speak for yourself later on," said Vorkosigan wearily.

  "What's going on?" asked the bewildered Buffa. "Have you seen Commander Gottyan, sir?"

  "I've given Commander Gottyan—separate orders. Buffa, you are now in charge of the landing party." Vorkosigan repeated his orders for the arrest of his short list, and detached a group to carry out the task.

  "Ensign Koudelka, take my prisoners to the cave, and see that they're given proper food, and whatever else Commander Naismith requires. Then see that the shuttle is ready to go. We'll be leaving for the ship as soon as the—other prisoners are secured." He avoided the word 'mutineers', as though it were too strong, like blasphemy.

  "Where are you going?" asked Cordelia.

  "I'm going to have a talk with Commander Gottyan. Alone."

  "Hm. Well, don't make me regret my own advice." Which was as close as she could come at the moment to saying, Be careful.

  Vorkosigan acknowledged all her meanings with a wave of his hand, and turned back for the woods. He was limping more noticeably now.

  * * *

  She helped Dubauer to his feet, and Koudelka led them to the cave's mouth. The young man seemed so much like Dubauer's opposite number, she found it hard to maintain her hostility.

  "What happened to the old man's leg?" Koudelka asked her, glancing back over his shoulder.

  "He's got an infected scratch," she understated, inclined to endorse his evident policy of keeping up a good show for the benefit of his unreliable crew. "It should get some high grade medical attention, as soon as you can get him to slow down for it."

  "That's the old man for you. I've never seen anybody that age with that much energy."

  "That age?" Cordelia raised an eyebrow.

  "Well, of course he wouldn't seem old to you," Koudelka allowed, and looked puzzled when she burst out laughing. "Energy isn't quite what I wanted to say, though."

  "How about power," she suggested, curiously glad that Vorkosigan had at least one admirer. "Energy applied to work."

  "That's very good," he applauded, gratified. Cordelia decided not to mention the little blue pill, either.

  "He seems an interesting person," she said, angling for another view of Vorkosigan. "How did he ever get in this fix?"

  "You mean, Radnov?"

  She nodded.

  "Well, I don't want to criticize the old man, but—I don't know of anyone else who'd tell a Political Officer when he came on board to stay out of his sight if he wanted to live to the end of the voyage." Koudelka was hushed in his awe.

  Cordelia, making the second turning behind him in the halls of the cave, was jerked alert by her surroundings. Most peculiar, she thought. Vorkosigan misled me. The labyrinthine series of caverns was partly natural but mostly carved out by plasma arc: cool, moist, and dimly lit. The huge spaces were stuffed with supplies. This was no cache; it was a full-scale fleet depot. She pursed her lips soundlessly, staring around, suddenly awake to a whole new range of unpleasant possibilities.

  In one corner of the caverns stood a standard Barrayaran field shelter, a semicircular ribbed vault covered with a fabric like the Betans' tents. This one was given over to a field kitchen and mess hall, crude and bleak. A lone yeoman was cleaning up after lunch.

  "The old man just turned up, alive!" Koudelka greeted him.

  "Huh! I thought the Betans had cut his throat," said the yeoman, surprised. "And we did the funeral dinner up so nice."

  "These two are the old man's personal prisoners," Koudelka introduced them to the cook, whom Cordelia suspected was more combat soldier than gourmet chef, "and you know what he's like on that subject. The guy's got disruptor damage. He said they're to have proper food, so don't try to poison them with the usual swill."

  "Everyone's a cri
tic," muttered the yeoman-cook, as Koudelka vanished about his other chores. "What'll you have?"

  "Anything. Anything but oatmeal or blue cheese," she amended hastily.

  The yeoman disappeared into the back room, returning a few minutes later with two steaming bowls of a stew-like substance, and real bread with genuine vegetable oil spread. Cordelia fell on it wolfishly.

  "How is it?" asked the yeoman in a toneless voice, hunching down into his shoulders.

  "S'delishoush," she said around a large mouthful. "S'wonderful."

  "Really?" He straightened up. "You really like it?"

  "Really." She stopped to shove a few spoonfuls into the dazed Dubauer. The taste of the warm food cut across his postseizure sleepiness, and he chewed away with something like her enthusiasm.

  "Here—can I help you feed him?" the yeoman offered.

  Cordelia beamed upon him like the sun. "You certainly may."

  In less than an hour she had learned that the yeoman's name was Nilesa, heard most of his life's history, and been offered the complete, if severely limited, range of dainties a Barrayaran field kitchen had to offer. The yeoman was evidently as starved for praise as his fellows were for home cooking, for he followed her around racking his brain for small personal services to offer her.

  Vorkosigan came in by himself, to sit wearily down beside Cordelia.

  "Welcome back, sir," the yeoman greeted him. "We thought the Betans had killed you."

  "Yes, I know." Vorkosigan waved away this by-now-familiar greeting. "How about some food?"

  "What'll you have, sir?"

  "Anything but oatmeal."

  He, too, was served with bread and stew, which he ate without Cordelia's appetite, for the fever and stimulant combined to kill it.

  "How did things work out with Commander Gottyan?" Cordelia asked him quietly.

  "Not bad. He's back on the job."

  "How did you do it?"

  "Untied him, and gave him my plasma arc. I told him I couldn't work with a man who made my shoulder blades itch, and this was the last chance I was going to give him for instant promotion. Then I sat down with my back to him. Sat there for about ten minutes. We didn't say a word. Then he gave the arc back, and we walked back to camp."

  "I wondered if something like that might work. Although I'm not sure I could have done it, if I were you."

  "I don't think I could have done it either, if I wasn't so damned tired. It felt good to sit down." His tone became slightly more animated. "As soon as they get the arrests made, we'll lift off for the General. It's a fine ship. I'm assigning you the visiting officer's cabin—Admiral's Quarters, they call it, although it's no different from the others." Vorkosigan pushed the last bites of stew around in the bottom of his dish. "How was your food?"

  "Wonderful."

  "That's not what most people say."

  "Yeoman Nilesa has been most kind and thoughtful."

  "Are we talking about the same man?"

  "I think he just needs a little appreciation for his work. You might try it."

  Vorkosigan, elbows on the table, propped his chin on his hands and smiled. "I'll take it under advisement."

  They both sat silent, tired and digesting, at the simple metal table. Vorkosigan leaned back in his chair with his eyes closed. Cordelia leaned on the table with her head pillowed on one arm. In about half an hour Koudelka entered.

  "We've got Sens, sir," he reported. "But we had—are having—a little trouble with Radnov and Darobey. They tumbled on to it, somehow, and escaped into the woods. I have a patrol out searching now."

  Vorkosigan looked as if he wanted to swear. "Should have gone myself," he muttered. "Did they have any weapons?"

  "They both had their disruptors. We got their plasma arcs."

  "All right. I don't want to waste any more time down here. Recall your patrol and seal all the cavern entrances. They can find out how they like spending a few nights in the woods." His eyes glinted at the vision. "We can pick them up later. They've nowhere to go."

  * * *

  Cordelia pushed Dubauer ahead of her into the shuttle, a bare and rather decrepit troop transport, and settled him in a free seat. With the arrival of the last patrol the shuttle seemed crammed with Barrayarans, including the huddled and subdued prisoners, hapless subordinates of the escaped ringleaders, bound in back. They all seemed such large and muscular young men. Indeed, Vorkosigan was the shortest one she'd seen so far.

  They stared at her curiously, and she caught snatches of conversation in two or three languages. It wasn't hard to guess their content, and she smiled a bit grimly. Youth, it appeared, was full of illusions as to how much sexual energy two people might have to spare while hiking forty or so kilometers a day, concussed, stunned, diseased, on poor food and little sleep, alternating caring for a wounded man with avoiding becoming dinner for every carnivore within range—and with a coup to plan for at the end. Old folks, too, of thirty-three and forty plus. She laughed to herself, and closed her eyes, shutting them out.

  Vorkosigan returned from the forward pilot's compartment and slid in beside her. "Are you doing all right?"

  She gave him a nod. "Yes. Rather overwhelmed by all these herds of boys. I think you Barrayarans are the only ones who don't carry mixed crews. Why is that, I wonder?"

  "Partly tradition, partly to maintain an aggressive outlook. They haven't been annoying you?"

  "No, amusing me only. I wonder if they realize how they are used?"

  "Not a bit. They think they are the emperors of creation."

  "Poor lambs."

  "That's not how I'd describe them."

  "I was thinking of animal sacrifice."

  "Ah. That's closer."

  The shuttle's engines began to whine, and they rose into the air. They circled the cratered mountain once, then struck east and upward to the sky. Cordelia watched out the window as the land they had so painfully traversed on foot swept under them in as many minutes as they had taken days. They soared over the great mountain where Rosemont lay rotting, close enough to see the snowcap and glaciers gleaming orange in the setting sun. They passed on east through nightrise, and dead of night, the horizon curved away, and they broke into the perpetual day of space.

  As they approached the General Vorkraft's parking orbit Vorkosigan left her again to go forward and supervise. He seemed to be receding from her, absorbed back into the matrix of men and duty from which he had been torn. Well, surely they would have some quiet times together in the months ahead. Quite a few months, by what Gottyan had said. Pretend you're an anthropologist, she told herself, studying the savage Barrayarans. Think of it as a vacation—you wanted a long vacation after this Survey tour anyway. Well, here it is. Her fingers were picking loose threads from the seat, and she stilled them with a slight frown.

  They made their docking very cleanly, and the mob of hulking soldiers rose, gathered their equipment, and clattered out. Koudelka appeared at her elbow, and informed her he was assigned as her guide. Guard, more likely—or babysitter—she did not feel very dangerous this moment. She gathered Dubauer and followed him aboard Vorkosigan's ship.

  It smelled different from her Survey ship, colder, full of bare unpainted metal and cost-effective shortcuts taken out of comfort and decor, like the difference between a living room and a locker room. Their first destination was sickbay, to drop off Dubauer. It was a clean, austere series of rooms, much larger even proportionally than her Survey ship's, prepared to handle plenty of company. It was nearly deserted now, but for the chief surgeon and a couple of corpsmen whiling away their duty hours doing inventory, and a lone soldier with a broken arm kicking his heels and kibitzing. Dubauer was examined by the doctor, whom Cordelia suspected was more expert at disruptor injuries than her own surgeon, and turned over to the corpsmen to be washed and bedded down.

  "You're going to have another customer shortly," Cordelia told the surgeon, who was one of Vorkosigan's four men over forty. "Your captain has a really filthy infection goi
ng on his shin. It's gone systemic. Also, I don't know what those little blue pills are you fellows have in your medkits, but by what he said the one he took this morning ought to be running out just about now."

  "That damned poison," the doctor bitched. "Sure, it's effective, but they could find something less wearing. Not to mention the trouble we have hanging on to them."

  Cordelia suspected this last was the crux of the matter. The doctor busied himself setting up the antibiotic synthesizer and preparing it for programming. Cordelia watched the expressionless Dubauer put to bed, the start, she saw, of an endless series of hospital days as straight and same as a tunnel to the end of his life. The cold whispering doubt of whether she had done him a service would be forever added to her inventory of night thoughts. She dawdled around him for a while, covertly waiting for the arrival of her other ex-charge.

  Vorkosigan came in at last, accompanied, in fact supported, by a couple of other officers she had not yet met, and giving orders. He had obviously cut his timing too fine, for he looked frighteningly bad. He was white, sweating, and trembling, and Cordelia thought she could see where the lines on his face would be when he was seventy.

  "Haven't you been taken care of yet?" he asked when he saw her. "Where's Koudelka? I thought I told him—oh, there you are. She's to have the Admiral's Cabin. Did I say that? And stop by stores and get her some clothes. And dinner. And a new charge for her stunner."

  "I'm fine. Hadn't you better lie down yourself?" said Cordelia anxiously.

  Vorkosigan, still on his feet, was wandering around in circles like a wind-up toy with a damaged mainspring. "Got to let Bothari out," he muttered. "He'll be hallucinating by now."

  "You just did that, sir," reminded one of the officers. The surgeon caught his eye, and jerked his head meaningfully toward the examining table. Together they intercepted Vorkosigan in his orbit, propelled him semiforcibly to it, and made him lie down.

  "It's those damned pills," the surgeon explained to Cordelia, taking pity on her alarmed look. "He'll be all right in the morning, except for lethargy and a hell of a headache."