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SINNERS & SAINTS
SINNERS & SAINTS
BOOK 1
LANA SKY
MOLLY DOYLE
ALSO BY LANA SKY
DARK MAFIA ROMANCE
Beautiful Monsters
Crescendo
Refrain
Mezzo
Allegro
El Mundo de Sangre
Dinero de Sangre
Blood Money
Blood Ties
Blood Bound
Diamante de Sangre
Blood Diamond
The War of Roses Universe
The War of Roses
XV: (Fifteen)
VII: (Seven)
I: (One)
The Complete War of Roses Trilogy
Of Mice and Men
Ruthless King
Queen of Thorns
Shattered Throne
Mended Crown
DARK BDSM BILLIONAIRE ROMANCE
Club XXX
Maxim: Submit
Maxim: Obey
Maxim: Surrender
Maxim: The Complete Trilogy
Vadim: Control
Vadim: Corrupt
Vadim: Conquer
Vadim: The Complete Trilogy
DARK MC ROMANCE
Sinners & Saints
Sinners & Saints
Rogue Angel
Wild Devil
DARK ROMANTIC SUSPENSE
Painted Sin
A Touch of Dark
A Taste like Sin
The Complete Painted Sin Duet
Dragon Triad Duet
Moth
Flame
The Complete Dragon Triad Duet
DARK AGE-GAP ROMANCE
Standalones
Pretty Perfect
Crossed Lines
DARK PARANORMAL ROMANCE
The Ellie Gray Chronicles
Drain Me
Chain Me
The Complete Ellie Gray Chronicles
The Black Mountain Pack
Shift
Howl
The Black Mountain Pack Duet
The Daemon Blade Series
Atiernan
Daemon’s Blood
Daemon’s Kiss
Logan
Daemon’s Blade
Daemon’s Bane
NEWSLETTER EXCLUSIVE
Rockstar Rebels
Dirty Lyrics (Newsletter Exclusive)
ALSO BY MOLLY DOYLE
Desires Duet
Dominant Desires
Dark Desires
Order of the Unseen
Scream for Us
Melt for Us
Bloodshed
Sinners & Saints
Sinners & Saints
Rogue Angel
Wild Devil
Sinners & Saints
Sinners & Saints By Lana Sky and Molly Doyle
Copyright © 2022 by Lana Sky
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Editing by Charity Chimni
ACKNOWLEDGMENTS
Thanks so much to everyone who supported this draft along the way, including the many beta readers who provided encouragement! Please keep in mind that this story includes dark, graphic, and explicit content matter that may not be suitable for readers under the age of 18—or for readers who are uncomfortable with the following subject matter: drug use, mentions of suicide, cultish behavior, explicit sex, and graphic depictions of violence.
For a full list of content warnings, visit https://realmollydoyle.com/content-warnings/.
CONTENTS
1. Chapter 1
Chapter 2
Chapter 3
Chapter 4
Chapter 5
Chapter 6
Chapter 7
Chapter 8
Chapter 9
Chapter 10
Chapter 11
Chapter 12
Chapter 13
Chapter 14
Chapter 15
Chapter 16
Chapter 17
Chapter 18
Chapter 19
Chapter 20
21. Daze
About Lana Sky
About Molly Doyle
Also by Lana Sky
Also by Molly Doyle
ONE
My brother killed himself because of me. He never said as much out loud, but there’s only so many times you can pick at someone before they shatter. Before love sours into resentment. Before they hate so much, it kills them—and Hale hated me, right up until the end.
I deserved it.
That’s what kills most about his suicide. I nagged him. I shunned him. I turned my back as our father ostracized him. And there’s really only one way to atone for the sins I’ve committed.
I deserve to die, just as he did.
In the days leading up to this moment, I convinced myself it would be easy. I would leave early under the pretense of working the morning shift at the soup kitchen. Instead, I’d take the longer path through the outskirts of the city, where Springer Bridge serves as the entrance to one of the municipal parks. The area is all but deserted this time of day.
There’s no one to watch me climb over this metal rail and let go.
A simple theory on paper but far harder to put into practice. I didn’t account for the guilt or the anxiety weighing on my chest to the point it hurts to breathe. I startle at every sound to break the quiet, and I’m just praying the sun doesn’t fully rise before I gather up the nerve to…
Do it. Jump. Can I even climb over the rail? My legs are shaking, and I keep fiddling with the golden cross around my neck. It was my grandmother’s. Suicide is a sin, she used to say. Jesus died for you, and to sin is to forsake that gift.
At least she isn’t alive to see me now. Jesus wasted his gift on me. My sins can’t be paid for, not after what I’ve done.
Nothing drills that in more than the cell phone persistently buzzing against my palm. Each incoming message is a glaring reminder of the few options I have left.
We’re meant to be, Colton wrote, the first in a series of texts. It’s never too late to be saved, Frances. I forgive you.
Of course, he does. Every member of Covenant wholly believes salvation lurks within the walls of the church. Forgiveness should come as easily as breathing. Unless you’re my mother, or Hale, or anyone else bold enough to step a toe out of line.
Then you’re damned to Hell. Like me too, I guess. At least I won’t be alone.
With a sigh, I tear my gaze from the screen and look down. Instantly, a little more of my bravery peels away. I’m so high up. The hem of my sweater ripples in the wind, disrupting my view of the waters below. Ironically, it’s one of the last things Hale ever bought me. Before the anger. The hate. The lies.
God, the fabric still smells like him. I inhale deeply, chasing traces of him amongst the stench of the bay. My eyes burn, but blinking doesn’t stop the tears. They stream endlessly as my cell phone screen ignites with another message.
Where are you? It’s Father. Colton says you haven’t checked in yet.
More guilt seeps in, going to war with my fragile resolve. Ra
ther than reply, I shove the device into my pocket. Then I push everyone from my brain but him. I try to recall his face or his voice… I’d give anything to see him again.
Anything.
It seems God, however, has chosen a crueler punishment for me than death—endless grief. Despite how hard I cling to this cross, Hale is still gone. After a million prayers, the pain slicing through my heart hasn’t eased. Desperate, I close my eyes and reach out with my other hand...
That was another thing Granny told me—If you trust your faith, you can accomplish anything, Frances.
As my fingers tremble in the frigid air, grasping nothing, I can’t escape the dark thoughts haunting me since the day Hale died. You love him so much, huh? But you barely remember him.
It’s true. Three months, and almost every trace of my older brother, is a blurred smear on my psyche but that night. The one when I found his body slumped against an embroidered chaise, a needle in his arm and a cigarette smoking in a crystal ashtray resting by his side. Even now, I close my eyes and still see him—a pale body so gaunt and lifeless it could have been a stranger’s. Not handsome, cocky Hale with eyes so blue they rivaled the sky.
All that remains of him are the two things he left for me to find, both of which are in my pocket. I open my eyes and withdraw them—the first is a crumpled flyer for Covenant’s Salvation program, Father’s crowning glory. In essence, it’s a charity. Through it, he’s been able to use his ample resources to help many of the city’s poor, and most in the church, myself included, have volunteered there.
Only, in the final weeks of his life, Hale called it a scam. At the time, I thought he was being too cynical. Through Salvation, the homeless were provided with three hot meals daily, and the disenfranchised were assisted with finding employment. Father could be overbearing, but he only wanted to uphold the tenants of our faith. In the end, though, Hale turned his back on that too. I still don’t know why he hated us so much. Our father. Or me.
Beside this flyer, he left an equally-battered empty pack of cigarettes with a doodle etched on the back in ink. My heart pangs as I trace the jagged lines that make up the visage of a skull with angel wings. It’s morbid but stunning in its detail—a sign of how far from the righteous path he’d strayed, yet he didn’t seem ashamed of his fall from grace. Maybe he needed to break away from Father’s control in the end. Unlike me, he had real talent, destined for more than volunteer work.
I think that’s why he left these two things behind. To tell me in the only way he knew how, This is what you drove me to, Frey. This is what I became because of you. A monster. Our father’s strict, perfect world never fit him, and the only outlet he had was through cigarettes, booze, and drugs.
And death.
I choke back the memory—but nothing erases the image of him, his eyes empty and staring.
Not scripture.
Not prayer.
Not guilt.
Nothing.
A roar of thunder echoes in the distance as if to punctuate that hopeless reality. I’ll never find peace, and in stinging lashes, rain comes down, slicking the railing and making it harder to grasp. I lean forward to stay centered, feeling the moisture soak through the front of my navy skirt.
As gray daylight tinges the horizon, I know it won’t be long before traffic picks up, and I risk being spotted. Panic gnaws away at my few remaining shreds of determination. What are you doing, Frey?
What am I doing?
Spiraling. Standing on a bridge, separated from the edge by only a thin rail. And for what? There are other ways to make Father suffer. Other ways to avenge Hale. Other ways to punish myself.
But this is the only option I’m capable of. Inhaling raggedly, I tighten my grip on the rail, prepared to climb over it…
The wind must pick up, tousling my hair amid a burst of heat. Heat that smells like smoke and musk. My spine tingles as if I’m being watched. Wait. I don’t even get the chance to turn around before my fear is confirmed.
“You gonna do it already, or what?”
The voice—deep and masculine—drips into my ear and startles me so badly that I slip. My heart drops through my body, and I swear I see it fall into the waters down below. Luckily, my grip keeps me upright, and I pant, desperate to regain my bearings.
As I do, the terror I’ve fought to keep at bay breaks loose—I can’t do this. My fingers tremble, slick with rainwater, and I loosen my grip. I can’t do this!
“Hey!” Two fingers speckled with grime snap beneath my nose. “Look at me.”
Shivering, I turn to finally take in the imposing stranger at my back.
He’s tall. Too tall. Wild blond hair drapes his shoulders, longer than mine. He’s kept it loosely tied in a ponytail, but the wind already ripped most of it free. Stray strands fall across his face, obscuring a pair of bloodshot gray eyes.
Alarm shoots down my spine as they connect with mine. I’ve never seen someone sport such an expression, teeth bared, brows drawn.
“Did you hear me?” he demands. The deep tone of his voice rivals another roll of thunder.
Years of obedience betray me. I can’t stop myself from croaking out, “W-What?”
I haven’t pleased him. Those gray eyes narrow further. “You gonna jump or what?” He jerks his chin toward the rough waters down below. The motion conveys a universal expression—I’m waiting. “Some of us need to use this space too, princess.”
Use? I stare, too stunned to reply. I shouldn’t be. I spent hours rehearsing what I’d say if someone found me. Never did I imagine them berating me for not being fast enough.
“You think you can hurry the fuck up?” He scoffs, rolling his eyes as my cheeks flame at the vulgarity. “You aren’t the only one who needs some peace with the deep blue, so just hurry up.”
Peace? The way he hissed that word sticks out to me. He has a smoker’s voice. Gritty and grated—a fitting match for his smell—sweat and alcohol. A lot of it. That must be why his eyes are so red.
Like Hale, he’s crammed his veins full of vice and sin.
I should be repulsed by him. I can’t take my eyes off him.
“Hey!” He slashes his hand through the air. “You ain’t the only one with problems, sweetheart.”
Irritation breaks through the fear, and I consider leaving. But being a coward was what drove Hale from me in the first place. I couldn’t defend him to our father, and I can’t even defend my right to follow him. Get a backbone, Frey.
Channeling my anger, I try. “Leave me alone—”
“It’s not that hard, sweetheart.” The stranger grabs my shoulder, and I’m paralyzed. “Either jump… or move.”
“S-Stop!” I try to buck him off, but he grips my forearm instead. I should be screaming. Only God knows why I’m not. It could be his lack of pressure. Or his voice, relentlessly authoritative.
I’ve spent my entire life obeying men who speak with a fraction of the conviction he does.
“Move,” he commands.
The Frey from a few days ago would listen. Not anymore. Grow a backbone, Hale told me. So, I crane my head back and perform the first action that comes to mind.
I spit, right in his face.
Shock travels through his entire body, and my gaze is drawn like a magnet down the length of him, tracking the reaction. His shoulders tense beneath a gray sweatshirt speckled with stains. Dark stains.
Fresh. My nostrils flare, catching the stench of copper…
As he swipes at his mouth, the substance on his hands is easier to make out—a bright, glistening red. Not dirt.
Blood?
Judging from the lack of open wounds on his knuckles, it isn’t his.
TWO
I feel dizzy. The world dangerously begins to tilt, and I tighten my grip over the rail, fighting to stay upright. I’ve never seen blood like that.
Not so much of it.
“Hey.” Aware of where my gaze is, he tucks the hand behind him. Then he advances, grabbing my arm again. Guttural
, his voice overpowers the scream I choke out. “You wanna jump? Why?”
I blink. A threat should have come next, not a deceptively simple question.
“Why?” I counter breathlessly.
“That’s what I said.” He spits on the pavement and makes a “hurry up” motion with his finger. Grime caked under the nail draws my eye. It matches the muck slathered all over his jeans and scuffed-up black boots.
More blood?
Or perhaps just dirt. He’s filthy.
“Come on, and fucking say it,” he goads. “Impress me, sweetheart.”
I bristle at his tone. He’s serious.
“Get the fuck away from me,” I hiss, copying his coarse language. My cheeks sear as if to betray me. I’m not this person, and years of etiquette kick in, making me tack on, “Please—”
“And why should I do that?” He puffs up, impossibly large. A bear of a figure goading me on. It’s like he’s feeding off the anger. Mine especially.
All I can do to counter him is ask, “Why does it even matter to you?”
“I’m curious. What’s your bullshit reason?” he demands. “Boyfriend dump your ass? The kiddies on the playground being mean to you?”
I flinch. If only those stupid problems were all I had to contend with.