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  As Linda neared the street, Sarah was attracted by the unexpected movement and gave a friendly wave. Linda wished she hadn't been noticed, but if she had to deal with anyone tonight, besides the police—which at this point seemed inevitable—it might as well be Sarah. Linda liked Sarah and believed Sarah liked her too. She liked the way she complimented her bangs; she liked the cheesecakes she occasionally brought over; she liked her sisterly advice. Often Linda would call Sarah when Larry acted up. "You should get help," Sarah would say. Linda would agree and then tell her how she was starting to get things under control, how she and Larry were going to work things out with just a little more time, but Linda knew that the time needed to work things out with Larry was most aptly measured in geological terms.

  Linda stopped between two small pear trees to wait for the taxi. She stooped under one and felt the soil—she would need to water it tomorrow. Larry had purchased the trees on the way back from their honeymoon five years ago. The trees were the only fond memory she had of that week.

  Larry had surprised her with a Caribbean cruise, although Linda thought they had decided to go to New York. They spent two days in the Bahamas, but Linda refused to count it as one of the places she had actually visited since she never left the ship.

  "You ever been on a cruise before?" Larry asked as they entered their suite.

  The question surprised Linda. Surely they had discussed cruises in the five months they had known each other. She thought for a moment, but no such conversation came to mind. "No," she said, "this will be my first time. "

  "You're going to love it here," he said.

  But she didn't. Within two hours she was heaving into the toilet.

  "You should give it more of a chance," Larry said.

  "I'll try," she said.

  "It's all in your attitude. "

  "I think I'm feeling a little better," she whispered, trying to prove him right. Then she grabbed the rim of the toilet and vomited again.

  Larry spent the rest of their honeymoon pacing the ship's deck. Occasionally, between doses of Dramamine, Linda would look out the cabin window. She had never seen so much water. Larry refused to join her, refused to eat with her, refused to talk to her. He had decided to boycott any activity that included Linda.

  Linda stood under the pear tree until the taxi arrived. As it pulled over, Sarah dropped her pruning sheers and dashed across the street.

  "Sarah, I would to love talk but I need to go. "

  "I would say so. " Sarah opened the taxi door and slid into the back seat; she waved for Linda to join her. Linda crawled in.

  "Just tell me, dear," said Sarah, "why did you shoot him?"

  "Where to?" asked the driver.

  "The police station," said Linda.

  The taxi sped into the night.

  Linda stared out the window as the simple homes of Merry Valley slipped by. She felt Sarah's strong hands grab her arm and pull her close. "Now don't you worry," said Sarah. "You're not worried, are you?"

  "A little," admitted Linda.

  "There's nothing to it. Really. I had a cousin once who used a red card, and he said it was the easiest thing he ever did. "

  "Who'd he use it on?" asked Linda.

  "I don't remember. It's been years. At least five and it wasn't around here. "

  "He said it was easy?"

  "I think he shot a speeder. He always hated careless drivers. "

  Linda buried her face into the fat flesh of Sarah's right arm. She wanted to cry. The handbook had mentioned this—Shooter's Regret. It will pass, the handbook stated, just trust your decision, trust your instincts.

  "When I was young, I used to drive around with my cousin," said Sarah. "He would yell at people all the time. Yell at them for going too slow, for going too fast, for cutting him off. I wasn't surprised when I heard he had used a red card. "

  "It wasn't easy," said Linda.

  "Think he got an award for it. Used the card the same week he got it. A lot of people like to see the cards circulate. Lets more people take part in the system. "

  "How'd you know I used a red card?"

  "Why, dear, I heard it on the radio. They broke into ‘Phil's Follies. ' there's nothing as exciting as one of the cards being used. "

  "I guess," said Linda. She didn't mind excitement; she just didn't want the excitement to revolve around her.

  By the time Linda and Sarah arrived at the police station, a small crowd had already gathered. Sarah wrapped an arm around Linda and pulled her close. "OK, dear, you ready for this?"

  Linda nodded.

  "You stay by me," she snapped with authority. Linda pulled in close for protection.

  Linda recognized several faces in the crowd—Jerry Miles, Freddy Nevers, and Ann Davidson. She knew them well enough to carry on casual conversation at the Happy Druggist—Jerry's store—or Mel's Fill 'em Up where Freddy and Ann worked. There were also half a dozen people not quite as familiar to her, but she had seen them all around town at one time or another.

  Freddy Nevers called her name, and Jerry Miles even shouted a little encouragement: "Way to go!"

  Deputy Williams met Linda and Sarah at the entrance to the police station and escorted them to the reception counter. At one point, Jerry, excited at having his monotonous evening livened up a little, dashed toward Linda to congratulate her, but Deputy Williams reached out and shoved him back. Linda gave the deputy an appreciative glance. "Where were you when I needed you?" she thought.

  Barry Giles, lead reporter for Channel Seven, moved as close to Linda as he could, microphone in hand, ready to broadcast the details to all of Merry Valley. "How did it happen, Mrs. Jackson?" he called out.

  Linda started to answer, but the deputy interrupted in a low forceful voice he saved for his most serious duties. "there'll be time for that later. "

  Officer Hamilton was waiting for Linda behind a mahogany reception desk. Linda pulled a revolver out of her purse and laid it gently in front of him. After Officer Hamilton confirmed the revolver to be official government property, the crowd, giving Linda some space out of politeness while inching forward out of curiosity, waited for the inevitable. Linda reached into her purse and pulled out the red card. The card didn't seem special. It was small, only half the size of a postcard, with rounded corners and a smooth edge. The one mark on it was an ordinary bar code.

  "Son of a gun," said Barry.

  "Killed by a librarian with a red card," said Jerry. "that's got to be embarrassing. "

  "I knew she had it," said a voice Linda didn't recognize.

  "Like hell you did," came a muffled response.

  Officer Hamilton slid the card under an electronic reader and, with a nod, confirmed its authenticity.

  "How long you been holding it?" asked someone from the crowd.

  Officer Hamilton checked the reading. "Four years," he said, impressed at Linda's self-restraint. the crowd nodded its approval.

  "My goodness," said Barry. "Most of the other tickets have been circulating a lot faster than that. "

  "Sure have," said Officer Hamilton.

  "How long have they been out?" Barry asked.

  "A couple have been out for almost a year and one for about nine months. I'm not sure about the other two. I'd have to look it up. "

  "Looks like another one's going back into circulation," someone said. The crowd hummed with excitement.

  Officer Hamilton led Linda away from the crowd. Linda glanced back at Sarah who signaled that she would be in the waiting room, an unimpressive area set off by grey partitions. It contained little more than four chairs, a television dangling from the ceiling, and two ash trays. "thanks," mouthed Linda.

  They ended up in a small, secluded room in the back of the station. Linda took her place in a wooden chair behind an aging table. On a corner shelf stood a drip coffeepot containing the last few drops after a long day.

  Officer Hamilton held up a Styrofoam cup. "Coffee? Looks like there's enough for one more cup. "

 
; "No thanks," said Linda. She could have actually used a cup of coffee, but not from that pot.

  Officer Hamilton sat in the chair across from Linda. "Well," he said, "the enforcement isn't over. . . "

  "Until the paperwork's done," finished Linda, quoting the handbook. "this is the hard part, isn't it?"

  "There's no hard part," he said. "It's all easy. " He smiled, placed an official looking form on the table and put on a pair of bifocals. He read the form quickly to himself, vocalizing a few key phrases, orienting himself on how to proceed.

  "Are you ready?" he finally asked. Linda nodded.

  "What is your name?"

  Linda gave him a "you've got to be kidding me" look.

  "These are standard questions, Linda. Just humor me. "

  "Linda Jackson. "

  "Gender?"

  Linda didn't even answer. "Female," said Officer Hamilton in response to his own question. "Marital Status?"

  "Widowed," said Linda.

  "Oh yes," he said. "that's kind of why we're here, isn't it. "

  "It is. "

  "Where did you execute the enforcement?"

  "In my living room. "

  "Why did you execute the enforcement?"

  "Is that important?" asked Linda.

  "We track these things for statistical purposes. "

  "I think the real question should be why didn't I do it sooner. "

  "Why didn't you? You've had the red card for almost four years. "

  "I don't know. At first I didn't want to use it because then I wouldn't have one. But later it just became a challenge. "

  "A challenge?"

  "Sometimes he would egg me on, dare me to use it. "

  "He knew you had a red card?"

  Linda wasn't sure how to answer this. She knew she wasn't supposed to tell Larry about the red card.

  "Just answer honestly," said Officer Hamilton. "You have nothing to worry about. You performed an enforcement while in possession of a valid red card. That's it. It's that simple. These questions are just to help us improve the program. "

  "He knew," said Linda. "He's known for years. It was a mistake to tell him because then he would test me. It was like Russian roulette. "

  Officer Hamilton made a quick note.

  "Is that alright? Am I in trouble?"

  "Well some people view it as having an unfair advantage over other citizens. But in this case it doesn't seem to have made a difference. "

  "But it should have made a difference. " Linda looked at Officer Hamilton and wondered if she was getting through to him. She wanted to tell him how things were supposed to be different, how they were supposed to get better, slowly, incrementally, but better. Her plans were never to kill Larry but to keep him alive, to keep him alive forever. "It should have made a big difference," she said. "He knew I had a card. "

  "Had he been drinking?"

  "He'd been out messing around. He always seemed to be going someplace. "

  "Why did you shoot him?" asked Officer Hamilton, trying the question one more time.

  "I really don't know," said Linda. "I think I just snapped. "

  "Linda," he said. His eyes narrowed. "People with red cards are allowed to snap. It's their duty to snap. "

  Officer Hamilton pressed on with questions for almost half an hour. How did you feel? Where did you keep your card? Did the handbook prepare you for your role as an enforcer? Linda answered as best she could, but she was ready for it all to end.

  Finally, Officer Hamilton put down his pencil. "that's it," he said.

  "Really?"

  "That wasn't so bad was it?"

  "Not too bad. Anything else?"

  "Just a word of advice," said Officer Hamilton. "If you ever get another red card, don't tell anyone. I don't even know who has them. The program is random and anonymous. That's what makes it work. If you start taking those factors out, the program loses its effectiveness. "

  "Of course," she said, a little embarrassed at having made such a careless mistake.

  Officer Hamilton released Linda and led her to the hallway out. "Do you need a ride?" he asked.

  "I'll go back with Sarah," she said. "I could use a restroom though. "

  In the restroom, Linda checked herself in the mirror. Her lipstick had faded from the right side of her upper lip, and black mascara crept up towards her eyebrow. Her blush had cracked except for the glow on her nose. The night had been hard on her face; she looked old and tired. She freshened her lipstick, brushed her hair, and killed the shine on her nose. It seemed futile. She would need to check Truly Beautiful for a look that could hold up better.

  Linda left the restroom and walked down the long hall to join Sarah in the waiting area. She paused at the end of the hall, dwarfed by the grey partitions that separated the waiting area from the rest of the police station. She could hear voices, several of them, mingling, Sarah's dominant among them.

  Linda looked above the partition and saw a small television, muted and pathetic, hanging from the ceiling. The television's color had shifted long ago, and a bald, blue man in a sweater dispensed advice. She thought she might have seen him before. He seemed vaguely familiar. Was his name Richard? She wasn't sure, but he seemed like a Richard to her. Maybe it wasn't advice; he could be warning her about something, some disaster, some great flood.

  "Well I know what I'll do if I get the card next," she heard Jerry Miles say.

  "Shoot yourself?" asked Freddy Nevers.

  "Never mind, I just changed my plan," cackled Jerry.

  "Well, if either of you get a card, let me know," said Sarah. "You tend to live a lot longer if you know who has the cards. "

  Richard now held a green spray bottle. He was selling something. Of course. Why advise or warn when you can sell. Linda decided to wait until the conversation settled down a little more before joining Sarah. Conversations tended to die once Linda entered into them.

  "I never know who has the cards," said Jerry.

  "I try to make it my business," said Sarah. "I try to make everything my business. " She spit out the words as if they were rehearsed.

  Richard, energetic and passionate now, waved the bottle about in his left hand. He held up a shirt and sprayed it. Linda moved closer to the television, but she couldn't tell if the spray had any effect. Richard sprayed the bottle on the floor and then on himself. He was obviously proud of its versatility. He looked straight at Linda and urged her to buy his product. She needed it. She needed to have what he was selling.

  "What about Linda?" asked Jerry.

  "I've known Linda for years," said Sarah. "Her husband too. "

  "I knew her," said Freddy.

  "But not like I knew her, dear. "

  Linda hated to interrupt; Sarah seemed to be enjoying herself. She wondered what it would be like to enjoy yourself. Linda continued to watch the commercial, one of those long ones, one of those that could go on for five minutes. Richard had toned down the sell and appeared to be whispering, enunciating every word. He had two bottles now, one cradled under each arm, and he was talking to Linda, directly to Linda, only to Linda.

  "Well, she shops at my store," said Jerry. "Buys a lot of makeup. Careful shopper. Always did like her. "

  "Sweetheart, you have to like someone who has a red card," said Sarah. "Kind of dangerous not to. "

  "How would I have known she had a red card?" asked Jerry.

  "I knew," said Sarah.

  "You knew she had a red card?"

  "Of course she had the card. "

  "I suspected, but I was never sure," said a voice Linda didn't recognize. He seemed to be acting more important than he actually was.

  "I've known it for years. I'm surprised you all didn't know. " Sarah paused for effect. "Oh, I forgot, you all weren't sleeping with her husband?" the crowd laughed. "Well, I guess I won't have to like her anymore," said Sarah.

  Richard made his final plea. Under him flashed a phone number, barely legible, followed by the words,"Miracle Madness, for when
clean isn't clean enough. " Linda listened for the conversation to continue, but it had stalled. Even Sarah was silent.

  Linda pulled back into the hall, found a phone near the ladies' restroom, and called the toll free number.

  "I want to place an order," said Linda.

  "Which product?"

  "Miracle Madness. "

  "Oh, you are going to love it. And with that you get Miracle Madness Plus. "

  After Linda had provided her billing information, she joined Sarah and the others in the waiting room. "Sarah," she said as she rounded the partition, "I'm all done now. "

  "Wonderful," said Sarah. "You've had a hard day and it's time to get you home. "

  When the taxi dropped them off at Linda's place well after midnight, Sarah was in full motion, feeding off the energy of the evening. Linda had been quiet during the drive home, but she didn't need to speak since Sarah had rambled on without stopping. Sarah had pretty well resolved most of Linda's problems. She had told her how to improve her career—after all you can't stay a librarian your entire life. She had told her how to improve her looks—Those bangs just have to go; they do absolutely nothing for you. She had told her how to improve her general disposition—you have got to stop moping about.

  Finally Linda asked, "What do I do now?"

  "What do you mean?"

  "The handbook never talked about this part. I don't know what to do next. "

  "Well," said Sarah, "tomorrow we need to plan Mr. Jackson's funeral. I guess that would be next. "

  "Of course," said Linda.

  "Then we bury him, and then you get on with your life. "

  "We need to plan a funeral," said Linda.

  "Now don't be afraid to call if you need anything," said Sarah as they entered the house. "Really. Anything at all. "

  "Anything?"

  "Absolutely. Whatever you need. "

  "Can I stay with you?" asked Linda.

  "Stay with me?"

  Linda nodded.

  "At my house?"

  "For a while. At least a day or two. Longer if I could. "

  "You really need to get back on your feet," said Sarah. "This is your home and it doesn't do any good to run from it. This is your place. "