Apollyon (Covenant #4) Read online

  “Yeah,” I said slowly, growing uncomfortable already.

  “How did that make you feel?”

  My hands tightened on the bars. “What are you? A psychologist now?”

  “Just answer the question.”

  Closing my eyes, I leaned against the bars. I could lie, but there really wasn’t a point. “I hated it. I tried to kill Lucian with a steak knife.” Obviously that hadn’t gone as planned. “But I didn’t understand then. I do now. I have nothing to be afraid of.”

  Silence, and then Aiden was right in front of me, his forehead touching mine through the bars. His larger hands were above mine and when he spoke, his breath was warm. I didn’t pull back, and I didn’t understand why. Being this close to him wasn’t right on so many levels.

  “Nothing has changed,” he said quietly.

  “I have.”

  Aiden sighed. “You haven’t.”

  I opened my eyes. “Will you ever get bored with this? You have to, eventually.”

  “Never,” he said.

  “Because you won’t give up on me, no matter what I tell you?”

  “Exactly.”

  “You’re incredibly stubborn.”

  Aiden’s lips tipped up in a half-smile. “I used to say the same thing about you.”

  My brows knitted. “And you can’t now?”

  “Sometimes I don’t even know what to say.” He reached through the bars and the very tips of his fingers grazed my cheekbone. Amoment later, he placed his entire palm against my cheek. I flinched, but he didn’t remove his hand. “And there are moments where I doubt everything I do.”

  He tilted my head back so my eyes met his. “But I don’t doubt for one second that what I’m doing right now is the right thing.”

  Many retorts rose to the surface, but they faded away as the little voice inside me piped up. I’d give it all up for you…

  A knot formed in the back of my throat. Suddenly, this cell was too small. The basement was constricting and the little distance between Aiden and me suffocating. Heart turning over heavily, I searched for the cord—

  “Don’t,” Aiden whispered. “I know what you’re about to do. Don’t.”

  I jerked back, breaking the contact between us. “How do you know what I’m doing?”

  His hand was outstretched, as if he could still feel my cheek. “I just do.”

  Anger rose, fueled by frustration and a good mix of what-the-hell. “Well, aren’t you special?”

  Shaking his head, Aiden lowered his hand. He watched me stomp over to the mattress and plop down. I glared back at him, willing almost every ill thing on him I could think of. And there were things I knew I could say that would hurt him, that would strip away his control and break him down into little pieces. Things that my Seth had whispered and things I’d told him I wanted to do. I could lash out—oh yeah, I could destroy Aiden. But when I opened my mouth, all those hurtful, destructive things got stuck around the lump in my throat.

  Sitting here, I didn’t feel right in my skin, as if I really wasn’t a part of it. And the only time I felt comfortable was when I was connected to my Seth. Without him, I wanted to shed that skin, or rip at it until I bled.

  I wanted to hit something. Hard.

  Drawing in a shallow breath, I focused on the mark on the ceiling. There were two moons drawn, interlocking. Since so many gods were tied to the moon, I didn’t know what it represented or how it had the power to strip me of mine.

  “What is that?” I asked, pointing at the ceiling.

  Part of me didn’t expect Aiden to answer, but he did. “It’s Phoebe’s symbol.”

  “Phoebe? Obviously you don’t mean a Charmed one.”

  He snorted.

  Whoa, they’d brought out the big guns. I felt all kinds of special as I squinted at the markings. They held an odd bluish-red tint to them. “So, a Titan…”

  “Yes.”

  “And that’s a Titan’s blood, isn’t it?” I tilted my head toward Aiden. “Care to explain how it’s possible that a Titan’s blood is on this ceiling? Do the Olympians just keep jars of it around?”

  Aiden let out a dry laugh. “When the Olympians overthrew the Titans, most were imprisoned in Tartarus. Phoebe wasn’t one of them. And she has a fondness for her children.”

  Racking my brain for who she’d popped out, I came up empty. “Who?”

  “Leto,” he answered. “Who in turn gave birth to Apollo and Artemis.”

  I groaned. “Of course. Why not? So Apollo asked his grandma for some blood? Great. But I don’t get how it works.” I gestured around me. “How is it negating my powers?”

  “Titan blood is very powerful. You know that blades dipped in Titan blood can kill an Apollyon.” When I sent him a duh look, his smile was tight. “Mix that with blood of your own lineage, well, it has the ability to keep you from hurting yourself.”

  “Or from hurting you,” I snapped.

  Aiden shrugged.

  Anger pumped through my blood like poison; with no way to expel it, I was seriously seconds away from going stir crazy. I stretched my legs, then my arms. In my head, I pictured myself running up and kicking Aiden in the shin.

  There was a sigh from the other side of the bars.

  Sometimes I wondered if he had the ability to read minds.

  “I hate this,” Aiden admitted so quietly I wasn’t sure I’d heard him. He twisted around, giving me his back. “I hate that Seth has done nothing but play you—lie to you—and you trust him. I hate that this connection is more important than everything else going on out there.”

  I was about to argue, but my Seth had lied to me. He’d probably been playing me right from the moment he’d discovered I was the second Apollyon. No doubt Lucian had.

  Unease slithered up my spine, leaving cold shivers in its wake.

  “It… it doesn’t matter now,” I said.

  Aiden whirled toward me. “What doesn’t?”

  I met his stare. “That Seth lied to me. It doesn’t matter. Because what he wants, I want. If I—”

  “Shut up,” Aiden growled.

  Surprised, I blinked. I couldn’t recall a moment when Aiden had told me to shut up. Wow. I so didn’t like that for a multitude of reasons.

  Aiden’s eyes glowed a fierce silver. “You do not want what Seth wants because there is no you in any of that. There is only him.”

  Shock rippled through me, stealing any response I could come up with. There was no me. There was only us. That freaking little voice deep inside me roared in fury, then threw itself around.

  There was no me.

  CHAPTER 3

  When my Seth decided to show up on the other side of the rainbow, I was grumpy and he was…well, he was wound up. There were, uh, things he said through the connection that just weren’t right.

  Distracting? Yes.

  Acceptable in the mood I was in? No.

  I want out of here, I told him, mentally shaking him off. I can’t take it any longer. Aiden… he…

  Seth’s disapproval was like razor blades knocking around in my skull. Aiden what?

  What could I tell my Seth? That Aiden was making me think? Aiden talks a lot.

  His laugh tickled the back of my neck. That he does. Angel, it won’t be much longer. Lucian has done us a great favor.

  With who? White Robe of the Month Club?

  Another pleasant laugh curled through me. Let’s just say he’s given me an endless supply of bait and leverage.

  I gave him a mental eye roll. Yeah, I don’t get it.

  There was a pause, and I could feel what Seth was wanting through the bond. He was in a playful mood, but this conversation was too important for screwing around. Finally, he answered. The pures that have stood against us have proven to be useful.

  How so?

  Do you remember how Telly refused to accept that the daimons could play nice and work together to form a cohesive attack against the Covenants?

  Yeah…and Marcus didn’t believe it was just
them working against us.

  And neither had I. At the emergency Council meeting Lucian had called before my Seth had leveled the Council members, I’d suspected that Lucian had been behind the daimon attacks somehow, but there hadn’t been any real proof. Besides, my hatred for Lucian probably had led to that idea.

  Well, Telly was obviously half-right. Without the right motivation—say, an endless supply of aether—they are likely to settle for whatever pure they can get their hands on.

  There was another gap, and the intensity of what he was feeling, what he wanted, roared through the connection. For a moment, I really believed I could feel him, and the emotion swamped me, draining my thoughts and filling me with the bliss of the connection.

  Alex. His voice was chiding, self-satisfied. Are you paying attention?

  Yes. Daimon… aether… stuff…

  Good. Let me ask you a question, Angel. Do you really think daimons orchestrated those attacks all by their little selves?

  Some of the lovely fog my Seth was creating faded as if icy wind had blown down the nape of my neck. What? What do you mean?

  Even reasonable daimons couldn’t pull off what they did in the Catskills. They had to have help, don’t you think?

  I couldn’t think as my pulse kicked up. So I’d been right? A sour taste filled the back of my throat.

  Don’t be upset, Angel. Lucian needed discord for all of this to happen.

  Thinking back to the attack in the Catskills, I tried to remember where Lucian had been in the chaos. I’d assumed that he’d been in the ballroom with the rest of the pures, but I hadn’t seen him. All I knew was that my Seth had contacted him…

  All those dead half-blood servants, the Guards, and Sentinels… all innocent…

  I jerked up, almost losing the connection with my Seth.

  Angel, how do you think the daimons got into Catskills in the first place? You saw the security there. And the ballroom? There were only two entrances, and both were guarded. One of the doors belonged to Lucian’s guard.

  Suspecting that Lucian had been behind these attacks was one thing—I didn’t put anything past that man—but my Seth? He couldn’t be okay with that. Believing he was a part of all those innocent people dying was accepting something horrific. What my Seth wanted, I wanted, but the daimons… they were and always would be the enemy.

  Foes can be allies in war, Angel.

  Oh, my gods. A huge, freaking, crater-sized part of me couldn’t process what my Seth was saying. I fought the pull of his emotions, resurfacing as if I were drowning, then gulping in air.

  There were so many innocent people, I reasoned. Appalling images of the slaughter came one after another—the servants in the hall with their throats ripped opened, the Sentinels and Guards who’d been eviscerated and then thrown through windows.

  They don’t matter, Angel. Only we matter, only what we want matters.

  But those people did matter. We could’ve been killed, Seth. My father could’ve been killed.

  But he wasn’t, and I would never let anything happen to you. Nothing did.

  We’d been separated during the attack. And if I’d remembered correctly, I’d come very close to being trampled to death. Not to mention I’d had to fight the furies alone. Not sure how he’d exactly prevented my death in all of that.

  Angel, we need this to happen. The daimons will help me get to you. Don’t you want that? For us to be together?

  Yes, but—

  Then trust me. We want the same things, Angel.

  Aiden’s words came back to me and I squirmed in my own skin. Seth? You… you aren’t making me want anything, right? You’re not influencing me?

  He didn’t respond immediately, which caused my heart to trip over itself. I could, Angel, if I wanted to. You know that, but I’m not. We just want the same things.

  I bit my lip. We did want the same things, except the thing with the daimons… I stopped those thoughts. As if two strong arms were pushing down on my shoulders, I was on my back. And then I was drowning in what Seth was feeling again.

  Aiden returned with food, and he brought company with him this time—my uncle Marcus. The man was actually being sort of decent toward me now. Ironic. I ate and drank my water like a good captive.

  And I didn’t even yell anything insulting.

  I figured I deserved a reward, like time out of the cell or something, but that was asking too much. Instead, Marcus left to go see what the others were up to. As soon as the door closed upstairs, Aiden sat with his back pressed against the bars.

  Brave, brave man… or really stupid—it was a total toss-up. I could easily fashion the bed sheet into a noose and slip it around his neck before he’d have a chance to react.

  But I sat down, my back almost against his. The flare of blue from the chains appeared weaker. Silence stretched out, oddly comforting. Minutes passed and the taut muscles in my back relaxed. Before I knew it, I was leaning against the bars… and Aiden’s back.

  My earlier conversation with my Seth had left a weird taste in my throat and a ball of knots in my stomach. Maybe that’s why I wasn’t indulging in my murderous intentions with the bed sheet and Aiden’s neck? Missed opportunity, I supposed.

  Lowering my chin, I sighed. What my Seth wanted, I wanted, but… daimons? I rubbed my hands on my bent knees and sighed again—louder, like a petulant child.

  Aiden’s back twisted as he turned his head. “What, Alex?”

  “Nothing,” I mumbled.

  “There’s something.” He leaned back, tipping his head against the bar. “You have that tone.”

  I frowned at the wall. “What tone?”

  “The ‘I have something I want to say but shouldn’t’ tone.” A little bit of humor seeped into his voice. “I’m well familiar with it.”

  Well… damn. My gaze dropped to my hands. The fingers were okay, I guess. But my nails were chipped and short. Hands of a Sentinel—a Sentinel who killed daimons. I pushed up the sleeve of my sweater. Pale-white bite marks covered my right arm. The crescent-shaped marks were a pain to hide and they were on both arms, as well as my neck. They were so ugly, a vile reminder of being trapped by them.

  And no matter how hard I tried, I couldn’t wipe the faces of all those slaughtered halfs in the Catskills out of my head…or forget the look on Caleb’s face when he’d seen the blade embedded in his chest—a blade that had been wielded by a daimon.

  Caleb would be so… disappointed didn’t even sum it up, if I didn’t say anything.

  But my Seth would be pissed. He’d go snooping in my memories, and I wanted him to be happy with me. I wanted—

  I didn’t want to work with daimons. That was a slap in the face to all those who’d died at their hands—my mom, Caleb, those innocent servants—and my scars.

  My Seth… he’d just have to understand that. He would, because he loved me.

  Mind made up, I took a deep breath. “Just so you know, I’m not telling you this because of anything to do with you. Okay?”

  He laughed darkly. “I would never think such a crazy thing.”

  I made a face. “I’m only telling you this because I don’t think it’s right. It goes against something… inherent in me. I have to say something.”

  “What, Alex?”

  Closing my eyes, I drew in a deep breath. “Do you remember how Marcus thought there was more to the daimon attacks, especially the one in the Catskills?”

  “Yes.”

  “I sort of thought it was Lucian, especially at his Council meeting. It made sense. Creating chaos and whatever makes it easier for people to overthrow and take control.” I ran a finger over the tag on the fleshy part of my elbow. “Anyway, the daimon attacks have apparently been orchestrated by Lucian and… Seth.”

  Aiden’s spine went stiff against mine. No response. He was quiet for so long I scooted around. “Aiden?”

  “How many?” His voice was gruff.

  “All of them, I think,” I said, guilt chewing at my insides.
I was betraying my Seth, but I couldn’t stay quiet. “They’ve found a way to control the daimons.”

  His head lowered and his large shoulders rolled. “How?”

  Climbing onto my knees, I grasped the bars and ignored the weak pulse of blue light. “They… they are using pures as motivation. The ones who are against them—us, I mean us.”

  Aiden twisted so fast, I let go of the bars and jerked back. His eyes burned silver. “Do you know where they’re keeping these pures?”

  I shook my head.

  His lashes dipped. “Do you know why they would do something like this?”

  The disgust in his voice was understandable. I rubbed my palms over my thighs. Why were they doing this? To create discord was obvious. With daimons attacking left and right, the Council had been distracted. The gods had developed doubts about the pures’ ability to control the daimon hordes and had sent furies as a result. And now, it would serve as a distraction for me to escape. How they’d work that one out I didn’t know. And if the fading blue light was any indication, it wouldn’t be necessary.

  “No. I don’t know.”

  His eyes met mine and our gazes locked. “Why did you tell me this? I’m sure Seth won’t appreciate it.”

  I looked away. “I told you. It’s not right. Those pures…”

  “Are innocent?”

  “Yeah, and Caleb… he was killed by a daimon. My mom was turned by one.” My breath shuttled through me and I stood. “I want what Seth wants, but I cannot get behind that. He’ll understand.”

  Aiden tipped his head back. “Will he? You know I will forward this information on. It will hinder his plans.”

  I wrapped my arms around my waist. “He’ll understand.”

  Sadness flowed into his expression and his eyes turned down. “Thank you.”

  For some reason, anger bubbled up and I wanted to lash out. “I don’t want your thanks. It’s the last thing I want.”

  “You have it.” He stood in one fluid motion. “And you have my thanks for more than you realize.”

  Confused, I stared back at him. “I don’t understand.”

  Aiden’s smile was tight, tinged with that ever-present sadness whenever he looked at me, as if I was this unfortunate creature who provoked sorrow wherever I went. Behind that sadness though, there was steely determination.