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  “Delightful characters make Arlene James’ story touching.”

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  “Family Treasures is extremely touching, effective and satisfying.”

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  ARLENE JAMES

  says, “Camp meetings, mission work and church attendance permeate my Oklahoma childhood memories. It was a golden time, which sustains me yet. However, only as a young widowed mother did I truly begin growing in my personal relationship with the Lord. Through adversity, He has blessed me in countless ways, one of which is a second marriage so loving and romantic it still feels like courtship!”

  The author of more than seventy novels, Arlene James now resides outside Dallas, Texas, with her beloved husband. Her need to write is greater than ever, a fact that frankly amazes her, as she’s been at it since the eighth grade. She loves to hear from readers, and can be reached via her Web site at www.arlenejames.com.

  KATHRYN SPRINGER

  is a lifelong Wisconsin resident. Growing up in a “newspaper” family, she spent long hours as a child plunking out stories on her mother’s typewriter and hasn’t stopped writing since! She loves to write inspirational romance because it allows her to combine her faith in God with her love of a happy ending.

  A Mother’s Gift

  Arlene James

  Kathryn Springer

  CONTENTS

  DREAMING OF A FAMILY

  Arlene James

  Prologue

  Chapter One

  Chapter Two

  Chapter Three

  Chapter Four

  Chapter Five

  Chapter Six

  Epilogue

  THE MOMMY WISH

  Kathryn Springer

  Chapter One

  Chapter Two

  Chapter Three

  Chapter Four

  Chapter Five

  Chapter Six

  Chapter Seven

  Chapter Eight

  Chapter Nine

  Chapter Ten

  Chapter Eleven

  Chapter Twelve

  Chapter Thirteen

  Chapter Fourteen

  Chapter Fifteen

  Chapter Sixteen

  Chapter Seventeen

  Chapter Eighteen

  Epilogue

  Questions for Discussion

  DREAMING OF A FAMILY

  Arlene James

  This one is for you, Ross, because you’ve made so many of this mom’s dreams come true.

  For God does speak—now one way, now another—though man may not perceive it. In a dream, in a vision of the night, when deep sleep falls on men as they slumber in their beds…

  —Job 33:14, 15

  Prologue

  They built the swing set beneath the magnificent old hickory tree that sheltered the backyard from the worst of the summer sun, the leaves rustling gently in the steady Oklahoma breeze. Dixie’s parents came to help, delighted to provide their young grandson, Clark, with outdoor play equipment, now that he was old enough to begin to enjoy it.

  The first dream came that very night, and it was always the same in the weeks thereafter.

  Dixie woke, in her dream, and rose to calm sunshine and a sense of well-being. The next instant she stood at the sink in her homey kitchen, the smell of coffee in the air. Looking up, she saw at once through the window that the giant hickory had fallen, obliterating the newly erected swing set. A horrible feeling of panic seized her, for she knew, without reason or incentive, that Clark had somehow been on that swing set when the old tree had fallen.

  At precisely that point, she always woke in reality.

  Rushing down the hall, she would open the door and poke her head into Clark’s quiet room to find him sleeping soundly in his low bed with the added railings, his dark hair curling against his pillow. The panic would ease. Sense would return.

  No one had to tell her that her dream, and her fears, came from the tragic death of her husband, Clark’s father, Mark, over a year earlier.

  Then, one night around the end of April, the dream inexplicably changed.

  As always, Dixie woke, found herself in the kitchen, looked out the window over the sink, saw that the tree had fallen and knew that Clark had been on that swing set. This time, however, a man was there.

  In her dream she thought to herself sadly, “That is not Mark.”

  This man stood tall and leanly muscled, his inky hair shorn high and tight in a military cut. She could not see his face, for he stood slightly turned away, not quite in profile, his head tilted to one side as if listening for something. All at once, he bent forward, his hands held out in front of him. He seemed to test the leaves, lightly moving his hands through them, then he calmly parted the branches of the fallen tree, and Clark, her own little son, leaped happily into the arms of this man who was not Mark.

  Dixie woke with a start. Appalled, she recalled her mother’s words of the day before.

  “You can’t grieve forever, Dix. Mark wouldn’t have wanted that. It’s time to start thinking about dating again. Open your heart to the idea of a new marriage, and God will bring the right man.”

  This, Dixie thought bitterly, would be the same God Who had callously taken the love of her life, her high-school sweetheart, the father of her son. How, she wondered, could she even think of marrying again when Mark would never know the joy of his son’s third birthday? Never again would he see his son’s smiling face or mark his growth against the doorjamb of his bedroom or feel his little arms about his neck.

  Dixie blamed her mother’s insensitive words for the change in her dream, just as in her heart of hearts she secretly blamed God for the freak accident that had taken her husband’s life. Without quite realizing it, she blamed God for Mark’s death almost as much as she blamed herself.

  Chapter One

  “You haven’t been to church in over a year, Dixie,” her father said, rubbing a thick hand over his coarse, closely cropped, steel-gray hair.

  Dixie folded a bath towel and placed it atop the growing stack on her kitchen table. Small, round and battered, it had seen better days, as had the suite in the formal dining room.

  “You don’t have to remind me how long it’s been since I buried my husband, Dad.”

  Sitting in a wobbly chair at that table, Samuel Wallace shook his head sadly. “I know I don’t, sugar lump. It’s just that I’m concerned about you laying out of church. With Mother’s Day and your own mother’s birthday falling on the same date this year, it seems like a good time to be in the Lord’s house.”

  Dixie lowered her gaze as she reached for a small striped T-shirt from the laundry pile. “This is the third time we’ve had this conversation in the past two weeks.”

  “And we’ll keep having it until you agree to join us in church,” Sam insisted in his gravelly voice.


  “I’m just not ready, Dad.”

  “It’s her one wish, Dixie, to have her only child and grandchild in church with her on that special day. That’s all she wants, Dix, just to have the family together in the pew again.”

  But the family wouldn’t be together, Dixie thought, not without Mark.

  Pulling another towel from the jumble, Dixie surreptitiously sucked in a deep breath before making the first fold. She did not wish to respond to her father in anger, but really, her mother was being terribly insensitive of late. Not only had Vonnie Wallace started urging Dixie to date and think about marrying again, now she asked this.

  Her movements brisk and efficient, Dixie folded and stacked the towel. “I’m not sure I’ll ever be able to sit in front of that altar again without seeing Mark’s casket there.”

  “It was difficult for us the first few times, too, sugar lump,” Sam rasped, his hazel eyes glimmering, “but you, Clark and the church are all the family we have. Mark would not have wanted us to pull back from any of that.”

  No, Mark would not have wanted that. No one valued family and connections more than Mark had. An orphan from the age of eleven, he’d grown up in a series of foster homes, so family had meant everything to him. That was one reason why it was so hard for her to go on without him, but her parents did not understand. In their world, loss and trauma were just experiences to be put behind.

  She had tried to tell them, to explain about that day, but even if she’d been completely honest, they couldn’t possibly understand. They had not been in the boat with Mark when it hit the pylon. They had not prayed frantically in the moments before, when it became clear that the structure was not a floating buoy. They had not screamed her husband’s name upon impact or seen the bloody gash across his neck and shoulder as he hit the water. They had not begged God for Mark’s life as blackness overwhelmed all else. They had not awakened in a hospital bed days later with broken bones and a head injury to be told that a best friend and husband of five years was dead and gone.

  How could she sit in that church and not remember that awful day? How could she celebrate Mother’s Day when Mark would never know another Father’s Day with the son he had so desperately desired?

  As if summoned by her thoughts, Clark ran into the room, vrooming as he drove a plastic car in his little hand on a highway of air. At nearly three, Clark never walked anywhere, and he delighted in no one as he did Sam. “Pop-Pop!”

  Sam Wallace caught Clark in his arms and lifted him onto his lap, pushing aside his coffee cup with the back of one hand to be sure that it was safely out of reach. “Hello, there, hot rod. How’s my best boy? Been playing on that swing set out back?”

  “Swing, swing, swing,” Clark chanted, swaying side to side on his doting grandfather’s lap.

  Pushing away images of the dream, Dixie smiled even as she rolled her eyes. “All I ever hear is swing, swing, swing.” She shook her head, her softly curling, golden-brown hair swishing just above her shoulders. “I’ll be so glad when he’s old enough to go in and out on his own.”

  “Ha! I’ll remind you of that when he’s driving you crazy by fanning the door every five minutes,” Sam said, rising to his feet with Clark in his arms.

  Still robust at sixty-four and recently retired from the diesel mechanics shop that he’d run for a full quarter century, one of Sam’s first postretirement projects had been to erect the swing set beneath the old hickory in Dixie’s backyard in time for warm spring weather. He and Clark headed out there now.

  “Fifteen minutes, you two,” Dixie instructed, glancing at the clock over the white enamel stove. “I have to get to the grocery store before I can make lunch.”

  “No problem. I’ve got the Old Codgers’ Bible study in half an hour,” Sam said with a wink. That was his affectionate name for the senior men’s Thursday meeting, which ended with lunch at a local restaurant.

  “And be careful,” Dixie called, shivering a little.

  “Don’t worry,” Sam told her, lingering a moment in the back door. “Just think about Mom’s request. And while you’re at it, Dix, you might want to remember what she went through to have you.”

  Dixie frowned as the door closed behind him. Low blow, she thought. Was it her fault that her mother had had to suffer through numerous miscarriages and several surgeries before finally carrying a child to term at the age of thirty-six?

  “And one more thing,” Sam said, opening the door again to stick his head back inside. “We owe Vonnie for skipping the big six-oh last year.”

  “I didn’t ask anyone to curtail celebration of Mom’s sixtieth birthday,” Dixie pointed out softly.

  “No one said you did. We all felt it was too soon after the tragedy. But that was fourteen months ago. It’s time to move forward again, Dix.”

  Not fourteen months, Dixie thought, as he disappeared again. Merely thirteen months, two weeks and two days.

  Clark had gotten lanky all of a sudden, Dixie realized, lifting him into the seat at the front of the grocery cart. His baby fat had gone to long legs and arms in a matter of weeks. She’d be buying him new pants again before she knew it. She couldn’t help wondering how else he would take after his father. Would his dark, curly hair lighten and streak, as her own medium golden-brown tended to do in the summer sun, or would it stay as glossy as his father’s dark chocolate-brown had done? Clark had her green eyes, rather than Mark’s blue ones, but Clark’s were lighter than her own dark green ones. Now suddenly he was showing signs of having inherited his father’s long, lean frame rather than her short and, in her opinion, too-curvy one. If only Mark were here to see his son grow.

  She turned the cart down the nearest aisle. A familiar salt-and-pepper head lifted from the perusal of a soup can.

  “Dixie!” Bess Slade dropped the can into her shopping buggy and quickly pushed it down the aisle. “How good to see you.”

  Bess had been Vonnie Wallace’s best friend since she and her son had joined the church some eleven or twelve years earlier, after Bess’s divorce. At one time, much had been said about getting Dixie and Bess’s son together, a plan Dixie had greatly resented, as she was already going steady with Mark. She’d even accused her parents of not approving of Mark, a charge they had adamantly denied. It was only, Vonnie had insisted, that Bess dreamed of a perfect marriage for her son, one similar to those of his older sisters, one far different from that which Bess herself had experienced.

  Because Joel Slade was four or five years older than Dixie, their paths had not crossed, and Vonnie had made the whole matchmaking thing sound like Bess’s idea. As a result, Dixie had avoided Bess as best she could over the years. Yet the woman had been nothing but kind and thoughtful in those awful days and weeks following Mark’s death. Remembering how Bess had quietly slipped around her parents’ house at the reception following Mark’s funeral, keeping dishes washed and glasses filled, Dixie put on a smile.

  “Hello, Bess. How are you?”

  Bess delayed answering while she made a fuss over Clark, exclaiming what a handsome boy he was and how much he’d grown. Eventually, however, she came to a reply.

  “I am so excited. Joel is finally home. After ten years, he’s left the Marine Corps and decided to finish college here in Lawton.”

  “That’s nice,” Dixie replied blandly, but in the back of her mind she was hearing her mother say that it was time for her to start thinking of dating again. One surely had nothing to do with the other, though. Any idea of getting Dixie together with Joel Slade had surely evaporated long ago. Surely not.

  “Yes, it is,” Bess went on. “And speaking of nice, Joel and I both are very pleased about being invited to join your family for Vonnie’s birthday. That it’s Mother’s Day, as well, will make it even more of a celebration.”

  Dismayed, Dixie made a concerted effort not to gasp. “Will you excuse me, Bess?” she said, turning the cart about. “I just remembered something.”

  “Of course. I’m so glad I ran into you. Bye-
bye, Clark. Such a handsome boy,” she said for the second time, but Dixie was already mentally determining how she was going to nip this matchmaking nonsense in the bud.

  By the time Dixie got Clark back into the car and drove through Lawton, then covered the five-plus miles to her parents’ small acreage, she had put together a stern little speech. Clark on her hip, she stepped up onto the porch, and opened the door straight into the living room without bothering to knock. Her mother greeted her from the sofa, where she sat watching a television game show, her pale curly hair caught at the nape of her neck.

  “Dixie. What a nice surprise.” Pointing the remote, she shut off the TV and stood, reaching out for Clark, who went to her readily. “How’s my darling today? Have you had lunch yet?”

  “No, we haven’t.”

  Vonnie turned and carried Clark through the swinging door at one end of the sofa, saying, “Come, let me fix you something. Dad’s gone to his weekly Bible study.”

  “I know. He stopped by the house first.”

  “Did he?” Vonnie looked over her shoulder in surprise. “That’s nice.”

  Silent on the subject, Dixie followed her mother into the kitchen.

  Vonnie carried Clark to the high chair in the corner of the room near the trestle table, before moving to the refrigerator. While Dixie stewed and worked up her courage, Vonnie took out sandwich makings and carried them to the work island that was the heart of her warm brick-and-tile kitchen.