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One and Thirty

  The last figure clinging on the calendar

  Am I happy getting far?

  Life is not fair, I have to live with it

  I gave my best shot, what did I get?

  Regrets too many pushed me to be unhappy

  Will the bitter memories be better someday?

  I have to survive for the love of my child

  Joy of my life sent from heaven’s glide

  How can I stop the pain that lingers within?

  When the world keeps thundering me with heavy rain

  Do I have a chance to correct the wrong?

  When the window is closed, is there an open throng?

  Let me be judged at the end of the journey

  For now, help me to be happy.

  Heartaches

  Where can we go from here?

  Do we have a place somewhere?

  Are we going to suffer even more?

  Is life going to bury us to the core?

  Do I have to embrace the agony in order to stay?

  Do I have to play along of his play?

  Do I have to swallow the bitterness ‘till life ends?

  Do I have to let the tears fall ‘till fate bends?

  Must I sink to the deep mire for I’ve no choice?

  Must I become a puppet and hide my voice?

  Must I deny myself in order to have a place?

  Must I bow down and obey for I’ve no case?

  Why life is hard on me?

  Where did I go wrong to suffer this way?

  Warm Christmas

  How warm could it be?

  When people greet and wish you this happy day

  It can humble down a tough heart to a smile

  It fires the cold blood into beguile

  So much laughter and love being shared

  Under the Christmas tree, gifts are gathered

  Food are cooked for the Noche Buena

  Dining table is prepared for the night’s gala

  Everybody is excited for the clock to tick

  Singing carols and exchanging wishes as midnight click

  Everyone is waiting for the giving of gifts

  The children’s presents, they shake it and sniff

  Everybody’s happy for a beautiful Christmas Day

  Celebrating Jesus’ birthday is important to the family.

  Rain, Go away

  Raindrops tick the roof heavily

  Flooded gutters flow earnestly

  Wet roads stir the mud

  Wonderful view around becomes sad

  It is dark and gloomy

  It is cold and dreary

  The sun is block by heavy clouds

  The thunder roars, oh, so loud

  Lightning strikes as if it cracks the sky

  Nature’s whip to earth as reply

  People are helpless and unhappy

  Bad weather contributes misery

  Oh dear rainbow, where are you?

  Display your magical beauty to let the rain go.

  Full moon

  Oh moon, you shine in the pitches of dark

  Your rounded face mysteriously embark

  The ravishing seas dried up in you

  As tranquility shows its brilliant view

  Your total brightness implores romance

  Tired and unhappy soul you give a chance

  Your stillness calms the troubled world

  The sparkling stars of hope are your hood

  You magnetize the lovers into love and passion

  Your brilliance adds the depth of the emotion

  The tantalizing wide eyes admired your full-bodied beauty

  You let the caged feelings to set free

  You give peace and rest to the weary people

  Happiness is the intention you give to all.

  Lucky Girl

  Little girl’s cry echoed from a distant space

  To grant her wish of His unconditional love and grace

  Listen to her faith and soft heart in wonder

  She never gives up yet patient to wait the answer

  He gave her a gift that envied everybody

  Bore a healthy boy with lustre beauty

  He tested her steadfastness and courage

  Heartaches, troubles and pains that’s beyond her knowledge

  She showed unshakable spirit and true love uncovered

  Pure and true heart with deep perseverance revealed

  Worthy of every penny of chance He meted on her

  Thankful and happy she will be forever

  Regretted not, though she’s paying the price

  She’s a valued person and a real wealthy girl in His eyes.

  Once Love

  Had I not beg for love?

  Like a crazy fallen dove

  You once said; you’re no good for me

  Was I not too pretty?

  I thought you like me a little bit

  Were you afraid to have my heart and break it?

  You were such an admirable gentleman

  Few girls I knew had fallen’ in your hand

  I tried to be loving and caring for you

  In the hope that you would love me too

  Though, it hadn’t flourished into a relationship

  Regretted have I not, for you had given me friendship

  I did not blame you for not loving me

  Indeed, I admired your honesty in every way

  I was hurt but not entirely broken

  When you rejected me, back then.

  Lady Madeleine

  She went to town one day

  Her ethereal beauty outshined her way

  She smiled and said, “hi” to everyone she passed by

  Her graceful walk was a trademark to comply

  Men adored this amiable lady of the mansion

  Ladies wished to be in her shoes, an illusion

  She crossed the street and bumped unto me

  Astound she was, this bright- eyed lady

  “Mary, come dinner with me”, she said

  I shook my head as I plead

  “Worry not, my husband is not at home”, she uttered

  She passed by me and went to shopping spread

  Afterwards, I trek lazily to the house where she lived

  Unfortunately, I found her dead in her own bed.

  Rivers End

  Into the sea, all rivers run

  The pit stop of fresh water be gone

  It’s a long journey towards the busy sea

  Learned the dried up and the flow of its agony

  Came from the different springs and streams

  Culled the strong forces to teem the dreams

  The mountains and the valleys give its way

  Help you accomplished the desired destiny

  Every detours and roadblocks posed on you

  You never stopped and chose to continue

  Your perseverance and unshakable determination

  Earned you a good and admirable reputation

  Into the sea, you always end

  Your home, the Heaven’s send.

  Amber Dear

  In the deep you slept thousand of years

  You are the treasure that Baltic bears

  Resin of Pine trees provides your name

  Was played in the hands of the river’s game

  Who brought you to the journey’s end

  Which became your home until the storm gave you in

  On the shore, you laid waiting for the lucky man

  Who picked you up and brought you to his homeland

  He gave me you and made me fabulous

  Your mysterious quality everybody was curious

  You were named the gold of the bounty sea

  Many went after looking for your family

  But you my dear, will stay with me

  As a charm, added to my simple beauty.

  The Blind Man

  When the blind man cries

  There are tears from the dead eyes

  It must b
e sad being alone

  In the dark world he is unknown

  He sits at the sidewalk of the busy street

  Listening the sound of the cars and passing feet

  He sings a melancholic song out from his heart

  Dedicated to his long lost sweetheart

  His own tune and lyrics begging for mercy

  To chance the miracle of three days to see

  Humbly, he is not asking for more

  Just to brighten that closed door

  For he wants to see the world for a forever goodbye

  In the warm arms of his beloved Lorelei.

  The Redhead

  I cross the street as fast as my feet can go

  To stop my father from chasing a woman with a weird hairdo

  They’re both in a hurry and too quick for my speed

  Her swaying hips convince him to take the lead

  He catches up with his assured steps

  Along the noisy, crowded streets

  He grabs her arm like lovers do

  It seems like she likes it too

  My heart breaks for my mother’s sake

  This is too hard for her to take

  I see them getting in a coffee shop

  Determined I am to make a haste stop

  I have to see them both, now or never

  Goodness Gracious! The redhead is my mother.

  Mama, I love you

  Three jobs you took to make us survive

  To a single mom like you, must be hard

  Haggard and tired, you came home each night

  Drained and skinny, you can’t even sleep right

  You look at the old sofa as your comfort

  Should be in the bedroom but fall short

  You sleep there squeezing yourself to fit

  In a cold night without a heat

  I cover you with a thick blanket to give you warm

  For father no longer here to lend you an arm

  My tears fall for I feel sorry for you

  I want to help but too young to do so

  I can only cook you breakfast to make you feel new

  And give you a kiss and whisper, “Mama, I love you.”

  One Unhappy Day

  The heavy, monstrous clouds hovering over the green, happy plain

  To wreck the day topping the misery of the lonesome cabin

  Threatened the tranquility of the unblemished natural beauty

  When the unhesitant giant thunder roared its anger loudly

  And the willing rain waiting the beckon to rapture its spray

  Formed in the sky with collected mass of dark energy

  To spoil the day of this silent, beautiful, little place

  Where I once stayed during my derailed and unhappy days

  The safe haven that I wanted to take it again

  To be alone and ponder over things that render me pain

  Yet, the Mighty Sky denied me of the scenery I wanted to see

  Which could uplift my spirit and shook the bad day away

  Disappointed I was, I trod back to where I’m from

  My troubled heart longing for comfort to come.

  Be Home

  Your radiant shade penetrates my lonely, yearning soul

  When the darkness dominated the years of my fall

  The light finally came that colours my dim imperfection

  Provide me courage that begets the new aspiration

  To revive once again the life that besets the turn

  Playing the parts of the rainbow when I was born

  Clothed in astounding beauty where I once belong

  I’m now tracing back to the home I so much long

  In the gushes of river and the waving of trees

  Were the lullabies of my sound sleep with the bees

  Underneath the shed of the moonless yet glittering sky

  Where the happy fireflies danced as they passed by

  Would illuminate my breaking free from the chaotic city

  Where I have a mental puzzle and lived in misery.

  Freedom

  What does freedom mean?

  Is it fighting with a sword or just a pen?

  Is it the limitless choice of the powerful will?

  Is it exercising rights above the sliding hill?

  Is it the absence of the physical abuse?

  Is it the misunderstanding of life we often confused?

  Is it being free from degrading insults?

  Is it the punishment of the blaming faults?

  Is it moving around without a choking leash?

  Is it a lovely reward from heaven’s bliss?

  Is it disentanglement of poverty and pain?

  Is it the joy of dried heart when it rains?

  Is it the filled stomach to live the day?

  Is this the true meaning of life’s identity?

  Crossing Roads

  Where does this road led to? To inner self I asked

  When the brand new day emerges in the dusk

  Street sign banished from my keen sight

  It was here, I was surely right

  But my heart pointed the other way

  The journey towards my desired destiny

  Is it here or there? I’m in doubt

  My faith I must ask for my mind is out

  Under the hood of unhappy skies, it’s foggy

  I decided of only not what eyes can see

  But let the congregated inner spirit shed the light

  And believe it could emanate the bright

  I came to choose the direction of the lofty call

  At the end, I discovered I wasn’t lost at all.

  The Sea

  Your calmness soothes the troubled soul

  The vastness of your horizon reflects the sky so tall

  Your world in deep is the paradise to treasure

  Mysterious yet admired by its grandeur

  Your bounty has provide food on land

  Living creatures underneath caught by the fishermen

  You are happy to give for the labour they toil

  The anger and wrath you render if they spoil

  The waves are your unbeaten powers to judge the day

  The strong wind and the storm make you wild and unhappy

  Good weather and a nice day make you sound and still

  People indulge its beauty to travel on ships or sail

  Everything that floats are the trimmings of your face

  This water world is your kingdom and dwelling place.