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  On Monday night there had been a thun­derstorm; and he had slipped out, unob­served, into the roaring blackness of the moor, to lie bareheaded on the heather in a torrent of rain. Then had come Tuesday, soft and cool and silver-grey, with tender shadows over land and sea, after the turbulent glories of the lightning god. Surely there was never any world so beautiful, or any boy so happy, so splendidly alive.

  But the divinest day was Wednesday. From the fire-opal of the sunrise to the cloudy amethyst of twilight, it was a day of jewels; a day of sapphire sea and diamond spray, of skylarks singing in far blue heights and sunbeams flaming on the yellow gorse; a day of peace on earth and goodwill — even — toward men. One could not hate uncle him­self on such a day.

  Jack was up with the dawn and on the beach before sunrise. It was low water, and he scrambled out on to the long, jagged reef which had caused so many wrecks that the precipice above it was called "Deadman's Cliff." When he was tired of slipping about on the tangle and cutting his feet with the sharp points of barnacles, he lay down beside a shallow rock pool and looked into the sunlit water. It was full of brilliant anemones, green and pink and orange, open wide and holding up hundreds of painted arms. In one corner was a fairy forest of zoophytes, with a sea-snail trying earnestly to force a passage through.

  Suddenly, behind a little clump of sea­weed, there was a flash of prismatic colour, and silken ripples passed over the surface of the pool. He lay still, watching. Presently a tiny fish, some two inches long, slipped out through the sea-weed and began to swim round and round the pool, glittering in pink and silver. He plunged his hand into the water with a swift, dexterous movement, and caught the fish.

  He lifted the little creature and held it in the sunshine, watching the flashing colours pass and change along its sides as it plunged and struggled in his hand. Then suddenly he saw how beautiful it was, and put it gently back into the water, and let it dart away. One had no right to interfere with a thing whose body was made all of rainbows.

  His hand was still lying in the water, and he glanced down at it carelessly. There were no rainbows on it; but it was beautiful; more beautiful even than the fish. He opened and shut it under the water; and watched the working of the muscles, and the strong, smooth curve of the wrist. Yes, it was beautiful, and it was a part of him.

  That afternoon was again a half-holiday. Billy Greggs had suggested that they should go fishing, as Saturday's expedition had not come off; but Jack refused; he wanted to be quite alone, and clamber on the rocks and look down through deep fissures at the ebbing tide.

  Starting off after early dinner, with a pocketful of cherries and a drag-net for deep rock pools, he came upon Molly sitting alone in the garden with her head buried in the big lavender bush.

  "Hullo, Moll!" he said cheerfully as he passed.

  There was no answer, and he saw her shoulders shake a little; she was crying. He turned back.

  "Why, what's wrong? Uncle been nag­ging again?"

  She lifted up a tear-stained face.

  "I'm to stop in... all the afternoon! And I did want to go and take Daisy to bathe: Dr. Jenkins ordered her sea-baths!"

  Daisy, the broken-nosed doll lying on the grass beside her, was too far gone for any sea-baths to help, or, for that matter, to in­jure; but Molly could scarcely be expected to realise that.

  "It's a jolly shame!" said Jack indignantly; he had been kept in so often himself that he could feel for her. "Poor old girl! What had you been doing?"

  The question brought a burst of tears.

  "I hadn't done anything! I wouldn't mind if I'd been naughty, but I hadn't! It's only because Mary Anne's cooking, and uncle says I mustn't go alone."

  "But you don't go out with Mary Anne other days. Where are those girls you always play with?"

  "Emma's away from home, and Janey Scott couldn't come. I can't help that! If I'd been naughty it would have been just the same. It's not fair."

  Jack's forehead contracted; this was an echo of his own grievance. Either things should be arranged according to convenience, and there should be no rewards and punishments at all, or people should be punished only when they were to blame. Uncle, and, apparently, uncle's God, had a very elaborate system for dealing with offenders according to their deserts; but the practical result of it seemed always to be that, if you were unlucky, you were punished for your misfortunes. He glanced at the sunlit cliffs with a sigh; he had been counting so on a perfect holiday alone.

  "Don't cry, old girl," he said. "Let's go and ask Aunt Sarah whether you may come with me."

  Mr. Raymond, fortunately, was out; and Aunt Sarah, though a little surprised at so unusual a request from Jack, who was gen­erally the most unsociable of boys, made no difficulties; so the two children went down the steep lane together, Jack a little sobered and trying not to feel disappointed, Molly trotting beside him, radiant with happiness.

  In ten minutes he had forgotten all about his disappointment. More delightful even than the flashing water itself was Molly's joy in it. With amazement he discovered that this little creature, whom he had always looked down upon, possessed, at nine years old, a sense of beauty to which he, with all his superiority of a big boy, had only now awaked. She hugged herself with ecstasy at the sight of the green waves dashing up between wet rocks and flinging showers of bright spray into the sunlight. He took her to a favourite spot of his; a narrow rock platform on which one could kneel beside a hole in the granite, and look through into a cavern far below where the water foamed and thundered. As he knelt with his arm about her, holding her carefully so that she should not fall, he felt the little body quiver against his side, and drew her back from the edge of the hole.

  "Don't be frightened! I won't let you fall."

  Then he saw that it was not fear which made her tremble. Her eyes were big and shining as she looked up at him.

  "Jack," she said, "do you think God lives down there?"

  When the tide ebbed he took her down to the reef and showed her wonderful things. They fed anemones with scraps of dead limpets tied with strands of Molly's hair, which she tugged out in the recklessness of her excitement; and drew the bait up again, half-devoured, to see the anemone "turn sulky" and shrink into a shapeless lump of jelly. They undressed Daisy and bathed her solemnly, and dried her with grubby pocket-handkerchiefs, and plastered her broken nose with slimy sea-weed; oh, if the Gang had seen its captain playing with his sister's doll! They caught a shrimp, and mimicked his hideous face, and let him go again. At last they sat down side by side to eat their cherries, their naked feet in a rock pool.

  Molly threw a cherry stone into the pool; and presently Jack heard her telling a story to herself as she leaned over looking down into the water; she had quite got over her shyness with him now.

  "...So the cherry tree grew up in the sea, and was a sea cherry tree; and there were sea cherries all over it... And one day the shrimp came by and saw the sea cherries, and he thought: 'I must take some of those home for my baby shrimps'..."

  "Molly," said Jack suddenly, "do you ever tell stories to Aunt Sarah? No, I don't mean fibs — of course everybody tells fibs; I mean stories about shrimps, and cherries, and things?"

  She lookdd round, shocked at such a ques­tion.

  "Why, no!"

  Jack was quite abashed.

  "Oh, wel," he said apologetically, "I couldn't know, you see. I thought, perhaps, as you are good, ahd she likes you..."

  "It's the easiest way," she answered seri­ously, "if you're good, they let you alone."

  To Jack the answer was a revelation. So Molly, too, lived in a secret world that was all her own, and kept the grown-ups and their dirty hands at arm's length! Her goodness and his badness were means to the same end; the difference was only one of method.

  "The plucky little scrap of a thing!" he thought; and looked at her with new respect;

  When all the cherries were eaten Molly lay down on the warm rock and went to sleep with her tumbled head against her arm.
/>   Jack put her hat over her eyes to shade them from the sun, and sat still, looking out across the blue, shimmering water. Presently he turned and looked down at Molly. She was fast asleep. One bare foot was tucked up under her; the other lay stretched out on the rock, the smooth, clear skin still wet and glistening in the sun. He sat still for a long time, looking at her very solemnly; then he bent down and stroked the little naked foot. It was the first voluntary caress that he had given in his life to any human creature.

  CHAPTER IV

  Mr. Hewitt was very grave and silent in school on Thursday morning. He passed over mistakes and wrote wrong figures on the blackboard, and had dark lines under his eyes, as if he had slept badly or had a tooth­ache.

  In the middle of the history class the curate came in hastily with an anxious look, and said: "Come out here a minute, will you, Hewitt? I want to speak to you."

  They went out of the room, and for some time the boys yawned and fidgetted, lolling at their desks.

  "Hullo!" said Charlie Thompson, who was looking out of the window. "That's the Roscoe girl."

  Jim Greaves sprang up with a quick, startled cry; and then sat down again. Jack glanced carelessly out of the window. Mag­gie Roscoe was walking away down the road, clinging to the curate's arm, and sobbing bitterly.

  "I wonder what's wrong with her?" he thought; and, then, after a moment: "And what's wrong with everybody? All the school's in the dumps to-day."

  Mr. Hewitt came back and went on with the class; but his hand was shaking as he held the book.

  Presently he pulled himself together and began irritably cross-examining the boys and finding fault over trifles. He was usually a patient teacher, if a dull one; but now everything seemed to annoy him. When the morning classes were finished, he called up Jack and reprimanded him sharply before the school. A window had been found to be broken. "You were seen pitching up stones in the road yesterday. That makes the third pane of glass this term!"

  Jack shrugged his shoulders. He had not been throwing stones, and had picked up the pebbles only because of their coloured mark­ings; but if Mr. Hewitt chose to put himself in the wrong by taking things for granted, why should one undeceive him?

  "It was the cat that broke the window, sir," one of the boys out in. "I saw her: there was a dog after her, and she jumped up and sent a flower-pot tnrough.

  "Oh," said Mr. Hewitt absently; "is that so?"

  Jack went out with the sullen face which he had not worn since Saturday. What a mean lot they were! Let them once get a spite against a fellow, and they would always be ready to put anything on to him, without stopping to ask who was to blame. And he had got to be at the orders of an ass like that..

  Yes, but he would be a man some day; and then he would never be at anybody's orders any more. Uncle and the other cads could do their worst; what did it all matter when their time was so short? Nothing matters when one is going to be free. He had never thought of that before; now it burst upon him suddenly, a splendid light of promise. He walked down the lane with shining eyes; only a few more years now, and he would be a man.

  By the afternoon Mr. Hewitt had recov­ered his self-command; but he was more gloomy than ever and gave short, impatient answers to the questions put to him. Some of the elder boys seemed as much upset as the schoolmaster; and at closing-time the class melted away silently, without any of the usual tricks and laughter.

  Jack, for his part, shouldered his books and ran home at the top of his speed. If he made haste he could get his preparation finished, and be put before sunset.

  He jumped over the garden gate with the long, easy spring for which all the Porth­carrick boys envied him, alighting on the gravel with perfect poise and balance. Then he looked back to measure the length of the jump with his eyes. It was a creditable one for aboy of fourteen, and the consciousness of it thrilled him with delight. To be made so cleanly, to have every limb so strong and supple, — is that not a joy? He looked down at his firm, brown wrists, wondering how thick

  a bough he could twist off from the fuchsia hedge with one turn of the close-knit muscles. But when he put out his hand to try, the beauty of the slender crimson buds restrained him; he had never before noticed how lovely was the droop with which they hung, how protectingly the young leaves were spread out above them, like the curved wings of a sea­gull. He raised the branch gently, shaking all the fairy buds, and drew it across his cheek.

  A horrible cry broke out suddenly; and he let the fuchsia bough fall back. The cry was repeated; it came from the stable yard, and the voice was Spotty's. Some strange dog must have set on her — and Spotty was blind. He turned and dashed headlong towards the yard. The old dog's cries sounded in his ears, more and more piercing and lamentable as he came nearer; now there was another sound as well: the sharp, stinging, regular hiss of a whip. He stopped short an instant by the gateway, catching his breath; then opened the gate and entered the yard. Spotty was cowering on the flagstones, muzzled and chained to her kennel. She could no longer struggle much, and only moaned and shivered as the whip came down with its even, sickening thud. The Vicar seemed to put all his strength into every blow.

  Jack sprang forward with a furious cry. The deliberateness of the thing, the muzzle and the carefully shortened chain, had set his blood on fire. The blind creature was help­less enough without all that. In one more instant he would have snatched the whip and struck his uncle across the face with it. Then he saw what the face was like, and drew back and stood still.

  The Vicar looked twenty years younger. The lifeless eyes were shining, the nostrils had dilated, little quivers of delight played at the corners of the mouth. He was like a man who has drunk the elixir of life.

  Suddenly he looked up with the whip lifted in the air, and saw Jack's white face. He started violently, paused an instant, then brought the whip down with a final hiss and thud. Spotty did not even moan; she was quite still now.

  The Vicar stooped down over the dog, drawing a long breath. The hand holding the whip shook a little, then grew steady. When he stood up again his face had re-turned its grey and lifeless habit.

  "There!" he said, and twisted the lash round the handle. "I don't think she'll for­get that lesson."

  Jack neither moved nor spoke. Spotty had begun to stir again and whimper faintly, her tongue hanging out against the wires. The Vicar knelt down and took off the muz­zle; unfastened the chain, fetched some water and held the basin while she lapped.

  "She'll be all right," he said, still looking away. "It's a most unpleasant thing to have to do; but it's more merciful in the end to give a dog one thorough thrashing, and not need to repeat it. She'll obey another time."

  Then he realised that he was apologising to Jack; and turned round sharply.

  "What are you doing out of doors before you have finished your lessons? I won't have the preparation neglected, Jack; I've told you that already. Mind it's done before I come in."

  He went away and left Jack standing white and rigid, with the dog shivering at his feet.

  Spotty put up her head at last, to sniff timidly and recognised her only friend. She crawled up closer to him for comfort and licked his foot, whimpering softly. Then Jack sat down on the flags beside her, and sobbed with his head against her neck. He had not cried like that since he was quite a little thing.

  He got through his preparation somehow before his uncle came in to tea. The Vicar always examined the lessons and was generally, with good reason, dissatisfied with them; but he found no fault to-day, though they were done even worse than usual. The evening dragged wearily on; it seemed to Jack that the clock would never strike nine. When bed-time came at last, he went up to his room, and sat down in the dark on the edge of his bed.

  All the evening he had been watching his uncle's face, vainly trying to see in it again the face that he had seen in the stable yard. Now, sitting still, with a hand over his eyes, he could see it. It stood out of the darkness, the blunt mouth sharpened and quivering, the nostrils full of li
fe, the eyes awake...

  There was, then, one thing in the world that uncle really enjoyed. For it was pleas­ure that was in the face, not anger. He looked quite different when he was angry. He would look angry, for instance, when he should find out about the stolen knife...

  Cold sweat broke out suddenly all over Jack's body. He put up both hands as a shield...

  At last he rose, lit his candle and un­dressed. He lay down in his bed, and the forgotten candle guttered all away and went out with a trail of acrid smoke, while he stared up into the darkness, as still as though asleep.

  As he lay, the horrible thing that had come upon him hammered itself down and burned itself in upon his understanding. When the theft of the knife should be discovered he too would be flogged. He would be handled as Spotty had been handled, and gloated over by that greedy mouth; he on whom no touch had been laid since the mavis flew away. As for all that had happened earlier, it was of no moment; he could look back indifferently on the self of a week ago, as on a stranger; he had lived just five days.

  There was no escape; and no one would understand. No one, no one would ever understand that he was not the same now as last week; that the boy who had been flogged so often and had laughed at it was dead, and that the new Jack in his place had never yet been touched or shamed. There was no hope for this white, unspotted new self; only last Saturday it had begun to live, and now uncle would lay hands on it and it would die.

  Awaking next morning he sat up in bed and wondered amazedly what it was that had happened to him yesterday. It seemed in­conceivable that he, Jack Raymond, of all boys in the world, had lain the whole evening and until late into the night, wideawake in the dark, telling himself over and over again, as if it were something new and terrible that he was going to be flogged. He shrugged his shoulders and jumped out of bed. "I must have gone daft!" he thought, and dismissed the subject from his mind, as fit for the consideration only of old women, girls, and molly-coddles generally.