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Sincere
I could make you say I love you
And I could say it too
But forcing you to say it
Will never make it true
I could hold you in my arms
And never let you leave
Or I could set you free
And pray that you believe
Every time I cross your mind
I can see it in your eyes
I know other men have hurt you
And told you all those lies
It’s all because you’re beautiful
For them your beauty is a prize
But I am anything but typical
Someday I hope you realize
I won’t make you crazy promises
Just to try and win your heart
I would rather win with honesty
Then, if time drives us apart
You’ll know that I will still be here
And waiting just for you
And when I whisper in your ear
You can trust the words are true
The Illusion
I reach out for you
But all I get is the illusion
I try to face the truth
But all I see is dissolution
When will I ever learn?
When will I ever see?
I try to hear the clock
But it’s not ticking
If my time has stopped
Why am I still living?
When will I ever learn?
When will I ever see?
I reached out for you
But you’re not there for me
Funny
Funny how time slips away
It seems like yesterday
I held you in my arms
But now you’re gone
Ain’t it Funny
How I dream of you at night?
It seems I’ve lost the right
To have a part of you inside of me
Funny
And it’s funny how I hurt inside
Because I don’t have you to hold tonight
And funny how you told me
That you’d always be there for me
Funny
Ain’t it funny
How the tears slip down my face?
I feel so
Out of place
Funny
How my life slips away
I go from day to day, today ... too day
Funny
I see you laughing
I hear you laughing
I feel you laughing
And it’s not funny
Another Way
Sitting in a railway station
Watching people pass me by
Sitting in a railway station
Trying not to lose my mind
And I wonder when
You’re coming home
And I wonder why
You had to go
Sitting in a park alone
Watching people come and go
Sitting in a park alone
Mind reeling with vertigo
And I stop and I stare
At the people out there
Caring for each other
But nobody cares for me
Sleeping in my bed alone
Wonder where you are today
Sitting in our cold, cold home
Has to be another way
And tears fill my eyes
And I start to cry
As another piece of me
Is torn away
I Wonder
Every single time I think of your name
I always feel a little pain
And I’m standing out here in the rain
And I think that I might go insane
But I know that I could be alright
If I could hold you in my arms tonight
And I know that it would be okay
If you never had to go away
But I wonder
What’s it all about?
And I wonder
Is there no way out?
And I wonder
Will I ever know the reasons why?
And I just want time to pass me by
And I just want time to pass me by
Every time I dig a little deeper in
I want to hold you in my arms again
And I feel like my life’s giving in
And I’ve got nowhere to turn
But when the walls come crashing down
And I scream but my throat makes no sound
And I can’t seem to choose between wrong or right
Will you guide me through this night?
But I wonder
What’s it all about?
And I wonder
Is there no way out?
And I wonder
Will I ever know the reasons why?
And I just want time to pass me by
And I just want time to pass me by
Nowhere Around
I could have died today
My world could have come crashing down
I turned around
And behind me was a valley full of green
It was the most beautiful thing
That I had ever seen
But
I had to wonder if I’d died
If my life was torn away
Who would be left to mourn for me?
I shed a tear for you today
I guess it took some time to hit me
That you really went away
I lit myself a cigarette
One step closer to my death
But you have always known
That I don’t want to die alone
And I
I don’t know why
I have to feel this pain inside
And I
I want to cry
I want to cry
I could have died today
My world could have come crashing down
I looked for you
And you were nowhere around
You Never
If you could see my dreams
These visions torturing me
I only want to share my pain
Then you could take my hand
And you might understand
I never needed you to blame
But you never
Helped me with my rage
And you never held me
Through my lonely days
And you never
Let go in any way
How was I to know
That you were so afraid?
This sorrow I must hide
The emptiness inside
But you could see it if you tried
You always saw through me
My animosity
You even came to me and cried
But you never
Gave me one more chance
And you never gave in to circumstance
And you never understood my pain
I only needed you
In my life again
It’s Easier This Way
I don’t want to get to know you
Don’t tell me your name
Because I know I’ll only lose you
It’s always the same
Just when I can learn to love again
You’ll walk away
And just when I can learn to trust in you
You’ll cause me pain
My freedom’s all that you can take from me
And I’ve been known to give too easily
That’s when you’ll pick up the blade and cut through me
And I don’t want these wounds to bleed again
I don’t want to learn to hate you
But that’s how it always goes
And I know that it sounds painful
But I’m telling you the truth and you know it
Your life is all you have to offer me
And I don’t want to watch it fade so release me
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sp; And if it’s just your pain that you want me to share
Well it’s too much of a burden for me to bear
So I don’t want to learn to lose you
And if I have to live my life without you
It’s easier this way
Anymore
I’ve been missing you
And you know I’m not really sure why
But I’ve been watching for you
Every time I drive by
And you know I cried for you
And I would have lied for you
I even would have died
But you don’t want me anymore
You don’t want me anymore
I still feel your body next to mine
When I roll over in my sleep
And I sit up and catch my breath
And realize that you’re not next to me
And I know I could have loved you till the end of time
But I guess it’s just as well
You said, it’s not because you don’t love me
I said why don’t you just go to hell?
I’ve been missing you
I’m not sure why
But I’ve been sitting and waiting and hoping
That you’d call me tonight
I could say that I was sorry
And we could give it one more try
But you don’t want me anymore
You don’t want me anymore
Amber Sunrises
I once knew a man
With holes in his pockets
He could play the guitar
Like a mother fuckin’ King
He died on a Tuesday
With a photo in a locket
Without saying goodbye
Or a penny to his name
When I wake in the morning
I thank the Lord you’re beside me
Then I open my eyes
And realize that you’re gone
And you’ve left me with nothing
That I can hold onto
Just the tears on my pillow
And this old worn out song
When I was a child
I had nothing but music
Not much has changed
Since I was eight years old
I once knew a woman
And she sure knew how to use it
She left me with nothing
But my ragged old soul
So if you’re flying
Won’t you please take me with you?
I’ve got no reasons to stay
Got no one to call my own
I once dreamed of beaches
And Amber sunrises
But that dream drove away
Such a long time ago
When I was a child
I had nothing but my music
Not much has changed
Since I was eight years old
The Exception to the Rule
The exception to the rule
It’s the impetus of change
Once people start to see things differently
Reality is rearranged
The darkest shade of gray
Or yellow may be tan
But when you see our tones are all the same
You’ll never see things the same again
The exception to the rule
Brings barriers to the ground
You know we’re all a little freer
Once those walls come tumbling down
The borders have been lain
For our own hypocrisy
But are they really keeping danger out
Or keeping us from being free?
The exception to the rule
It’s what we need