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  Sincere

  I could make you say I love you

  And I could say it too

  But forcing you to say it

  Will never make it true

  I could hold you in my arms

  And never let you leave

  Or I could set you free

  And pray that you believe

  Every time I cross your mind

  I can see it in your eyes

  I know other men have hurt you

  And told you all those lies

  It’s all because you’re beautiful

  For them your beauty is a prize

  But I am anything but typical

  Someday I hope you realize

  I won’t make you crazy promises

  Just to try and win your heart

  I would rather win with honesty

  Then, if time drives us apart

  You’ll know that I will still be here

  And waiting just for you

  And when I whisper in your ear

  You can trust the words are true

  The Illusion

  I reach out for you

  But all I get is the illusion

  I try to face the truth

  But all I see is dissolution

  When will I ever learn?

  When will I ever see?

  I try to hear the clock

  But it’s not ticking

  If my time has stopped

  Why am I still living?

  When will I ever learn?

  When will I ever see?

  I reached out for you

  But you’re not there for me

  Funny

  Funny how time slips away

  It seems like yesterday

  I held you in my arms

  But now you’re gone

  Ain’t it Funny

  How I dream of you at night?

  It seems I’ve lost the right

  To have a part of you inside of me

  Funny

  And it’s funny how I hurt inside

  Because I don’t have you to hold tonight

  And funny how you told me

  That you’d always be there for me

  Funny

  Ain’t it funny

  How the tears slip down my face?

  I feel so

  Out of place

  Funny

  How my life slips away

  I go from day to day, today ... too day

  Funny

  I see you laughing

  I hear you laughing

  I feel you laughing

  And it’s not funny

  Another Way

  Sitting in a railway station

  Watching people pass me by

  Sitting in a railway station

  Trying not to lose my mind

  And I wonder when

  You’re coming home

  And I wonder why

  You had to go

  Sitting in a park alone

  Watching people come and go

  Sitting in a park alone

  Mind reeling with vertigo

  And I stop and I stare

  At the people out there

  Caring for each other

  But nobody cares for me

  Sleeping in my bed alone

  Wonder where you are today

  Sitting in our cold, cold home

  Has to be another way

  And tears fill my eyes

  And I start to cry

  As another piece of me

  Is torn away

  I Wonder

  Every single time I think of your name

  I always feel a little pain

  And I’m standing out here in the rain

  And I think that I might go insane

  But I know that I could be alright

  If I could hold you in my arms tonight

  And I know that it would be okay

  If you never had to go away

  But I wonder

  What’s it all about?

  And I wonder

  Is there no way out?

  And I wonder

  Will I ever know the reasons why?

  And I just want time to pass me by

  And I just want time to pass me by

  Every time I dig a little deeper in

  I want to hold you in my arms again

  And I feel like my life’s giving in

  And I’ve got nowhere to turn

  But when the walls come crashing down

  And I scream but my throat makes no sound

  And I can’t seem to choose between wrong or right

  Will you guide me through this night?

  But I wonder

  What’s it all about?

  And I wonder

  Is there no way out?

  And I wonder

  Will I ever know the reasons why?

  And I just want time to pass me by

  And I just want time to pass me by

  Nowhere Around

  I could have died today

  My world could have come crashing down

  I turned around

  And behind me was a valley full of green

  It was the most beautiful thing

  That I had ever seen

  But

  I had to wonder if I’d died

  If my life was torn away

  Who would be left to mourn for me?

  I shed a tear for you today

  I guess it took some time to hit me

  That you really went away

  I lit myself a cigarette

  One step closer to my death

  But you have always known

  That I don’t want to die alone

  And I

  I don’t know why

  I have to feel this pain inside

  And I

  I want to cry

  I want to cry

  I could have died today

  My world could have come crashing down

  I looked for you

  And you were nowhere around

  You Never

  If you could see my dreams

  These visions torturing me

  I only want to share my pain

  Then you could take my hand

  And you might understand

  I never needed you to blame

  But you never

  Helped me with my rage

  And you never held me

  Through my lonely days

  And you never

  Let go in any way

  How was I to know

  That you were so afraid?

  This sorrow I must hide

  The emptiness inside

  But you could see it if you tried

  You always saw through me

  My animosity

  You even came to me and cried

  But you never

  Gave me one more chance

  And you never gave in to circumstance

  And you never understood my pain

  I only needed you

  In my life again

  It’s Easier This Way

  I don’t want to get to know you

  Don’t tell me your name

  Because I know I’ll only lose you

  It’s always the same

  Just when I can learn to love again

  You’ll walk away

  And just when I can learn to trust in you

  You’ll cause me pain

  My freedom’s all that you can take from me

  And I’ve been known to give too easily

  That’s when you’ll pick up the blade and cut through me

  And I don’t want these wounds to bleed again

  I don’t want to learn to hate you

  But that’s how it always goes

  And I know that it sounds painful

  But I’m telling you the truth and you know it

  Your life is all you have to offer me

  And I don’t want to watch it fade so release me

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sp; And if it’s just your pain that you want me to share

  Well it’s too much of a burden for me to bear

  So I don’t want to learn to lose you

  And if I have to live my life without you

  It’s easier this way

  Anymore

  I’ve been missing you

  And you know I’m not really sure why

  But I’ve been watching for you

  Every time I drive by

  And you know I cried for you

  And I would have lied for you

  I even would have died

  But you don’t want me anymore

  You don’t want me anymore

  I still feel your body next to mine

  When I roll over in my sleep

  And I sit up and catch my breath

  And realize that you’re not next to me

  And I know I could have loved you till the end of time

  But I guess it’s just as well

  You said, it’s not because you don’t love me

  I said why don’t you just go to hell?

  I’ve been missing you

  I’m not sure why

  But I’ve been sitting and waiting and hoping

  That you’d call me tonight

  I could say that I was sorry

  And we could give it one more try

  But you don’t want me anymore

  You don’t want me anymore

  Amber Sunrises

  I once knew a man

  With holes in his pockets

  He could play the guitar

  Like a mother fuckin’ King

  He died on a Tuesday

  With a photo in a locket

  Without saying goodbye

  Or a penny to his name

  When I wake in the morning

  I thank the Lord you’re beside me

  Then I open my eyes

  And realize that you’re gone

  And you’ve left me with nothing

  That I can hold onto

  Just the tears on my pillow

  And this old worn out song

  When I was a child

  I had nothing but music

  Not much has changed

  Since I was eight years old

  I once knew a woman

  And she sure knew how to use it

  She left me with nothing

  But my ragged old soul

  So if you’re flying

  Won’t you please take me with you?

  I’ve got no reasons to stay

  Got no one to call my own

  I once dreamed of beaches

  And Amber sunrises

  But that dream drove away

  Such a long time ago

  When I was a child

  I had nothing but my music

  Not much has changed

  Since I was eight years old

  The Exception to the Rule

  The exception to the rule

  It’s the impetus of change

  Once people start to see things differently

  Reality is rearranged

  The darkest shade of gray

  Or yellow may be tan

  But when you see our tones are all the same

  You’ll never see things the same again

  The exception to the rule

  Brings barriers to the ground

  You know we’re all a little freer

  Once those walls come tumbling down

  The borders have been lain

  For our own hypocrisy

  But are they really keeping danger out

  Or keeping us from being free?

  The exception to the rule

  It’s what we need