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  Chasing Shadows

  Table of Contents

  Cover

  Title Page

  Dedication

  Prologue

  Chapter 1

  Chapter 2

  Chapter 3

  Chapter 4

  Chapter 5

  Chapter 6

  Chapter 7

  Chapter 8

  Chapter 9

  Chapter 10

  Chapter 11

  Chapter 12

  Chapter 13

  Chapter 14

  Chapter 15

  Chapter 16

  Chapter 17

  Chapter 18

  Chapter 19

  Chapter 20

  Chapter 21

  Chapter 22

  Chapter 23

  Chapter 24

  Chapter 25

  Chapter 26

  Chapter 27

  Chapter 28

  Chapter 29

  Chapter 30

  Chapter 31

  Chapter 32

  Chapter 33

  Epilogue

  Acknowledgements

  Copyright

  Chasing Shadows

  T.A. Williams

  To Mariangela with love

  Prologue

  High Pyrenees, January 1314

  The monks found her where she had been discarded.

  Her body lay draped across the frozen rock, arms outstretched in futile supplication, the flapping of her bloodied cloak the only noise in that desolate and inhospitable wilderness. Anything that moved had long since been swept away by the relentless onslaught of the wind that scythed across the barren snowfield at the top of the pass. Nothing survived there for long and it was little short of a miracle that they reached her before she, too, shared the same fate as her travelling companions. The congealed blood on her bare limbs and the deep red of the rock upon which she had suffered were almost identical in colour and it was only the movement of the shreds of clothing that told them there was indeed a body there.

  They wrapped her in a coarse blanket and carried her back to the hospice, few of them daring to think that they would be able to offer her any more than a Christian burial. And yet, in spite of her ordeal, in spite of her wounds and in spite of the ravages of cold and exposure, she did not die.

  All that day and all through the night she lay unconscious and immobile, to all intents and purposes dead. Only the hint of breath on the doctor’s mirror convinced them that she had not relinquished her hold upon life. They could do little but keep her warm and pray. Then finally, just after dawn the next day, she stirred. The monk on duty beside her bed stooped and looked down into her face as her eyes opened. He took two steps backwards, instinctively crossing himself as he turned on his heels and scuttled off in search of the doctor.

  By the time they returned, her hands were over her face, probing and touching. The doctor reached out and took her hands in his, murmuring softly,

  ‘How are you feeling now?’

  The effect of his voice was dramatic. As she felt the touch of the old man’s hand she jerked herself away from him so violently that she would have fallen right off the bed, had there not been another monk there to catch her. She twisted and turned, struggled and fought, until she was finally pinned to the bed by four perspiring monks, with the aid of the abbot himself who had come to see the cause of the commotion. Only then did her spirit of resistance leave her. Her body froze into rigidity, the only visible signs of life an uncontrolled trembling of her lips and tears that ran down her cheek. The abbot leaned towards her and spoke quietly, but with authority.

  ‘Young lady, you have been through much – much more than any human being should ever have to experience – but by the grace of Our Lord Jesus Christ you have survived and you shall recover.’ The last words were spoken with all the strength of his faith, and the trembling and the tears gradually stopped. At a sign from him, the monks cautiously released their restraining grip and they all looked on anxiously. The abbot waited a few moments and then, with his thumb and forefinger, he drew the sign of the cross on her forehead, the outline of which remained clearly etched into the sweat that beaded her brow. For a seemingly interminable length of time there was no reaction until, just as the monks were starting to eye each other nervously, her lips moved.

  ‘I’m blind.’

  Her words were barely audible and they all instinctively bent lower over the bed to catch the rest of what she might say. But there was no more.

  At last, it was the doctor who broke the silence.

  ‘There is no wound to the eyes. You have cuts and bruises to other parts of your body.’ One or two of the younger monks flushed uncomfortably. ‘But your face is virtually unmarked. I believe your blindness is caused by your brain seeking to blot out the horrors you have endured and will only be temporary.’

  But it wasn’t.

  Chapter 1

  French Pyrenees, April 2016

  ‘Ouch.’

  Amy squealed as her knee made painful contact with the bedside table. Feeling for the edge of the bed with her hand, she sat down to rub the bruised area, muttering to herself under her breath. Bruises caused by bumping into things are a fact of life when you’re blind, but that still doesn’t stop them hurting.

  Luke had given her his usual tour of her room before leaving her on her own. She now knew the location of the bathroom, how to operate the shower, and the fact that the towels were hidden away at shoulder level in the corner of the room above the radiator. He had warned her of the slight step at the door and the television placed dangerously at head-height on a bracket attached to the end wall. He hadn’t thought to warn her about the sharp corners of the bedside table, but she didn’t hold it against him.

  After a few moments the pain diminished and she stood up again, felt cautiously for the offending bedside table and, avoiding it, headed for the window rather more carefully this time. The heating was full on and it was boiling in the room. Three paces and she reached the curtains. The window was old traditional French, with an oval metal handle set in the middle. She located it and gave it a hefty twist. With a screech of protest, the sashes swung back towards her and a breath of cold mountain air swept in. Along with it came the sound of an owl, out there somewhere in the hotel grounds.

  She stood there for a few moments, breathing in the night air and reflecting on the events of the past few weeks. There was no doubt in her mind, her decision to follow the pilgrimage route to Compostela had been the best she had made for years. She could genuinely say that, for the first time since the accident, there had been a smile on her face every single day of this amazing trip.

  She returned to the bed and sat down again. Reaching into her bag, she located her laptop and switched it on. The screen reader software was amazing. This managed to read the words on the computer screen straight into her headphones and even gave her the option of skipping about the screen. It had proved to be a liberation for her. She went to her favourite website dealing with the pilgrims’ way, and had just started to learn more about tomorrow’s stage of the journey when her phone rang.

  ‘Hi, Amy, it’s me.’

  ‘Hi Jude.’ They rang each other most evenings for a rundown of the day’s events. ‘Good to hear your voice. All well?’

  ‘They’re saying it’s the coldest April in London for a hundred years. Otherwise I’m fine. How’re things with you?

  Amy lay back against the pillow. ‘We’ve reached the mountains and we’ve checked into a hotel just on the French side of the Pyrenees.’ She went on to tell Judie about their day driving through rural France, stopping here and there to visit chateaux, churches and other places that took their fancy. For two medievalists, this part of the world was a tre
asure trove of historical sites. Thinking back, it had been a lot of fun. Some of her enthusiasm must have reached across the Channel. ‘To be honest, I’m having a whale of a time.’

  ‘That’s great. You certainly sound pretty bubbly tonight. Is it the mountain air, or your hunky guide?’

  ‘I couldn’t possibly say, Jude.’ She had introduced Luke to Judie a month ago, when they were making the first arrangements for the trip, and had made sure she got a full and frank appraisal of him: no unsightly blemishes, the correct number of ears, eyes and fingers, and a face that wouldn’t scare little children. She might not be able to see him, but other people would. ‘After all,’ she had told Judie, ‘A girl’s got her reputation to think of.’ Now she found herself smiling as she replied.

  ‘We’re getting along just fine. He knows all about the history of the pilgrimage and he’s very good at descriptions of the places we’re going through. Mind you, he’s rubbish at names of things like cheeses and desserts. He can just about recognise crème caramel, but that’s it.’

  ‘So, have you found out all about him?’

  ‘Well, I know he’s done his PhD and he’s spent some time living in Africa. Mind you, Father Timothy told me that way back. But, more than that, I don’t really know. He doesn’t like talking about himself at all.’

  ‘So no mention of a wife or a girlfriend? I mean, you need to know what you’re up against, don’t you?’

  ‘No I don’t, Jude. His personal life’s of no interest to me at all.’ She surreptitiously touched her nose to check that it hadn’t grown longer as a result of her last comment. Although she had done an MA in Medieval History, she was honest enough to admit to herself, if not to Judie, that the man guiding her was every bit as exciting as the journey. Reassured, she decided to change the subject. ‘Anyway, tomorrow promises to be good. We’re planning to go up to the high mountains to look for an old pilgrim hospice.’ They were following the ancient Way of Saint James, starting in France. Tomorrow they would drive up and over the Pyrenees, and then travel onwards to Santiago de Compostela.

  ‘So tomorrow you’ll be in France, or in Spain?’

  ‘Just over the frontier inside Spain. We’re not very far from the border here, but there’s a whole heap of snow forecast for tomorrow.’

  ‘Well, make sure he drives safely in the mountains.’ Judie hesitated. ‘You going to be all right with that?’ Judie had been Amy’s friend since primary school and she knew her very well, probably as well as anybody, now that her parents and sister were dead. She had been one of the first people Amy had called after the accident five years earlier. Their car had plunged off a snowy road in the Italian Alps and this would be Amy’s first time back to any mountains since then.

  ‘I’m fine. I’m in good hands.’ Amy felt and sounded relaxed.

  Judie kept the tone light. ‘And just which parts of you are in his hands?’

  ‘Just behave yourself, Jude.’ But Judie didn’t give up.

  ‘That’s what I should be telling you.’

  ‘Listen, you. This is a business arrangement. He’s employed to act as my guide. Nothing more than that. Get it?’

  ‘Whatever you say, sweetie. Anyway, you take care.’

  ‘Bye.’

  Amy dropped the phone back into her bag. Standing up, she reached for the sides of her jumper and pulled it off over her head. Before taking any more off, she went over to the door, checked it was locked and located the light switch. As usual Luke had left it on. She flicked the switch into the off position. She didn’t want to provide a free show to anybody outside. Reassured, she stripped and made her way into the bathroom.

  As she stood in the bathtub, holding the shower hose as it coughed and spluttered cold water, she allowed herself a few moments’ reflection. Yes, it was a business relationship and he was being very well paid for his time. Mind you, she thought to herself, he seemed to be enjoying it too. After a particularly loud cough, the water coming out of the shower head began to warm. As she started to wash herself, she realised that she was humming a little tune. She couldn’t remember doing that for a very long time.

  By the time she emerged from the bathroom, the stuffy heat in the room had been replaced by the chill of the evening air. Although it was April, it had been a cold winter and the close proximity of the snow-covered mountains meant that the outside temperature was already approaching zero. She closed the window once again before she discarded the towel and started searching for underwear in her suitcase. She pulled her jeans back on but, this time, she felt for a different top. Her hands landed on the unmistakable feel of mohair. Her fingers confirmed that it was one of her old favourites with a roll neck. She knew it to be pale blue. She had bought it just before that last family holiday. She had chosen it because it perfectly matched the colour of her eyes. Only a few weeks later her eyes had still been the same colour, but the jumper and everything else in her life had turned a uniform grey.

  Snap out of it, you idiot. This was no time for self-pity. She was alive, she was finally doing something she had wanted to do since she was ten, and she was going to have dinner in a nice French restaurant with Luke. And Judie had said he was very good-looking. With that thought in mind, she brushed her hair, slipped on her shoes and reclaimed her watch from the bedside table, ready for his knock on the door.

  She pressed the side of her brand new Snoopy watch and heard Charlie Brown’s voice telling her that it was seven o’clock. This, as usual, was followed by a woof. With a contented smile, she settled back on the bed, but almost immediately there was a soft knock at the door. She got up to open it.

  ‘Hi, Amy. Feeling hungry?’ He smelt of that same deodorant she had grown to rather like. She would recognise it anywhere.

  Her smile broadened. ‘After visiting two castles, a pope’s grave and goodness knows how many churches today, I’m definitely ready for something to eat. And I’m sure I don’t need to ask you.’

  They strolled across the gravel to the restaurant, her hand, as usual, resting lightly on his arm. The accommodation block was a short walk from the main building. A tree-lined avenue, studded with lamps, led up to the front of a fine white four-storey building. Luke did his best to describe it to her.

  ‘It’s sort of nineteenth century mock-château style, with mansard windows peeping out of the steeply sloping slate roof. The deep green shutters at each window give a geometric precision. It could almost be Tyrolean, but still definitely French though, if you can imagine what I mean. It’s the shutters in particular that give it away. But it’s unusually tidy and clean-looking.’ As he was all too aware, his verbal description of her surroundings had to be as accurate and evocative as he could manage.

  They went into the small hall and were greeted with a courteous, ‘Bonsoir monsieur dame’ by the lady behind the counter. They returned the greeting and walked on down the corridor towards the door marked Restaurant. As they walked, she guessed.

  ‘Late fifties, maybe early sixties, twin set, pearls, gold-rimmed glasses on a string and a Pekinese at her side?’ She enjoyed this game and they had played it quite a bit on the way down through France. She gave his arm a squeeze. ‘Well, was I right? Tell me what she’s really like.’

  ‘You got the age right and, miraculously, the glasses on a chain, but she’s wearing jeans like yours and if there’s a Pekinese, he’s inside the Pyrenean mountain dog.’ His hand was already on the restaurant door, but she stopped dead.

  ‘Did you say a Pyrenean mountain dog? Where? I love those big fluffy giants.’

  ‘See if you can find him.’ She could tell he was teasing her.

  The dog was stretched out on his side at the far end of the hall, just behind the door. Amy turned back in that direction, pricked up her ears and set off confidently, straight down towards the sleeping dog. As she approached, the heavy white tail began to whack lazily on the ground. She followed the sound and then bent down to make a fuss of the big animal. The rhythm of the wagging increased and she was rew
arded with a very slobbery lick.

  As Luke slowly walked back down the hall towards her, he watched her stroke the thick, curly coat. He saw her simultaneously feeling the length of the dog’s back, ears, tail and legs with one hand, while gently running her other hand over the outline of the head and face. This was her way of seeing things. He never ceased to be amazed at how accurately she could formulate a clear idea of an object just by touch.

  The effort of wagging its tail clearly tired the dog to the extent that it let its head fall back onto the floor with a thud and a deep sigh. Mission accomplished, Amy stood up and turned to take Luke’s arm again. The lady behind the desk smiled as they went back down the corridor. Luke hesitated as they reached the restaurant door.

  ‘There’s a door here with Dames on it, if you want to wash the dog off your hands.’

  ‘Probably a very good idea.’ Leaving him in the corridor, she slipped through the door. While he waited, he peered into the restaurant.

  The room boasted no more than about ten tables and only three of these were occupied. The wooden floor was spotlessly clean, the walls and ceiling freshly painted. A bunch of wild-flowers in a little pot stood on every table and the scent of violets was in the air. Along with this were appetising kitchen smells that reminded him just how hungry he was. When Amy reappeared, they were guided to a table by a girl who looked fourteen, and surely wasn’t a day over sixteen.

  They chatted for a few minutes until the waitress arrived to take their order. There wasn’t a written menu and the girl recited it to them and they both listened carefully to get the various choices. Although his French was more fluent than hers, she did quite well and had a pretty broad vocabulary. They both chose salad with goat’s cheese as a starter and confît de canard for the main course. When the girl returned with the bread and a carafe of water, he started to give a thumbnail sketch of the occupants of the other tables, just as he had been doing every night since they’d started from Dover over two weeks ago.

  ‘On the far side there’s an old couple. They look as if they’re in their eighties, if not more. Her face is so gaunt you can see the outline of every bone. He’s drinking water and she’s drinking red wine. Next to them, there are two ladies. One about ninety; red-faced and stout. She doesn’t seem to be touching the food on her plate. Her companion’s probably about twenty years younger. Could even be her daughter. Unnatural-looking red hair and she’s eating everything in sight.’