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  stole a little of her aura by touching her, but was too greedy to give it back. No

  doubt about it. She was definitely not human. She felt like more, much more. It

  hadn't escaped his notice that she didn't trip or slip once as she jogged across

  the icy parking lot. Nobody had ever set his entire body on fire like that. His dick

  was pressing so hard on the inside of his zipper it might break free at any minute.

  One fucking touch and he was already half way there. That was only supposed to

  happen when two animals who were fated connected. His wolf was pacing back

  and forth inside. Nervous that he was letting her get away. He wasn't looking for

  a mate, especially one who smelled so fragile and human.

  Mate, she is our mate .

  His wolf said. Shaking his head at how complicated his life just became Kian

  walked back inside.

  Kole was standing his back leaned against the bar waiting for him. He

  lifted an eyebrow in question.

  "Fuck man, I don't know what the hell she is. But my wolf thinks she's meant for

  me." Kian grabbed his beer gulping the rest of it down like those words had

  burned to admit out loud. They both stood there for a few minutes letting it sink in. Rubbing a hand across

  his square jaw Kole finally said. "Can't be. She would have felt it too. Its probably

  just been too long for you. Right?"

  "From the way her eyes went wide and the pheromones pouring off of her she

  did."

  "Aww hell, man. This isn't gonna be good. You know how our uncle feels about

  wolves mating with humans. Its against the fucking rules for a reason Kian, they

  usually can't handle it, and get hurt. Sure, Emma is a knockout, but there are

  women in the pack that you should take out if you're ready to settle down."

  "None of them ever made me hard with a single touch like she just did. Fuck.

  Just let me figure this shit out, don't mention it, ok?" Kian asked setting money

  down on the bar to cover his tab.

  Kayla walked over just as Kian was heading back out the door.

  "So, what happened with Emma?" She asked Kole.

  "Nothing good Kay, nothing good." Kole said eyes still on the door Kian just left

  from.

  "Is she a wolf Kole? You know we are supposed to report any rogues to the

  alpha so he can check them out." She whispered.

  "No wolf, don't worry about it." Kole said careful not to actually lie to his sister as

  he settled back down on a stool. Kian drove around town in his truck for an hour before giving in and

  looking for Emma's car in a driveway. If she had a garage maybe he would just

  have to shift and sniff her out. She smellled like delicious, like green apples, and

  vanilla. That could be dangerous though, someone might notice a wolf strolling

  around town. Getting shot in the ass wasn't how he wanted to end his night. Just

  as he was admitting to himself that he was definitely a certified creeper he saw

  the little black car sitting next to a tiny white house. He drove past going to the

  end of the block before circling around to make a slower pass. This time he knew

  for sure it was her place because the lights inside were on, and Emma was

  pacing back and forth in the living room. Probably wondering what the hell

  happened back in the parking lot. The look on her face pulled him in though, he

  could tell she was going to leave, and he couldn't let her run away.

  Chapter 3

  Emma heard the knock on the door just as she was heading from the

  living room into the bedroom. Intent on packing her clothes and leaving this town

  tonight. Nobody had knocked on her door since she moved in. She knew it had to

  be Kian, the shock in his eyes as she pulled away flashing through her mind. The

  urge to flee was instant, but there was no way to get to her car without having to

  go past him. With his senses she damn sure couldn't sneak past, and had no

  hope of outrunning him. He could shift in an instant and chase her for miles

  without tiring. Emma was a good runner, had taken all the self defense classes

  she could, but she was no match for Kian's wolf.

  "Emma? It's me" Thinking he was a dumb fuck for saying me he corrected,

  "umm Kian, from the bar, I walked you out." Wincing at what a fool he was

  making of himself. Taking a deep breath to settle, "I just wanted to talk to you a

  minute." That was better, at least it didn't sound like this was his first time talking

  to a woman. "Like I am supposed to believe that and open the door to you? I don't know you

  Kian. I think you should go home." Emma shouted from deep inside the house.

  Thinking good mate, keeping herself safe. "Look, we both know what I am. But

  you should know that I'm not here to hurt you, I don't even know what you are."

  Once the words starting rolling out they didn't stop, and he admitted "I just need

  to know what you felt when I touched you. Because I have never felt that spark

  with anyone else." Voice getting lower now and almost pained, "Emma, you lit

  me up."

  Well shit, her gut told her that was all truth. Not scared anymore, just pissed off

  that she had to leave a town she just moved to, she opened the door and glared

  up into his face, "I am leaving tonight, I won't be here much longer so you are

  going to have to find someone else to catch fire with Kian whatever the hell your

  last name is."

  He smiled, and it did her in. A little lopsided but with straight white teeth, small

  crinkles at the corners of eyes that said he used to smile all the time. The frost

  was all gone, and those eyes shone a clear blue now. He was sexy as all hell

  before, but that smile transformed his whole face. He radiated warmth, and

  Emma's knees went weak just looking at him.

  Laughing at her he said "Kian Decker, Second to the Alpha, Big Woods pack."

  Then sounding more shy than a man who housed a dominant predator inside of

  him should be able to. "You are the most stunning woman I have ever seen in my

  entire life. Can I please come inside?" Not sure what to say to that she just nodded and stepped aside to let him in. "Do

  you have a last name Emma?"

  "Lowe. My last name is Lowe. I'm a nurse. No rank or pack to proclaim" She

  muttered still caught off guard by his smile.

  Cocking his head to the side, "I hear the truth ringing through your words, but I

  don't think thats all there is to it."

  Eyes on the ground, wringing her hands, Emma took a deep breath and said

  something she had never admited to anyone since her father died. "My parents

  were both shifters, but my DNA got confused somehow and I have no wolf."

  "No wolf?" That couldn't be.

  "Not so far, no." Emma said finally looking back up at him. Instead of the anger or

  disgust she was brought up to expect, she only saw confusion and then sadness

  in his eyes.

  Reaching out he grasped her hand for a moment, his touch was just as potent as

  the first time "I know you feel that too. Do you know what that means?"

  "That you must be a very powerful wolf. Shifters always feel like a little static

  shock to me."

  "Yeah, I am, but that not what that was. Thats how its supposed to be between

  mates who have been fated. Our animals connected, I felt you in every nerve of

  my body and I can smell how aroused just that small touch
made you." "Mates? How can I be anyone's mate when I am missing half of me? I have no

  animal for you to connect to Kian. I feel empty inside, like she should be there.

  But she just isn't." A tear escaped out of Emma's eye at her pained admission

  and raced down her cheek. Somehow didn't feel like a stranger anymore. He felt

  vital, like maybe her life was leading her to this exact moment.

  Kian lifted his hand to her face, wiping the tear gently away. "I don't understand

  why you don't have a wolf, but I know I was meant to find you Emma. And now

  that I have I don't want to walk away from you."

  Kian was so close, Emma leaned in, just to feel his warmth a minute. It

  should seem strange to her that just a few minutes ago she was ready to run,

  and now she wanted nothing more than to be in his arms. But it didn't, he was

  filling her senses and it was the best she had felt in a very long time. He smelled

  like animal, but also like man, deliciously spicy man. Her hands found their way

  to his chest and a soft rumble sounded from his throat. She didn't know that

  could sound so good. Looking up at him she whispered "did you just growl at

  me?"

  "Your touch makes me hungry for more." Kian said with another growl.

  Feeling emboldened by his answer Emma ran her hands up from his chest over

  his shoulders and around his neck. "Me too."

  Kian yanked Emma tight against his body. He was so much bigger than she was,

  taller by almost a foot, with shoulders almost too wide to fit through a doorway.

  He could literally break her, and suddenly Emma found that thought thrilling instead of scary. Feeling powerful in her vulnerablity she rubbed her body against

  Kian's. His mouth crashed down on hers. His soft lips pressing against hers, his

  beard tickling her face. Needing more of him Emma sucked his bottom lip into

  her mouth, biting it gently. Kian's arms left her back, and for a heartbeat Emma

  thought he was going to push her away. Then she felt his hands sliding past her

  hips, down her legs, and catching just behind her knees picking her up as if she

  weighed nothing at all. Big strong wolf. Wrapping her legs around his waist she

  pulled back long enough to let him know first door on the right.

  Kian left biting kisses along her jaw until he found her ear. He ran his

  tongue along the outside shell of Emma's ear as she let out a hungry little gasp.

  Encouraged that she liked that Kian sucked the lobe into her mouth and then bit

  it scraping his teeth down it instead of just releasing it. Body on fire now, Kian set

  her down next to the bed, and leaned back enough to pull his shirt off. The

  tattoos Emma had caught peeking out of his sleeves earlier were magificent. One

  whole arm was covered, across his chest, and down almost to the elbow of his

  other arm. And what a chest it was, muscular pecks, a deep indentation between

  with a sprinkling of light brown hair. Kian had eight pack abs and a sexy strip of

  hair leading down into his pants. Pulling off her own sweater, and shimmying out

  of her jeans Emma let him see her lacy green bra and panties.

  "They matched your sweater. Good lord woman. Look at you. Skin so soft, with

  enough curves to drive a man wild. Mine, its all mine." Kian growled the last part

  as Emma bit down on the strip of muscles forming the sexy V of his hips, and

  undid the button on his jeans. Reaching down inside his boxer briefs she found his dick. It was already hard with skin so soft, like silk over steel. Taking him in

  one hand as she pushed his pants down with the other she stroked slowly from

  the base to the tip. He was so big that her fingers didn't touch while wraped

  around him. She had to taste him, needing to have her mouth on him. Going

  down on to her knees she swiped her tongue across the tip. Looking up into his

  eyes she took as much as she could fit into her mouth. Kian's eyes lost all their

  blue, blazing silver now as he watched Emma's lips stretch around his dick. With

  her hand gripping the base she worked him slowly at first. Her mouth sliding up,

  twisting her tongue around the tip before sliding back down. Having Kian inside

  her mouth felt so good. Getting so turned on Emma squeezed her legs together.

  Kian was going to come down her throat soon if he didn't stop her. Pulling

  his dick out of her mouth her lips making a little pop, sound he pushed her back

  towards the bed. "Damn Emma, less than two minutes and I am already almost

  there, your mouth must be magic." Kian smirked "my turn now."

  Emma bounced back onto the bed and splayed her arms out to hold her head up

  so she could see. Opening her legs in hungry invitation she watched him lick his

  lips. Crawling to her he pulled the green lace aside and ran his tongue up her

  seam. Her breath caught and she clutched the comforter in her hands. Opening

  her legs wider with his arms he peeled back her lips to look at her. "Pussy so wet

  for me, and mmmmmm so good." Kian said right against her clit. His tongue

  lapping it once, twice, circling around it once, lapping twice, circling once. He set

  a devastating rhythm. Breathlessly gasping out nonsensical sounds her legs

  starting to shake. He pushed a finger inside her, his tongue never slowing down, his finger sliding back out, and a second one moved in with the first. The

  pressure was building, she was gasping for breath now. His teeth grazed her clit

  once as his fingers pumped inside of her and on a cry Emma shattered. Her

  orgasm bowing her back up, pulsing greedily around his hand.

  Kian smiled proudly at her, licked his fingers once before pulling her

  panties down her legs. Settling his knees between her legs he pulled her up to

  meet his mouth. Emma could taste her heady flavor on his lips, but it had felt so

  good she didn't have it in her to feel embarrassed. He reached behind her and

  she heard her lacy bra unsnap, pulling away he took the bra with him. Laying her

  back down he took a pink nipple in his mouth he pumped his dick in his slowly in

  his hand. Moving to the other nipple, sucking it hard into his mouth. Her nipple

  still in his mouth he said "Stop me now Emma, if this is too fast for you." Her hips

  rose in invitation, she moaned "don't you dare stop." He slid into her slowly, only

  halfway at first, stretching her. In again once more only half way in. Finally on the

  third stroke he went in all the way until his hips met hers. He was so big, Emma

  had wondered if she couldn't take him all. But she was so wet and needy from his

  mouth earlier that he slid in filling her completely. The muscle in Kian's jaw ticked

  as he pushed into Emma a little harder this time and she cried out. Lost in the

  sound of her pleasure he pounded into her harder and harder. She lifted her leg

  and he hooked it over his arm creating a different angle. God, Kian he was so

  close, his dick swelling. She was mumbling yes with every thrust, starting to

  quiver deep inside. He was growling, when she closed her eyes and her pussy

  clenched. Her orgasm triggered his, and hips pistoning into her he came. His dick jerking, warmth spilling into her as her aftershocks pulsed on.

  Chapter 4

  Kian wasn't ready to pull out of Emma just yet. His wolf craving that

  connection a little while longer. So he rolled them over draping her across his

  chest. Her hair clip was hanging half way down h
er hair from their lovemaking

  now. So he unclipped it freeing the wild red hair. Caught somewhere between

  curls and waves it tumbled halfway down Emma's bare back. Pulling one from

  the rest between his fingers he brought it to his nose inhaling the scent of fresh

  green apples. Smiling up at her he said "I really like your shampoo."

  Emma was tracing patterns in his ink when she laughed at him, "Why thank you

  handsome wolf, I bought it because apples are my favorite fruit."

  Kian kissed her lips with a smack, "Mmmmmm, mine too now. I want to know all

  of your favorites Emma, share all your secrets with me."

  Giggling at him she replied, "apples, country music, sappy books and funny

  movies. Hmmmm, quilted toilet paper, the color blue now, walks in the woods,

  pasta, oh and white wine, never red." "Never red, I will keep that in mind. Blue now? Why did it change? What was it

  before?" Kian asked while running his finger tips up and down her back lazily.

  "Your eyes. I get lost in them." Emma admitted with a small smile. "Tell me about

  you Mr. Kian Decker second to the alpha."

  "Well, I'm 30. My family owns a construction company, we mostly do repairs and

  renovations, but we do build an occasional house. I am the oldest, you met my

  brother and little sister. My friend Lex, he held me together when my Dad died

  about 10 years ago. Mom finished raising us, and moved down south a few years

  ago. Staying in this pack was hard for her after he was gone, she couldn't move

  on."

  "Both of my parents are gone too." She said quietly. "Mom died when I was a

  baby, and I don't remember her at all. My Dad left when I was 12. We were living

  in a small town Georgia at the time, he was gone when I came home from school

  one day. He didn't take anything with him but his truck and the picture of my Mom

  he kept on his dresser." Emma finished on a shrug. "I guess it was too hard

  being around me."

  Heart breaking for his new mate Kian hugged her tight to his chest. "That must

  have been scary as hell for you."

  "It was" Emma said into his chest. "All night I kept thinking he would come home,

  but he didn't. So the next morning I went into school and told my teacher my Dad

  was gone. With no other family I was placed in foster care. I bounced around the

  system until I aged out at 18." "So your people are from down south?" Kian asked still holding her.