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  Insatiables

  Brittany Terwilliger

  Amberjack Publishing

  New York | Idaho

  Amberjack Publishing

  1472 E. Iron Eagle Dr.

  Eagle, ID 83616

  http://amberjackpublishing.com

  This book is a work of fiction. Any references to real places are used fictitiously. Names, characters, fictitious places, and events are the products of the author’s imagination, and any resemblance to actual persons, living or dead, places, or events is purely coincidental.

  Copyright © 2018 by Brittany Terwilliger

  Printed in the United States of America. All rights reserved, including the right to reproduce this book, in part or in whole, in any form whatsoever without the prior written permission of the publisher, except in the case of brief quotations embodied in critical reviews and certain other noncommercial uses permitted by copyright law.

  Publisher’s Cataloging-in-Publication data

  Names: Terwilliger, Brittany, 1983- author.

  Title: The insatiables / by Brittany Terwilliger.

  Description: New York : Amberjack Publishing, 2018.

  Identifiers: LCCN 2018005088 (print) | LCCN 2018009749 (ebook) | ISBN 9781944995607 (eBook) | ISBN 9781944995591 (pbk. : alk. paper)

  Subjects: LCSH: Businesswomen--Fiction. | Business ethics--Fiction. | Corporate culture--Fiction. | Work environment--Fiction.

  Classification: LCC PS3620.E7736 (ebook) | LCC PS3620.E7736 I57 2018 (print) | DDC 813/.6--dc23

  LC record available at https://lccn.loc.gov/2018005088

  Cover Design: Jaclyn Reyes

  For Jason

  PART ONE

  1

  The day I got my big break was just like any other day. The wings of Findlay Global Manufacturing, Inc., spread across the suburban office park like fingers beckoning. From Lot E, where I deposited my beater car every morning in the dark, I could see the glow of Dayton in the distance. I tucked Phil Collins’s bowl under my arm and jogged inside, speed-walking past the same desks brimming with #1 Dad paperweights, sticky note pads shaped like lips, a dim gallery of motivational mountains and sunsets and hang gliders. Ours was identical to Findlay’s other divisions—a nest of cubicles fenced by an outer ring of executive suites—except we had a push-button cappuccino machine that sat outside the Vice President’s office like a monument. His name was Gus Hanley, and he wasn’t just Vice President, he was Chief Executive Senior Vice President, Director of Sales, and Acting President of Findlay’s Devices Division. A Level 7. He encouraged everyone to use his cappuccino machine, but everyone generally understood that it was, in fact, off limits.

  I reached my chair just in time to see Darren across the aisle, folding a gray fleece blanket into a square. He dropped it in a drawer and looked up.

  “Hey,” I sighed, setting Phil Collins’s bowl on the desk. “You beat me again.” It was a sort of unspoken contest to see which of us would be the first to arrive and the last to leave the office every day.

  Darren’s skin glowed the color of cave fish. “Nah,” he said, “I never left.”

  “Where’d you sleep?” His cubicle contained nothing but a desk and a black mesh swivel chair.

  “Floor,” he said.

  “Resourceful.”

  He smiled at the compliment.

  I shrugged out of my coat and signed in to my computer as the fluorescents blinked on. Phil Collins swam out of his little castle and scanned the cubicle with buggy goldfish eyes. I sprinkled a few flakes of food into his bowl.

  “Celeste still not back?” Darren said.

  “Should be back today.” I lowered my voice. “One of her attendees got alcohol poisoning and had to go to the emergency room.”

  “Who was it?” Darren asked.

  I looked over at him. “I’ll give you a hint. Nashville Marriott biohazard.”

  Darren mouthed an ah-ha. “One of these days that guy is going to get himself killed.”

  The office began to stretch and wake as others arrived. Doors opened and closed. The clatter of keys on desktops heralded the symphony of a hundred Microsoft Windows start-up jingles. Cups were filled with cafeteria coffee, and soon the smell of it—both the coffee and the coffee breath—filled the air above us. I tore into a granola bar—the crunchy kind that crumbles as soon as you bite into it—and started updating a flight departures manifest, absentmindedly brushing crumbs into the wastepaper basket next to my feet.

  Celeste walked in and dropped her purse on the floor. “You’re never going to believe what happened,” she said, brushing a long strand of hair from her forehead.

  A small smile crossed my mouth. When she was there, our cubicle was always a more interesting place. Celeste had been born and raised in Dayton, just like me, but she had the aura of someone from someplace else. She even looked a bit exotic, with her tall, voluptuous frame and her jet-black hair. She capitalized on this innate mystique by making everything about herself a bit unusual. She wore men’s tuxedo jackets and plaid trousers, vintage shirtdresses and Chuck Taylors, sequined tank tops and knee socks, and it all looked exquisite and right somehow. Her soul had already left boring, conventional old Dayton, it was just her body that was still here.

  “Stuart Nadeau got himself killed?” I said.

  She rolled her eyes. “No, he’s fine.”

  I told her about Darren’s death prophecy.

  “We got out of the ER around two a.m.,” she said, “and I put him on a plane back to Toronto before he had another chance to ruin my day. But you’re not going to believe what happened to my suitcase.”

  I cringed in anticipation. The previous week, Celeste had been so excited about her new pristine white Tumi, an early Christmas present she’d bought for herself, that she’d actually brought it to the office to show me. It was a big splurge for a Level 1. She’d eaten nothing but off-brand frozen vegetables and rice for months to save up for it. We snapped up every opportunity to symbolically distance ourselves from mediocrity.

  “When it came off the conveyor belt at baggage claim,” she said, peeling off her coat, “motherfucker had a big black tire mark across the middle. Like it fell off the luggage cart and got run over by a truck.”

  “Oh my god,” I said.

  She tossed her coat over our gray cubicle wall and sat down across from me.

  “Don’t you think, if you were a luggage handler, you’d say to yourself, ‘Gee, this one’s white, maybe we should put it on top where it won’t get run over’?” She glared incredulously at Phil Collins as if he might have the answer. He swam in a circle and then disappeared into his castle. “I mean, I figured it’d get dirty, but I didn’t think it would get tire marked. Now I’m wondering how often normal black luggage gets run over.”

  I continued to watch her, in case this was just the preamble to a longer discussion, but she stopped talking and turned to her computer.

  “I got us a new box of granola bars,” I said, motioning.

  “Sweet. You’re the best.”

  She reached for the box that marked the separation between my neat and tidy side of the cubicle and Celeste’s side, which was always a mess. If we’d hung a Seventeen Magazine mosaic of circa 1996 Leonardo DiCaprio clippings, the whole thing would have been the spitting image of the fort we’d built in the woods in sixth grade. Celeste and I hadn’t imagined back then that a decade later we’d be sharing a cubicle at Findlay. Back then, we’d measured our lives in magazines and movie stars. Celeste had wanted to be a cruise ship captain, or maybe a photographer for National Geographic. I wanted to marry a royal. We knew we were destined f
or something special, bound to embody the elegant, magical future we saw inside our heads. It wasn’t until later that we realized Findlay was our ticket to that magical future. And now here we were, working for Gus Hanley, high on daily whiffs of boardroom prestige and the promise of eventual greatness.

  All the Level 1s had a similar story. We were all eager to rise, all of us infected with the same no-holds-barred drive to master our domain. In our case, that domain was consumer devices, and we were the Service Staff. We all dreamed of reaching Level 2, Support Staff. At Level 2, you could really be somebody. We weren’t after Level 5 or Level 6; that would be absurd. Just Level 2. I’d been especially dreamy lately because Marcie Harrington had just made the jump. One day she was an ordinary Level 1 service staffer like us, and the next day she was an inductee into that mysterious and wonderful club of 2. As she prepared to move to the adjacent wing, we watched her gather her cubicle ephemera with newfound actuality, disposing of photos and postcards that had once meant something to her Level 1 self as if they were tainted with rot. I watched her and imagined, with envy so visceral it made my eyes water, she was me . . .

  “One of the sales reps killed an American bald eagle,” Celeste said without turning around.

  “What?” I looked back at her, but she was typing something. “How?”

  “It was injured or sick or something,” she said. “The guy caught it near our hotel, and the other reps started passing it around for selfies, and it died.”

  “Jeez,” I mumbled.

  “He didn’t want to get in trouble, so he asked the concierge for a trash bag and threw it in a dumpster out back.”

  I imagined it for a second, tucked into a shroud of rotting pizza boxes and potato chip bags, used condoms and wads of miscellaneous blackening sludge. The acrid smell of garbage juice, the dark, hot plastic closing in. The awful extinguishment it all amounted to. In the neighboring cubicle, Molly opened one of the Mounds bars she kept hidden in her desk, and the rustle of its sleeve echoed off our fake wood walls. Then my phone rang, clearing my head.

  “Miss Faust,” the voice said, “Gus would like to see you in his office.”

  I gave Phil Collins’s bowl an affectionate tap and grabbed my notepad.

  The walls inside our building had been designed to float—so they could be moved easily as the organization grew—and as I passed the lacquered sliding doors of the executive offices, I could hear muffled snippets of conference calls and performance reviews. Presentations, one-on-ones, and lone whistlers, tapping computer keys. Connie from Administrative Services and Stan from IT huddled in a corner gossiping about one of the new technicians. “He took a two-hour lunch last week, Connie. Two. Hours.” Mail deliverers dropped manila envelopes next to lipstick-marked Starbucks cups. Hidden space heaters—which were forbidden—blew pockets of warm air from underneath skinny women’s desks. Every couple of months, these women would arrive in the morning to find their heaters sitting on the seats of their mesh swivel chairs, power cords wrapped up, Post-its affixed to the top scrawled with the word “NO.” Sufficiently reprimanded, they’d take the heaters home. But after several days spent blue-fingered and shivering at their desks, they’d bring the heaters back in again, silently vowing to hide them better and only to use them for a few minutes at a time. Thus would begin the slow slide back to full heaterdom.

  I reached Gus’s secretary—Charlene, a Level 1—with her vertical files and matching baskets of candy. A Yankee candle burned a wide perimeter of Macintosh Apple scent that had come to define this part of the building. Charlene, or, as everyone referred to her now, “Poor Charlene,” looked a little more rumpled than usual; word around the office was she was going through a divorce. She was the third person in our division in the last three months to be getting divorced, and people joked that it might be contagious. Poor Charlene asked me to wait in the hall where I had the privilege of staring at the off-limits cappuccino machine—a shiny black box with a digital screen and the word “Jura” in silver script across the front. From the conference room next door, the voices of brand managers—Level 3s—debated the ROI of a new direct-to-consumer sales scheme.

  “It’s not our target audience, Baldwin.”

  “But look, Chad, this is a chance to really disrupt the market.”

  After a few minutes, the door marked Gus Hanley slid a few inches to the right, and Darren slipped out. He smiled at me and took off down the hall.

  “Gus will see you now, Halley,” Poor Charlene announced.

  I advanced quietly into the office and lowered into a big blue wingback chair next to floor-to-ceiling windows that overlooked the parking lot. The sun filled the room with an enchanting dust-moted glimmer. Gus typed on his computer with his back to me. “Give me just a second,” he said.

  Gus Hanley was a striking figure. The centimeter of gray clinging to his head made his dyed black pillow of hair look like it was floating untethered just above him, and his eyes sunk deeply into his skull, permanently ringed dark purple. He had the leathery, wrinkled skin of a decrepit rock star, and a gap between his two front teeth he could stick his tongue through, which held a certain Brigitte Bardot-ish eroticism if you didn’t look too closely. His hedonism was well known throughout the company, along with his increasing paranoia, in recent years, that people were going to steal his stuff.

  Gus picked up the phone and pressed a button. “Charlene, could you page Darren?”

  He lowered the phone again and turned in my direction. “Poor Charlene,” he said. “You know, I’m getting divorced too. Thank god for prenups.”

  Before I could respond, Darren appeared at the door, nostrils flaring like he had ants in his pants. Among his many responsibilities, Darren worked as Gus’s “carrier,” the person in charge of The Backpack that held all of the important documents that Gus refused to keep on the company server. He didn’t want those “thugs” Tim Cook and Jeff Bezos using their internet sorcery to nab his trade secrets. Therefore, anytime Gus needed a document, day or night, Darren came running. Darren had missed family dinners and important meetings, had run out of theaters in the middle of movies, because he knew that these were all chances to prove himself.

  “I need the Railer document,” Gus said.

  Darren unshouldered The Backpack, unzipped it, flipped through its contents and produced a packet of papers, then left quietly. Gus stared at the document for a few seconds, typed a few more words on his computer, then turned to face me.

  “Halley. I called you in here to talk about something very important.”

  He shifted his weight in his chair.

  “We’re doing a test launch of a new device in Europe next year, before we bring it to the States. It’s called the Tantalus—you’ve probably heard people whispering about it. No? Well, it’s really something special, the Tantalus is like nothing the market has ever seen before. This device is going to put us on the map. I can’t tell you too much—proprietary information, you know. But it’s going to revolutionize consumerism. Anyway, I’m taking a group of Americans on expat assignment for a year to plan and execute the launch. This is going to be the biggest rollout in Findlay’s history, and we have to make sure the Europeans don’t botch it.”

  I studied him without taking a breath. He continued. “We need a Support Staffer for the team, a Level 2 position. Are you up for it?”

  I mentally collapsed to the floor like a beggar. Sweet Jesus, Mary mother of God, please please please give it to me. Please please please please please. Of course, all Gus saw of this was me leaning forward in the blue wingback chair, nodding a vigorous reply.

  Gus clapped his hands together. “Great,” he said. “Well, we can only take one person, and there are several interested. So I think the best way forward is to analyze your performance over the next couple months. You’re working on the San Francisco meeting that’s coming up, right? We’ll see how that goes. Then whoever does the bes
t job will go with us to Europe. Sound fair?”

  “Who else are you considering?” I said.

  “Well, Celeste, for one. And a couple others.”

  Celeste. My heart sank. For one of us to win, the other would have to lose. I couldn’t do that to my best friend.

  Gus’s eyes turned poetic. “This is an incredible opportunity for you,” he said. “A product launch is a sort of rebirth. It’s a chance for the company to remake itself, to show what we’re made of. You’ll be making history. Chances like this come along once in a lifetime.”

  He paused for effect.

  “It’s going to be a hell of a party too,” he added with an evil grin.

  “Where in Europe . . .” I started.

  “Where will we live? France, I’m told. It’s the easiest place for us to get visas right now. But don’t worry about that just yet. Let’s wait and see who we end up hiring, then we’ll go over all the details. Tax issues, salary, insurance, relocation. Lots to consider.”

  I opened my mouth to speak again.

  “Oh,” Gus said, “and we’re looking for someone to manage future launches. So this could become a longer-term position—a Level 3—if all goes well.”

  Jesus, a Level 3? I couldn’t even imagine it.

  His phone rang. “Any other questions?” he asked.

  I stared at his tooth gap in thought.

  “Okay, great,” he said and picked up the phone. “Gus Hanley.”

  I rose and rambled toward the door, intoxicated. The dim heaviness of Findlay’s interior couldn’t diminish the exhilaration of the secret knowledge that lives were about to change, and if by some miracle Celeste wasn’t interested, one of them could be mine.

  “So . . . this product launch,” Celeste said. “Are you thinking about going for it?” She’d been called down to Gus’s office right after me.

  I took a sip of the lukewarm cafeteria coffee I’d neglected all morning. “I don’t know, what about you?” I said, making my voice sound as casual as possible.