Until Nico Read online

  I grab a beer and lean against the counter to watch her as she measures the flowers, pulls a knife out of the butcher block, lays the flowers over the sink, and then starts to saw the ends off. It takes everything in me not to snatch it away from her and do it myself to make sure she doesn’t cut herself. Once she’s done, she fills the vase with water from the sink’s faucet, drops the flowers in and arranges them, and then sets the bouquet on her table. When she turns around, she jumps like she’s startled.

  “You okay?”

  “Yeah,” she says, pressing her hand to her chest.

  “You forgot I was here, didn’t you?” I smile.

  “Maybe,” she says, looking sheepish. She walks over to the stove and checks the water in the big stainless-steel pot.

  “Not used to having people in your house?” I question, taking another sip of beer.

  “I don’t really know too many people around here.”

  I watch as she measures out some pasta before dropping it into the boiling water. “How long have you been in Nashville?”

  “Six months. I wanted to buy a house, and I couldn’t do that in Seattle, so I decided to move down here.” She pulls the lid off another pot, grabbing the long-handled wooden spoon from the spoon rest sitting between the burners and starts stirring whatever it is inside.

  “You moved by yourself?”

  “Yeah.” She shrugs her shoulders and lets out a long breath.

  “It must have been hard to leave your friends and family behind to move to another state where you didn’t know anyone,” I say gently, not knowing if this topic of conversation will send her shutting down.

  “Not really. I have always kinda been a loner.”

  “What about your family?” Even though I already know some about her past, I want her to open up to me.

  “My mom died when I was fifteen,” she whispers, “and my dad isn’t in my life. My mom and dad were only children, my grandparents are all dead, and I don’t have any siblings.” She bites her lip and continues to stir the pasta sauce.

  “I’m sorry.” I take a step towards her, running my hand down her back trying to comfort her. Her body stiffens under my touch, and I watch as she forces herself to relax. “Are you okay?” I ask softly, feeling like I need to treat her like a skittish cat I really want to pet.

  “Yeah, I just… I’m not used to people touching me,” she says, making my heart squeeze. I don’t move away from her. She never said she didn’t like or want people to touch her, just that she’s not used to it. I want her to get used to me touching her.

  “So what are you making?” I change the subject, using the excuse of seeing what she’s stirring in the pot to move closer to her.

  “Spaghetti with meat sauce,” she replies with a small laugh.

  “What’s funny?” I smile automatically.

  “Nothing.” She looks at me over her shoulder, her eyes widening when she sees how close I am to her. “Wh—”She clears her throat. “What about you? Does your family live around here?”

  “They live about forty-five minutes away. I drive to see them every few days.” I lean back against the counter so I can see her face.

  “Are you close to them?”

  “I am. My mom and dad are still married and still very much in love. I have three brothers—Asher, Trevor, and Cash. Asher is married and has four girls, Trevor is married and has both a daughter and a son on the way, and Cash has one of each too.”

  “Cash isn’t married?”

  “He was, and I’m sure he’ll be getting married again soon. His story is long and contains a lot of drama. His ex-wife is certifiably insane. Now he’s back with his first love, and they have their daughter and my nephew.”

  “And you? You’ve never been married?”

  “No. Have you?”

  “No.” She looks at me, and I can see that she wants to say more. “I’ve never been married.”

  All I can think is, Thank fuck. Her eyes get big, like she’s read my mind, and I smile as I watch her cheeks turn pink.

  “Do you want me to help you with anything?”

  “If you can strain the pasta, that would help.”

  She walks to the sink and puts the colander down inside it before going to the fridge, where she pulls out a salad. Then she walks over to put it on the table. She makes her way back to the stove to turn off all the burners, and as I finish straining all the water from the noodles, I watch her, mesmerized, as she leans close to the sauce, inhales deeply, and lets out a soft moan. Again, she’s completely unaware of how fucking sexy she is.

  I have to force myself to unlock the death grip I’ve unintentionally clamped onto her plastic colander. Luckily, I haven’t snapped it yet. When we have everything ready, we both sit at the table, where she starts putting the pasta on each of our plates.

  “This is awkward,” she says, catching me off guard.

  “Really? You think so?” I ask, not feeling the least bit out of place.

  “You don’t?” she asks in response, her eyes meeting mine.

  “No. Do you feel uncomfortable around me?”

  “No, I guess not,” she says, taking a deep breath.

  “As long as you don’t feel uncomfortable, awkward is okay.” I run my fingers over the top of her hand.

  “I guess you’re right,” she concedes with a little shiver.

  I unwillingly force my hand away from hers to pick up my fork, and while we eat, the conversation is light and easy. After we finish the simple but delicious dinner she cooked, we both stand in the kitchen, me with my hip to the counter, and her sitting across from me next to the sink after we finished washing the dishes.

  “So, your dog is named Daisy?” She laughs as I pull out my phone to scroll through my pictures so I can show her some of Daisy.

  “Here she is.” I hold my cell out to her.

  She looks at the screen and her eyebrows rise. Then she brings her focus back to me with a curious look on her face. “She’s adorable. And so not the kind of dog I would expect you to have.”

  “Why’s that?” I ask with a straight face, knowing the reason. Daisy is a cream-colored miniature Pomeranian who weighed about four pounds the last time I took her to the vet. She looks like she should be some blond-haired, blue-eyed valley girl’s lapdog.

  “You just seem like you would own a Rottweiler or Doberman,” she says with a shrug.

  “Is that so?” I raise an eyebrow.

  “I’m sorry. that was rude.” She looks back down at the phone.

  I put a finger under her chin, bringing her eyes back to me. “I’m just kidding. I know she doesn’t fit my image, but she’s mine. I rescued her while I was on a job when she was just a pup, and I had to bottle-feed her. She was so small she fit right in the palm of my hand,” I tell her, holding up my hand and smiling.

  “Aww…you’re a proud papa.” The smile she gives me has me wanting to lean in and taste it.

  “I guess I am.”

  She goes back to looking at my phone, and I go back to watching her. She is beautiful in a way that is completely natural; none of it is fake or for show. It’s just her—who she is. She hands me my phone back, looking around before putting her eyes back on mine. “So, um…do you want to watch a movie or something?”

  “Sure, if you’re up to it.”

  “Yeah. I have Netflix and On-Demand, so you can pretty much pick whatever.”

  I follow her into the living room and sit down on the sofa to watch as she sets up the TV before coming back to sit next to me. Her couch is small, so it forces her to sit close.

  “What would you like to watch?” she asks, turning her head to me.

  “Doesn’t matter.” I twirl a small piece of her hair that has fallen out of her messy bun around my finger.

  “How about The Breakfast Club? I haven’t seen it in a long time,” she suggests, unconsciously tilting her head towards me.

  “Sounds good.”

  I want to kiss her. My brain is battling
against my body, wanting to get closer to her, wanting to taste her mouth again; it’s taking everything in me not to close the small gap between us. I watch her eyes flare slightly, and then she licks her bottom lip, making me wonder if she is thinking the same thing.

  *~*~*

  Sophie

  I take a deep breath, trying to calm myself. Looking away from Nico takes all my power; I’m so drawn to him that I wonder if it’s normal or healthy, and it makes me second-guess things. I don’t want someone just so they’ll fill the hollow places inside of me.

  “So, The Breakfast Club it is, then,” I say, trying to be casual about it in an attempt to cover how nervous I’m feeling.

  “Sounds good,” he replies, sitting back against the couch and getting comfortable. Now I’m wishing I would have paid the extra one hundred dollars and gotten a bigger couch instead of the loveseat.

  I start the movie and sit back against the cushion, and I’m so close to him that I can feel the heat from his body. I don’t know how to sit, so I move my legs under me and start to lean against the armrest.

  “Come ’ere,” he says with a smile teasing his lips as he pulls me by the arm.

  My body moves into his, his arm sliding around me and holding me to him. He smells like leather and musk, and I want to explore him to find out where the smell is coming from. I bite the tip of my tongue hard, trying to find something else to think about other than how hard his body feels against mine.

  “Relax,” he whispers, running his hand down my arm. I shiver against him—not from cold, but from the way it feels when he touches me. “You warm enough?”

  “Yeah,” I whisper, taking another breath as my belly goes crazy with butterflies. I feel his chest moving and I think he’s laughing, so I turn my head to look up at him.

  “You know, you’re really adorable,” he says when our eyes meet. I scrunch up my face at him. I don’t want to be adorable; I want to be beautiful or sexy, not adorable.

  “Relax, sweet Sophie. We’re just watching a movie.” His hand cups my cheek, his thumb sliding over my lower lip as his eyes follow.

  My breath catches and I nod. His hand drops and slides around my shoulder, pulling me snug against him. I can’t help but to relax as he slides it gently up and down my arm. We watch the movie in comfortable silence, and at some point, I fall asleep.

  I wake to the room being cast in a blue glow. It takes a second to remember where I am and who I’m lying on. I put my hand to my mouth, knowing that I probably just drooled all over his shirt, and when I turn my head to apologize, I see that he’s asleep. His arm tightens around me like he doesn’t want me to move. I watch him closely, taking in every contour of his face and the slight stubble along his jaw. Even in sleep, he looks dangerous, but then I think about how gentle he is with me and I wonder how it’s possible for someone to be so complicatedly beautiful.

  When he showed up tonight, I wanted to fall into his arms. He looked hot standing there, wearing a plaid shirt with the sleeves rolled up, showing off his tattoos and his black jeans hugging his thighs. Then I saw the flowers. They were such a complete contrast to the way he looks, and I almost laughed when he held them out to me, looking unsure about them.

  My fingers twitch; I want to trace the outline of his lips with my fingers. I lift my hand slowly; my finger touching his bottom lip causes him to jerk his head away. My hand freezes then moves on its own accord when he stills. His lip is smooth and warm, and I can still remember how it felt against my own when he kissed me. My finger moves slowly as I watch its trail, mesmerized, captivated… Then I scream when his mouth clamps down around my finger, his teeth biting down, not hard, but enough so that I can’t pull away.

  My eyes jump up to meet his as his hands go under my arms, his mouth not releasing my finger, and he pulls me on top of him. He runs his tongue over my fingertip behind his teeth as he situates himself underneath me.

  “What are you doing?” I breathe.

  “I think I should be asking you that,” he says, smiling, and I can feel a large bulge against my belly.

  “Sorry. I just…” I try to get away, but he holds me a little tighter, making my pulse spike.

  “You’re safe with me,” he says, reading my face.

  I force myself to relax, reminding myself that he has been nothing but kind to me.

  “I like that you want to touch me.” He gently pushes my hair away from my face. My eyes close at the contact then open to see him smiling. “We both fell asleep?” he asks as his hand continues to run over my hair and down my back.

  “I didn’t realize how tired I was,” I say with a nod. My eyes start to feel heavy as he strokes me, so I lay my head against his chest, wondering not for the first time why I feel so safe with someone I don’t know all that well.

  “I like this,” he whispers, pressing his lips to the top of my head.

  I snuggle closer, enjoying his warmth and the way he smells. In the back of my head, I keep thinking about the things Maggie said along with the way Nico makes me feel and how much I want to explore things with him, but I wonder if I should wait until I’m in a better place mentally.

  I must have fallen asleep again, because I’m suddenly aware that I’m being carried into my room. Nico lays me on the bed then pulls a blanket up over me.

  “I’m the worst date ever,” I say tiredly as I snuggle down into my bed.

  “This wasn’t a date, remember?” he says quietly.

  “Oh yeah. I don’t do that.” I smile.

  “If this was a date, it was the best one I’ve ever had.” His hand slides gently down the side of my face. I think he is going to kiss me—I want him to kiss me—so I turn my head slightly, but his nose skims my cheek, and his lips go to my forehead. “Sleep, baby. I’m going to head home. I’ll call you tomorrow,” he tells me, kissing me once more; this time, his lips touch the corner of mine. I watch his shadow leaving the room.

  I can hear the doors close, and I know I need to get up and lock my deadbolt and set the alarm, but it takes a minute for me to get out of bed. I pull off my jeans and bra before wandering into the living room to make sure everything is off. I turn on the hall light and start setting the deadbolt when there is a knock on the door. I look through the peephole, seeing Nico standing on the other side, which makes my belly flutter once again.

  “Hey. Did you forget something?” I ask when the door is open.

  “Yes,” he replies, his body suddenly pressing me against the wall. “Jesus,” he groans, looking down my body.

  I forgot I’m almost naked, wearing nothing but a tank top and a pair of boy shorts. When his hand grabs my ass and his mouth lands on mine, I’m instantly reminded of my state of undress. My mouth opens under his, my tongue following what his is doing. My fingers fist into his T-shirt to hold him to me. His hand on my ass squeezes, making me moan into his mouth. He presses me harder into the wall, and I can feel his excitement through his jeans and my thin tank top.

  I don’t really know what I’m doing, so I follow his lead and give up everything I have to that kiss. He rips his mouth away before placing his forehead to mine. We’re both breathing heavily, and it takes a second to come back to myself. I slowly loosen my hands, which have wrapped around his shirt so tightly that my fingers now have impressions on them. He tightens his hand on my ass, his fingers digging into my skin. When I open my eyes, his eyes are on my mouth.

  “I knew I wouldn’t be able to sleep tonight if I didn’t come back and do that.” He presses his lips to mine again, this time just a touch before moving away.

  “I’m glad you came back for that.” I feel my cheeks heat up, and I start to look away, but his fingers go under my chin. His eyes roam my face, and I don’t know what he sees, but I feel exposed and want to pull away.

  “All right, sweet Sophie. Get some sleep.” His hand drops from my ass, and as his body pulls away from mine, he takes his warmth with him. He kisses my forehead and then tilts my head back to kiss my mouth once more be
fore heading out the door he just barged through. “Lock up, babe,” he says over his shoulder.

  “’Night, Nico,” I say softly, closing the door behind him. My fingers touch my mouth and I smile as I lean back against the door. I could definitely get used to him kissing me.

  Chapter 4

  Nico

  I pull up to the front of my house, exhausted. It’s been four days since I’ve seen Sophie. I got a call for a run I couldn’t pass up not long after I left her standing inside her house wearing nothing but a tank top and panties, her mouth still swollen from what mine did to it. My phone buzzes, and thinking that it’s her, I look at the screen, but instead, I see that it’s a text from Asher. I groan, opening the message; all I want to do is take a shower and sleep before I see Sophie.

  Asher: You busy?

  Yes, busily about to pass out, I think.

  Me: Why?

  Don’t say you need me; don’t say you need me… I chant to myself with my fingers crossed as I wait for his reply.

  Asher: I need your help setting up the pool fence.

  “Shiiit,” I groan out loud. I scrub my eyes with my fists and let out a sigh before I respond.

  Me: On my way.

  When I pull out onto the highway and hit dial on my phone, the loud ringing fills my car.

  “Hey. Did you make it home already?” Sophie answers, making me smile.

  “I did, but then my brother messaged me, so I’m heading to his house.”

  “You haven’t slept. Are you going to be okay?” The concern in her voice only solidifies why she is the one.

  “I’ll be okay. I was hoping I could see you at some point tonight.”

  “Oh,” she replies quietly, making my eyes draw together.

  “Oh? Baby, you know you’re a killer on a man’s ego, right?”

  “Sorry, it’s just...”

  I listen as she takes a breath, but when she doesn’t continue, I ask, “Haven’t you ever dated anyone?”

  “Um…”

  “What are you, a virgin?” I joke, expecting her to laugh.