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  “Great. I’ll be able to catch up on my soaps.” He stood up slowly and put on his coat. “Here’s to hoping for a good week…for both of us.”

  She followed him across the rooms, stopping beside the small table that was home to her keys and unopened mail. “Let me give you a ride home.”

  “No,” he said quickly. “No, thanks, I mean. I’ve inconvenienced you enough. Public transportation will do just fine.”

  After an uncomfortable exchange of goodbyes, Leah locked the door and went back to the couch. Emira had already reclaimed her chair. She stared accusingly at Leah.

  “Don’t look at me like that.”

  Emira’s copper-colored eyes didn’t waver.

  “He’s just an old friend…of sorts. Anyway, he’s not encroaching on your territory.”

  The cat didn’t look convinced.

  “And who knows? There might be a way I can help him and my career at the same time.”

  Leah inspected the gauze wrapped tightly around her hand. A faint red stain had blossomed in the center of her palm.

  God knows I can’t seem to help myself.

  ***

  Vincent scooted over as far as he could in his seat, pressing up against the cold glass of the window. The bus was only about half full, so he supposed he should take it as a compliment that the newest passenger—an overweight white guy with a scraggly gray/black beard—chose him as a seatmate.

  What was that Danny used to say about the weirdos on the bus?

  When they were kids, he and Daniel had depended on the Milwaukee County Transit System to take them anywhere they couldn’t walk, since their mother never owned a car. A diligent parent might have been leery of letting her young sons travel halfway across the city on their own, but no one had ever accused Evangeline of being over-protective.

  As older brother, Vincent had been responsible for mapping out the route and, as their mother never failed to remind him, keeping an eye on his little brother. There were times when Vincent, a mere two years older than Daniel, wondered who was going to keep an eye on him.

  It was Daniel who had made a game out of finding the creepiest person on the bus. Laughing at the junkies and shifty-eyed strangers made them all seem less scary. Vincent suspected the jokes were made for the benefit of his big brother, not himself, because Daniel Joseph Pierce had been born without fear. Or so it seemed.

  Vincent wondered if the little wisecracker had worn a smile the day he shot that cop and took a bullet for his trouble.

  “There’s always one crazy person on the bus.” That’s what he used to say. Well, Danny boy, I might just take the cake this time.

  He replayed his conversation with Leah in his mind. Was it possible that losing Clementine had knocked a screw loose? What was the alternative? He couldn’t really be transforming into a medieval warrior in some other dimension.

  As the city swept past his window, Vincent tried to focus on something else—Leah’s strange sleep disorder, for starters—but his thoughts always returned to her comment about minds taking extreme measures when coping with stress.

  What’s the real reason I think Leah is wrong? Why couldn’t losing Clemmy have had such a devastating impact on me? Is it because it took eight years for me to snap or because mediocre dads don’t have the right to have a breakdown when they lose a kid?

  Maybe I’m afraid I’m getting exactly what I deserve.

  Vincent sniffed and wiped a sleeve across his nose, earning him an unappreciative look from the fat man next to him. Vincent’s stop was several blocks away. He pulled the cord anyway.

  Chapter 15

  The sight of DJ sitting in the back of the bus, smiling broadly, stopped Milton mid-step. He considered fleeing, but then he involuntarily pitched forward as the bus renewed its tireless tour of the city.

  I wanted a confrontation. Looks like I’ll get it.

  Heart pounding, his snow-crusted shoes sliding across the smooth floor of the aisle, he slowly made his way to the only other passenger on the bus. He ignored DJ’s wordless invitation to take the seat across from him.

  “Why are you following me?” Milton demanded. He glared down at the young man, but DJ’s crooked smile never faltered.

  “Me follow you? That’s rich.” DJ leaned in and whispered, “In case you didn’t notice, I was here first. Why are you following me?”

  Milton shook his head. He had nearly forgotten how infuriating DJ could be. “It can’t be a coincidence. I don’t know how you got ahead of me—”

  “Ahead of you?” DJ scoffed. “This is the same route I always ride. The last time we met was two stops up from where we are now. You’re going in circles, man!”

  Milton’s shoulders slumped, and when the bus made a fast right turn, he didn’t fight the inertia, falling into the vacant seat beside DJ with a thud.

  “That’s impossible,” he whispered.

  “Maybe you should buy a map,” DJ said. “Or you could tell me where you’re trying to go. I know this city like the back of my hand.”

  To emphasize his point, DJ raised his left hand. The baleful stare of the snake tattoo met Milton’s own red-rimmed eyes.

  “Where am I going? I’m running away from you and your friends!” Milton shouted, unable to look away from the peculiar tattoo. Not a viper or a cobra. The serpent’s broad face and thick body looked more like a prehistoric creature than the sleek, sinuous species typically chosen for emblems of rebellion.

  DJ sat up a little straighter. “Shows what you know, old man. I don’t have any friends anymore, just family.”

  “But…but the last time I saw you, you threatened me,” Milton argued.

  DJ scratched the red stubble on his chin. “Did I? Oh, you mean ‘You can’t run forever’? I was just pointing out a fact. And even if you could run forever, why would you want to?”

  Milton didn’t know what to say. At the time, he had been so convinced DJ was one of his enemies. Maybe he was harmless after all.

  “But wait,” he said, suddenly remembering more of their prior conversation. Was it a coincidence that his thoughts seemed clearer when he was with DJ? “You said something about the end of the world…”

  DJ rolled his eyes. “Lucky guess?” Milton’s body language must have conveyed his skepticism because DJ added, “I’d figured you for a schizophrenic. Delusions of persecution…everyone is out to get you…the government is evil, so you have to expose the sinister plot. Blah blah blah.”

  “I’m not crazy,” Milton said.

  “Maybe you are, and maybe you aren’t. I’d be happy to make a diagnosis. Why don’t you tell me how you got into this mess in the first place?” DJ pulled his sweatshirt’s hood up over his messy hair and slid closer to the aisle. “Who is really chasing you and why?”

  Milton searched DJ’s face for signs of treachery, but if there was anything sinister lurking beneath the eager expression, the boy hid it well. To Milton’s surprise, he truly wanted to tell the boy everything, to unburden himself from the terrible secrets—if he could only remember them.

  I just need more rest…more time…

  “C’mon, Milton,” DJ prompted. “Don’t be such a bore.”

  Something about that last word tugged at Milton’s weary mind, but he lost the thought before it could even be born.

  What do I have to lose? If DJ is one of them, he already knows the truth.

  “Like I told you before, I believe the CIA is involved.” Milton shivered in spite of the bus’s toasty interior. “Their scientists are doing horrible things…meddling with our minds.”

  “How?”

  “Dreams!” Milton blurted, surprising himself with the force behind the word. He closed his eyes and once more saw the balding man in a white lab coat.

  “But why mess with people’s dreams?” DJ asked.

  Milton rubbed his eyes with the palms of his hands and stifled a yawn. “I…I’m not sure.”

  “Wake up, man. This is important!” DJ snapped, hastily adding, “Unles
s you really are delusional.”

  “No…no…” Milton reached for the answers, but the truth was buried somewhere deep. The snowstorm outside had nothing on the tempest raging inside his brain. “To get into people’s thoughts,” he said at last.

  DJ jumped up. “Mind reading? Really?”

  “Yes…I think…but that’s not the whole of it…I just can’t…can’t seem to…” He yawned again.

  DJ crouched down, his face inches from Milton’s. “Where are they doing this?”

  “Here.”

  “Here?” DJ growled in disgust. “Here is nowhere! What kind of an answer is that?”

  Milton closed his eyes again. He could almost see a picture in the darkness. The laboratory. The man with gray-green eyes. The syringe. The sword.

  “Odin,” Milton whispered.

  “What did you say? Milton? Don’t you dare fall asleep!”

  Milton barely heard DJ over the voice in his head—his own voice.

  “Odin is chief god in the Norse pantheon. He is associated with wisdom, magic, prophecy—”

  A different voice chimed in:

  “And battle and death.”

  Someone grabbed Milton by the shoulder and shook him. He opened his eyes, expecting to find the man with the high forehead and lab coat. But it was only DJ Or was it? The man crouched beside Milton resembled DJ—certainly the bright blue eyes were the same—but the intensely serious look on his face aged him by a decade or more. The man’s bloodshot eyes were wide, expectant.

  DJ’s sweatshirt was gone, replaced by a black leather jacket. Milton glanced down, searching for some sign of the wolf. He gasped. Something dark and wet was dripping from a hole in the front of the jacket. The metallic scent of blood assailed him.

  Milton scrambled away until his back was against a window. Then he must have blinked because the wounded man was gone, and young DJ was back.

  “Easy there, Milton.” DJ stood in the aisle, draping a hand over the back of the seat in Milton’s row and his other over the one in front of it. Standing squarely between Milton and escape. The crudely drawn wolf head was at eyelevel.

  “Were…were you bleeding just now?” Milton asked.

  DJ replied with a question of his own. “Who is Odin?”

  Tires squealed from somewhere nearby, and Milton jumped. From the aisle, DJ turned to the rear window of the bus and quickly looked away when a bright light flooded into the bus. Milton thought they were too bright to be headlights. He turned in his seat, craning his neck to see—

  “Get down!” DJ yelled, taking cover in the opposite row of seats.

  Ignoring the warning, Milton peered into the painfully bright light. The vehicle behind the bus was too big to be a squad car or even the black sedans government agents always drove in the movies. It appeared to be a large van.

  And it was getting closer.

  Milton dove down onto the seat at the exact moment that the van’s grill struck the bus. Pieces of glass poured down on him, cutting into his hands and the parts of his face he couldn’t cover.

  Oh God, they’ve found me. They’ve finally come for me!

  The van’s motor roared angrily through the glassless hole in the back of the bus. Judging by the sound and the blur of streetlights in the remaining windows, both the van and the bus were accelerating. Milton wondered why the bus driver didn’t pull over.

  Something tugged at Milton’s leg, and he kicked out in sudden panic.

  “Ouch! Damn it, Milton. It’s just me,” DJ said. Half of his face was whitewashed with artificial light. “Looks like you’re not crazy after all. Now move to the front of the bus. Go!”

  Milton did as he was told, cringing when his movements sent glass shards clattering across the floor. He dared to glance at road behind them. The van was a little farther back, but it was picking up speed, its tires sending clumps of snow spraying in its wake.

  As Milton pushed past DJ, he saw the young man remove a silver pistol from the back of his waistband. Their eyes met.

  “What can I say? I have enemies too,” DJ said with a shrug before firing at the approaching vehicle. Over his shoulder he cried, “Get going!”

  The bus started to sway from side to side, skidding on the slick road. Milton was forced to grab onto each seat in succession to keep his balance. Another gunshot. He focused on the big broad windshield ahead, though he had no idea what he was going to do when he reached the front of the bus.

  How ever did I get here? I’m a scientist, not a—

  He halted halfway to his destination and repeated aloud, “I’m a scientist!”

  The next bang was far too loud to be DJ’s gun. The bus pitched sharply to the side, flinging Milton forward into a sideways, bench-like seat. He thought, for one maddening moment, that the van had fired a cannon at them, but then all he could do was hold on as the bus started to spin.

  He felt the crash in every nerve of his body. Even after the bus’s momentum was absorbed by whatever it had struck, everything kept swirling around and around. Milton closed his eyes, as much as to shut out the nauseating spectacle as to retreat from reality.

  “Hey, wake up.” DJ gave Milton a shake. “That van spun out a little farther up the road.”

  Milton accepted the young man’s hand and was pulled to his feet. All he could manage to say was “Who?”

  “That’s what I’d like to know,” DJ muttered, frowning. “These guys play by their own rules.”

  DJ half guided, half pushed Milton to the door of the bus. There was no sign of the driver. The folding door was already open. Since the front, right wheel was suspended a foot or more off the ground, he and DJ were forced to jump down.

  Milton numbly took in the crash scene. The bus had struck into the side of an old business building. One of the pillars, having snapped in half, rested horizontally in a self-made trench on the top of the bus. A clock, which must have been attached to the building, now lay in the street. From where he was standing, the clock’s face appeared to contain only eights.

  Farther down the block, the van’s driver-side door opened. A tall man stepped out.

  “Time for you to start running again.” DJ raised his arm, and a loud crack rent the still night.

  The tall man didn’t flinch. A spark on the side of the van revealed DJ’s aim to be off by a good three feet.

  Milton turned and ran, but after a few steps he stopped. DJ hadn’t budged. “Come on, boy!”

  DJ shook his head and aimed again at the slim driver, who was walking purposefully, if not swiftly, toward them. “I’ll buy you some time.”

  Milton started to argue, but the tall man shouted the word “bore.”

  No, not “bore.” Borr!

  His thoughts started to swim, but his concentration shattered when DJ started firing again. Bullets whizzed past the long-legged man, hitting the van and the street but not the intended target.

  “Son of a bitch,” DJ spat.

  Suddenly, a bright light poured down from the sky, bathing the van in blue-white light. For a fraction of a second, Milton caught a glimpse of a gray, eight-legged horse painted on the side of the vehicle, but then the spotlight swept over to DJ Milton shielded his eyes. He heard the unmistakable staccato of a helicopter propeller.

  Standing between him and the tall man, DJ fired at the sky until the gun was empty.

  DJ turned toward Milton, smirking. “Well, it was worth a shot.” He chuckled. “Get it? ‘A shot’? Guess I’ll catch you later, Milton.”

  Before Milton could reply, DJ charged toward the tall man, who remained in shadow despite the spotlight overhead.

  Milton hesitated. “DJ!”

  He squinted up at the aircraft, a menacing mass of black against the white sky. The vehicle grew larger as the machine descended. Artificial wind sent frenzied snowflakes flying in all directions. Despite the whir of the helicopter’s blades and the wind screaming in his ears, he heard DJ shout, “My, you’re a tall drink of water.”

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  Then the searchlight landed on Milton, and he fled.

  Running as fast as he could in the ankle-deep snow, Milton suddenly remembered the vision of the man in the bloody jacket who momentarily had replaced DJ on the bus. Had it been a premonition or simply a hallucination manufactured by his sleep-deprived mind?

  He abandoned the question, however, as he turned down one nameless street after another and lost himself in the rhythm of his wheezing breaths and the crunch of snow beneath his feet.

  Chapter 16

  Vincent hurried through a neighborhood that felt nothing like home in spite of the five months he had lived there. By the time he reached Brady Street, the sun had dropped behind the rooftops of the buildings, casting the sidewalk in shadow.

  He spared the other pedestrians an occasional glance—a corporate type coming out of the overpriced coffee shop and a troupe of twenty-somethings with bags from the music store—and wondered what they would do if The Dream came on, causing him to collapse in the middle of the sidewalk. Not wanting to find out, he quickened his pace.

  Could Leah be right? Could thoughts about Clementine and Bella be triggering The Dream?

  Vincent tried to distract himself. The sign outside of the drugstore advertised Halloween costumes and candy. He recalled with a wry smile how Danny once had chopped up the curtains in his room to make a superhero cape. Surprisingly, their mother had laughed.

  Evangeline Pierce hadn’t had a problem with Halloween back then, even if there wasn’t any money for good costumes. After Clementine was born, roughly around the time his mom got hooked on Catholicism, she tried to convince Bella and him not to let her grandchild celebrate the devil’s holiday.

  So much for not thinking about Clemmy.

  Vincent wondered what his little girl would have looked like at age ten. What costume would she have picked?

  No, she’d be eleven now. Funny how I never remember her birthday when it comes around, but I can’t forget November 4th, the anniversary of her death.